Unreciprocated love
It's a popular topic,
In songs and poems
The hurt you feel is so strong,
Always longing and looking.
What they don't tell you
Is how much it can hurt,
being on the other end.
Knowing that you could never understand
What they see in you
Or the depth of their affections
Knowing that you have broken someone.
You've fed the monster called fear,
And you know that you have only given them
more reason to doubt.
"I'm Sorry" you say.
Because it's the only thing you can say to someone,
When you have bruised their heart.
I wish you could understand,
Rejecting you hurts me.
We blame each other,
trying to find fault
until one comes to the conclusion,
Control is impossible.
Just like you can't force someone to love you
You can't force someone to unlove you.
So I let the anger go
And release you from your torment.
"End things on a good note" I tell myself.
So I do just that,
But no isn't in your vocabulary.
You will always be wanting and wishing
And hoping for me to change,
While I wait for you in turn.
But I guess we're both stubborn that way.
So I say goodbye to what we used to be,
Because we will never be the same.
Knowing that whenever you see me,
you will always want us to be more.
So rather then torturing you with a
distant, strained, friendship.
I scribble down my thoughts,
stick a stamp on it,
And watch it leave.
I had the last word.
I hope it brings you closure.
This is the last you will hear from me.
I hope I stay kind in your mind.
I hope I will be remembered as the girl who cared.
But I hope I fade out of your thoughts,
And be remembered as a dream.
I had a friend who loved me as more than a friend. I rejected him once, then twice, but we remained close friends. Then one day he took things to far. So I shut him out. i sent a letter expressing how I don't blame him nor do i hate him, but he was drowning me and I needed to breathe. So i broke for the surface.