Reality has always been
So far away from me
I had you once
But maybe I never really did
Only created the illusion

Acting the way you do
Makes one feel like those feelings
Are returned
For once

Maybe for a moment they were
Returned only in those moments

I still love you
And I'm sure I always will
For everything that you are
You are still home to me

I wish I could be yours
I thought I was
Never official
But who needs labels

But that was wishful thinking
Being led on by encouraging actions

We do have something special
But I wish I had you to myself
I think I'm selfish after all

At least I have you in my dreams
I dream about you often
And in that time
I have you
And you have me
And both are equal
Everything I have ever wanted
Continues while I sleep
Sometimes I never want to wake up
Why would I want to wake up
Only to be slapped across the face
I wish I could dream forever

Things that meant the world to me
Never meant a single thing to you
Wasted three years
Now I'll be wasted come 3 'o clock
Climbed over mountains
Trekked through the bitter coldness
Of a soul that was insane
All for you
And my misplaced love
That never was
Only a figment of my imagination

My heart is breaking
Piece by piece
It's not just a metaphore
Not anymore

I feel it in my chest
Right in my heart
These pangs of pain
You said it's for the best

But how can you decide
What's right for me

I can't let you be

But I'll give you that space
If you could just look at my face

I'm sorry I tried to understand
I went too far
Into those walls built from scars

The tears run down my face
There is no light in this place
You are the sun
But you always run

I'll let it go
If I could just have
Things as they were

Not a fabricated distance
That is only another wall

Please look at me
The way you used to
I miss seeing your face

Your sincere smile
I cannot erase
But I fear
I made it disappear

There's gotta be a way out
From these chains holding me

My heart is breaking apart
Spinning around in this illusion

Or am I disillusioned

My mind is breaking down further

I walk through these shards of glass
Just to be with you

Desperate for some kind of revelation
Holding on to desire

You are the only hope I can see
Dying to believe

It's part of me
You are the light to me

You lack emotion in your eyes
I can see all the fears you face
All the tears you've cried
I see it in your eyes
You hide the pain
I'll never let you deal with it alone
I'll be right here
If you'll let me
I'll sit outside the door when you cannot bare to talk
I'll be right here
Picking up the broken pieces
No matter how many times it takes
I'll fix you
I'll love you
If you let me
And even then I will still try
I'll be right here
To show you the love you lost
When everything seems to fall away
And hope begins to fray
Don't believe all the lies
Meant to bring you down
I will always be right here
I'll show you the way out
When the way seems so far
Let me love you when you break
Just take my hand

There is something deep inside
Burning like flames within

Witness to all the suffering
This world is an empty promise

Build me up
Watch me crumble

Keeping this saint-like mind
Is hard when I know
I'm dying inside

Suffering for myself
And for others
I find myself lost
Wanting to shoulder all the pain

Do I give in
Or keep on going

You say I'm too good for the world
But baby, I say I'm stripped away
Everything has been betrayed

This will be the end of me

I'm far too young to fade

I want to give in
To the pain
The rage

Everything is black and white
Stripped away of the grey

Breaking apart
This will be the end of me