I have the heart of a believer and the mind of a skeptic
Some say it's a gift, I say it's tragic
I live in a universe of chaos inside my head
Who among us is truly at peace but the dead?

Nothing but a sweet sensation
Whenever we are together
Girl, we brighten each other's world
Let this be forever
Simply breathtaking
When we hold one another
Nothing but a picture perfect painting
Let us make this even better

She sat staring at the clock
thinking hoping
that there was some other way
not realizing the effect of her decision

but as the minutes ticked by
and the time she had
to talk herself out of it was over
and she began the task;
her last task

and as she completed it she wrote don't miss me,
I was never good enough
for you anyway
and with that she took her last breath
on the earth she lived on
for 16 short years.

~This lovely day was golden for me,
Just to wake up and see you respond about anything,
Let's me know, you're still there.
I love you so much, and I want to be the one to make things better for you.
There is so much a girl like me could offer a boy like you,
Words of truth is when I say I can make your future the best.
My heart breaks when I see you in pain, hurting or devastated.
I wish I could touch your shoulder and say,
"Tell me everything. I support you."
Because I really, truly do.
I'm so sorry about your father,
It's not your fault. He loves you.
And I know this for a fact.
I wish I could be there to show you how much I do care,
Yeah, it may seem unlikely that a girl thousands of miles away cries for you,
But if you, if you only knew,
If I had to spend my life soaking up your pain,
And even if you never said,"I love you,"
I would do it. Because all that matters then is that I love you,
It's been enchanting to know you,
To be the love of your life.
My heart is centered around you.
Oh darling, I wish you were here.
I can't say I'll be perfect,
But I can say I would do everything it takes to hold the rank of good enough for you.
That's impossible though. Yet I could show you the world through my eyes,
And yes, you would be heavily mystified,
I'm glad my day is around you,
You make my life beautifully true.
I could hold your hand for the rest of your life,
Seconds before I end mine,
You are my moon, my sun, the vast ocean of my heart.
You're perfect, Andy, and you know I don't want to lose you.
I want it to be us, no matter who loves me,
Because there is only one person that my eyes see,
He's perfect to me, nothing less,
I have to remind him he is the best,
For every battle he must fight or face,
It is Andy where my love holds its base.
Anytime I look at the sun, I can imagine you looking at it too,
Both of us, the only difference is the point of view.
We each share a little piece of that golden sun,
But one day, we will unite as one.
To the one who can make me shine,
I love you.
To the one who I will always love,
Shine brightly~

Breathe it out;
a sigh tossed through a wind
struggling and bending;
rustling fruitless treetops,
and turning dead leaves with roars.

A collision of warmth against cold.

A classy kind of car ride:
1950's radio station at a comfortable volume.
10 minutes later and we arrive.
Sun block on.
Sneakers tied.
Water bottles in hand.
Round and round the lake we go.
Just he and I.
The sun is yellow
The grass is green
The sky is blue
All the colors in their rightful place.
It's more like a walk filled walk
than a talk filled walk,
but that's the way we like it best.
No small talk here.
Just big talk for us:
the speed of light,
the start of humanity,
the purpose for our existence.
Otherwise, we just walk
oh and sometimes we jog too...
(His legs are long,
so sometimes I have to jog
in order to keep up.)
We have our own routine
our own system
our own pace.
Just he and I
Just he and I