Everyday is a torture for me.
Everytime I wake up I don't feel anything.
Yes, I laugh, I cry and get angry;
But that was all empty.
I laugh for nothing;
I cry for nothing;
I get angry for nothing.
People may think I'm crazy;
But no, I just feel empty.
If you'd ask me why,
Then I'm sorry;
I can't answer it, because I also don't know.
I just feel empty;
Empty, empty, empty.

"October"
It was in October, a cold blue night.
I heard news from my friend that I could barely talk with delight.
For a moment, my heart stopped;
And my mind was blocked.

Questions keep circling in my mind.
I was locked up in darkness and begin to become like a blind.
I was blind in love and care;
And my soul almost died in thin air.

Why did she died?
I keep asking this question and feel horrified.
I tried my best to accept the truth;
And now, If I say I'm totally fine, then that would be a lie.
I still want to see her and tell her that she is very important to me and to my youth.
It was in October, the day she died.

In this blue night;
I was enchanted by a strange light,
That makes my heart delight.
But also makes me feel melancholic in this night.

We were lost at that time and drifted apart,
Never knowing when to say goodbye in our hearts.
Memories in the past;
Will forever last.

Back then, we were so happy
And we see each other as lucky.
But I realized that it was all a fantasy.
And I can never see you being with me happily.

I was slowly drowning,
And everyday I keep crying.
My world was drifting;
And now, under this moonlight I am dying.

The little bird wanted to fly;
But an accident occurred and it cried.
It got shotted and can't fly.
It nearly died and wanted to say goodbye.
It's dream was to soar high in the sky.
Will the little bird give up on its dream and say goodbye?
Or will it give all its best to soar high and make it's dream come true to life?

I'm screaming inside all day.
This pain that won't go away keeps me in misery and won't let me runaway.
I wanted to be okay;
And just go on my way.
But it keeps on following me and won't stay away.
How am I supposed to shut this screaming noise, if this pain would hinder me and not hide away?