The very first rule
has been broken
that you made
in the first place.
When waking up in the morning
is all that I can do sometimes
when breathing hurts so badly
when I know I cannot cry
because I will not stop.
My faith in being honest never wavers
no matter how many souls
In love I still believe
but I think you have finally convinced me.
You may feel backed in a corner
but I have no way out.
you speak with such serenity
about how you could up and leave
flew with a sense of being free
but what about me
what's left behind the smell of you
when I could never speak my truth
the pieces being ripped apart
I never should have let you in
I should know better
I am never chosen
Invisible Girl with the Tremendous Heart
continuously left behind.
I see the difference
the path you now walk on
how important it is that you stay moving
you see all the small details
yet you fly right by me
I've been here
I'll be here
I don't even know what it is that I should do
but I know you
and I can do this.
What is left to consider
Where you think I'm resisting
I'm testing the resilience
You don't have to drag anything out
It's all there directly under the surface
All you have to do is swim.
There are so many reasons not to
might even be easier that way
but there is something stirring in me
deeper than I have ever let myself go
but do I say so
It is not
that I have no faith in people
that I won't be close to them
any of them
or that I think I can find it again
I just don't want to
my focus is elsewhere
life is about wherever that takes me
but then here you are
didn't even wish for this
and if you ever asked me...
I didn't know nearly enough
of Things I Wish I Knew About You
But that wouldn't have stopped me from trying.
You've changed me.
I didn't even know what I was looking for
when I found you.
When you thought you were too much
I just think about all the time we had
I could have always had more
I don't know how, but you match me
made me smile when I forgot how to laugh
raised my standards when I was at my lowest
raising my spirits to see your shine
Lately I've been questioning everything
going through all of this blind
but I would never forgive myself
if I were to just let this fade away.
I may not know everything there is to know
Who says that I need to
I just know you set my soul on fire.
You started something
then you finished it
I have no regrets
I will always miss you.
Happy Dappy Birthday, Abigail.