A pocket dimension
cordons me away
From the world.

I fall asleep in Anne's room.
But when I wake I open my eyes
and see

from the inside
the leaves from the vines falling
so slow, surreal.

I see the outside world, but who sees me?
Only those who've come to seize
come to see.

But I am unaffected,
Protected by the warmth glow
of my humble abode

A place of serenity
that I call
home.

Sitting at the edge of the world
I ****** a paper plane down
It flutters and glides down the side of the hill. Disappearing.

I'm ever so alone again.

I'm a madman with a dream
You're a sad man w/o esteem

We both lack self-control
For I am slave to money
And you are slave to me

Freedom is what you seek,
Control over your life.
is what I need
To accomplish my dream of being together
Living luxuriously
A dream that you do not share with me.

You
Are
A.      L.        L.  
That I
need
To succeed
This dream

The key. I should focus more on it
For you are the answer to all I seek

Love is an obsession
and all obsessions are unhealthy

To get rid of You
I must fill my mind with another


and the cycle continues again


unless.....



I am a thrill seeker
norepinephrine chaser

Your love pales in comparison

In the face of Death

a picture speaks a thousand languages,
despite its transfixation.
a video only one,
albeit its fluidity.

At the center of it all
You are the core that imbues beauty

One night

Let me
Rip you away from your existence
Away from your reality
And into mine

To chase back lost time

the Touch of death
go back from whence you came
become
nothing

Stringing my ukulele by the seas,
music is my solemn company.
Calming waves, dark and gloomy
beneath the lights, shining ever brightly.
I want to be above it.

I realize after sitting for a bit that
this is not an escape, but
a mistake.
Stories of broken sailor dreams
of freedom and peace,
Lies only in fantasy

Our concrete reality, moulded by
waves of uncertainty.
Should we anchor our lives upon it
The lights speak to me.

Mephistoles Mephistoles
Grant me your wish
You'll empty my hearts out and carve out my sins

Mephistoles Mephistoles
Cleanse me of thee
Guilt that drowns my soul whenever I breathe

Lest eternal emptiness suffocates me
Bring me to hell and burn out my sins

I submerge myself in the sea.
Whens't destiny can't find me.
Freezing silence surrounds my being
I enveloped the abyss; darkness.
Where I feel strangely at peace.
                                                          ­                                   Detached  
from the world.

My eyelids                                                          ­       loosening its grip,
it stings as the darkness seeps in the windows             to my soul

My lungs                                                            ­       tightening its hold
                                                           ­                                    to my heart
  as it beats with indefatigable yearn to live.                                       

My brain                                                            ­                  distorted      
from the lack of oxygen fighting against my                    instincts  
to breathe    


        i        start                                        ­                            hallucinating
                  in       the                         distance                                
      i         glimpse       a     phantom      of   her                                          


I    open    my  eyes    desiderate     for                                light
the                                                             ­                              darkness    
gushes         in       ;  I    fight                                       
            ­                        
To capture one last sight
I need more light
One last breath

to                                                       ­                                     Reunite ,
My 
Eurydice

Like a hanging fruit upon a mistletoe
Impeding new year's resolution

My power is lost
through my will
is yours - to command;

I am placed in your box of stasis,
wherein lies
things that become forgone

U
render me unable to move on

-- . .-.. --- -.. .. . ...
My soft yearning gaze upon your emanating presence
fills my heart to the brim with appreciation
Of your beauty, the lines of your face like
superlunary threads woven together in fractals;
an instantiation of geometric perfection.
Like æther, the material of celestial spheres,
creating a passage
that connects the edge of one to the other.
Transmitting a frequency that channels my heart with love;  of the
warm embrace of your beauté

Your beauty
transcends
dimensions
like music
that feeds
my lost soul
||
I pay for it with time
like a bridge to traverse between dimensions

For this passage is not physical
but a liminal space
when I close my eyes
and think of you.