Do you know what it's like?
To have the person you love
Rip open your chest
Cut out your heart
With sergical like grace    
And tell you it's not red enough
Then throw it to the floor
But before their boot can bring the end
They pick it up say I'm sorry

We were 13
We said "love you" over text
But I didn't kiss you because I didn't know you
And that's why we broke up

You were tired of being rejected
I was almost 16 and never-been kissed
Your mom didn't want you to date me
And we didn't like each other enough to fight it
And that's why we broke up

You were so sweet and loving
But you accused me of sharing my affections
And even though I didn't
I felt guilty because I did compare you to him
And that's why we broke up

We were never actually a couple
But I made up excuses to talk to you
I went out of my way to touch you
I apologized when you wronged me
But you still didn't want me
My worst heartbreak wasn't a breakup  

You were soft and secure
And I thought I was broken
There was nothing wrong with us
We confused being comfortable with being in love
And that's why we broke up

Suffering is never worse than the fear of suffering.
I'd take a million hits
Rather than fear when your fists will strike
I'd rather hear you scream
And feel my heart break
Then fear when your tongue will lash out

I can feel the numbness
It pulses in my lips
I pinch my hips
To see if I still exist
I can't breath
Maybe I'm just suffocating
The air won't pull in  
My chest rises and falls
But nothing gets pulled in
Im suffocating in the darkness
That I created
From my own stupidity
The world is not ending
But my world is pulling away
Taking the air I breath with him
I'm left out in space
But there are no stars
It's the emptiness
I carved out around me
With bleeding hands
I can't breath
I can feel the numbness
It pulses in my lips
I feel the grace of fingertips
I try to latch on
I weigh a ton
Will my world hold on
After all my stupidity
Will he give me air to breath

I love you
Even I try to be numb
When I don't wanna feel
I still feel that love
My head is dizzy
My stomachs upset
And my cheeks are wet
The room is spinning
Nothing can make it go away
Now I'm crying
Because it seems like you can push it away
I can't
I always know I love you
Even when I don't wanna feel
I still feel that love
I always love you
Even when I wanna be numb
The only thing I can feel
Is the love I have for you

It's dark
My thoughts go running
As if for a stroll through a painful park
They're gunning for my demise
You said you love me
I can't see it with my own eyes
So maybe you didn't mean it
You're 7000 miles away
Surrounded by women
So much better than me in all ways
I'm nothing and they're a ten
My heart is shriveled to nothing
Still squeezing my chest constricts
I can't ask if you really mean it
It'll cause you pain
I'm the only one who deserves to suffer
I'm nothing important