We stood cold and frozen in the rain
Raindrops hiding the tears you've shed
Heads are bowed low, hearts broken to pieces
Our bodies locked tight in a last embrace

Your breathing felt warm yet faint
Our minds went blank and confused
As much as we don't want to let go
The rift between us grows wider by the second

As I held your small, fragile face up
I can't help but stare at the fading light in your eyes
We just had to lean in for one last sweet kiss
Let the last spark of passion between us dissipate

As I try to let you go, you begged with dear life
As I struggled to resist your plea, I knew I wouldn't win
Even as I said goodbye, my arms were wrapped tight
Frozen in place with you in between them

With all the strength I had left in my heart
I turned my back to the sweetest memories we shared
But you desperately clung to every fiber of my being
I knew in my heart how badly I still wanted to stay

With all the voice you still had left
You screamed your final "I love you's"
I knew they're enough to make me turn around
But this time, we need to let each other go

As I walked away dragging my resisting feet
and I struggled to run away from your embrace
God knew how it crushed the life out of me
As I broke free from your heavy gravity

As I let you go, it took every cell in my being
Every muscle in my body rebelled against me
But because I love you with everything I have
Letting go was the only way to save you from my destruction

As I let you go, all memories of us surged like flash floods
Every smile of yours etched in my mind and heart
All of your kisses that I know I will never feel again
All those feelings broke out as tears fell from my eyes

I missed you every night in every dream
You haunted me in every way I couldn't imagine
Letting you go was my life's biggest regret
But to see you broken in my last moments, that I cannot bear

As heaven took my last breath away
Your small smiling face solely gave me ease
I know I won't be able to embrace you in this life again
So please wait for my return on our next chance

The scars of what was
Left etched in the corners of
The heart you wounded

Those simple, honest smiles
That leaves my lungs breathless
That noisy, heart-felt laughter
That leaves my chest bursting with joy
Those innocent, striking eyes
That render every muscle in me helpless
Those subtle, soft whispers
That feels like music to my ears
Your warm and fuzzy embrace
That I look forward to all day

They bring my frozen heart
closer to melting point
They make me fall from my heaven
fast down to your earth
They pull me closer by the minute
to wanting to stay with you
They give life to my nightly dreams
of getting pulled towards your gravity

I want to chase your heart
catch it and make it mine
As you chased mine
and made it yours
The world may be imperfect
but you are my taste of heaven
Everything may feel wrong
but you're the only thing that feels right
I won't ask for anything else
because I am content
of getting closer
to you

For eons I have traveled alone
Wandering the stars and planets
For millennia I created and destroyed
I sought only perfection above all

I saw kingdoms rise
I saw empires crumble
I saw heroes born
I saw villains fall

Power was mine and mine alone
I was the master of my will
Lord of the invisible fate
I alone enjoy this divine existence

But loneliness still haunted me
My existence is my own bane
I guess even gods are vulnerable
When only chaos surrounds them

One day I descended to the earth
to live among the mortal souls
To manipulate with their fates and hearts
Business as usual for me

But in the midst of it all
The strings of fate were working
Pulling my heart towards
This unlikely twisted scene

There she was standing
A mortal soul who's beauty
Transcends the mortal to the immaterial
Then and there, I fell to the ground

Her auburn hair swayed with the wind
Her eyes twinkled of pure onyx
Her scent so sweet to the nose
Like jasmines blooming in full

The innocence in her heart so pure
The curvatures similar to a goddess
I wonder what I had in mind
When I created her to life

Who would have thought
that even gods would fall in love
Fate just made a cruel joke
But even so, I was meant to be here

I have seen it all
I have felt everything that is
Yesterday was a thousand years
Tomorrow is just the next second

But here I was, falling for her
The only time when a god
Fell in love with Mortality
Falling in love with her Humanity

Years have passed like mere seconds
I watched her age, her face becoming frail
Her body weakening rapidly
Slowly crushing my fallen heart

I know Death comes for her soon
and I know her life with me is almost done
But a life without her love is impossible for me
A gaping hole that even eternity cannot fill

I love her from the stars and back
I love her in my dreams and my reality
I loved her when I first breathed her life
And I'll love her still as I face the end of time

Her life is a blimp in the universe
but to me she was everything
I would trade eons of my existence
Just to see her smile again momentarily

Your perfect silhouette carved on my mind
Your sweet bedroom voice on repeat in my ears
Your addictive lips lingering on my mouth
Your alluring taste still stuck on my tongue
Your subtle brown eyes triggers a cardiac arrest
The scent of your sweat still clings to my body
That steamy night still drives me wild
How you hold me tight and made me yours
God, its not even the best part

Whenever we wake up
Staring in each other's eyes
Feeling each other's touch
Gasping for the same, warm air
Exchanging each of our breaths
As our eyes meet and linger
I can't help but fall deeper
****, you're so beautiful
Both inside and out
I'm in love with your smile
The smile that fries my brains
That laugh that electrifies me
Those whispers that bring me ease
God I want them everyday

More
I want you
More

More
I love you
More

Give me more of you
Let me fall deeper
Don't let me escape
Hold me tight
Cling and never let go
Kiss me slowly
Don't let me pull away
For a gasp of air
Have your way with me
Just give me all of you
I want to see only you
To feel only your touch

Be the best part of my day
The source of my desires
Make me yours everyday
Keep me addicted to you
Make me want for more

More of you
More for me
And as I love you more
I'll make you love
more of me

Whatever I do
No matter how I resist
I am drawn to you

What is this wretched feeling?
That eats all my happiness away
What is this weary feeling?
That secretly tears me away
What is this heavy feeling?
My chest being crushed by the weight
What is this dreadful feeling?
No matter what I do it doesn't dissipate

No matter how much I cry out
Nobody wants to listen
No matter how loud I scream
Nobody can hear my pleas
I feel like no one cares about me
Would you please help me?

Sometimes I just want to disappear
And take an adventure to a life without sadness
Would dying lead me to
A pain-free afterlife?
If Death greets me and brings calm
To my grieving, bleeding heart
I guess I won't hesitate
I just need to get out of here

Imagine that?
You still live in the flesh but
Your soul is way beyond rotten
And yet you can't do anything
But whisper it in silence
My heart pumps blood
But it never really is beating
My days go by without me struggling
Thinking about what to do with my life

I am depressed
It's no joke
I feel bad about me everytime
I see them getting somewhere
in this life but I'm still stuck
In the middle of
Nowhere

Can I really turn this around on my own?
I don't know what I should do?
I still want to live but everyday
I'm dying inside

I'm just depressed
I may also be insane
I don't know if I'm manic
Or just really anxious
So will anyone just sit down
And listen to me?

Listen to me?
Help me please?
Empathize with my suffering?
Hear me out?
Will you just stop?
And will you just
Listen to me?

Just...

Once..

??





I need help..
..
..



Will you help me?