I have gone for almost a year
Frowning on my chances
Wiping up the tears
Seems Life has gone well
Well Aint I the lucky apple?
To the teen before
that is depressed and squabble
Now free from the land
That use to be my devil
The demon in my head
No longer my cradle

The old Alvirez now become JJ (My new Nickname)
From the depth of my fear
From the demon that i slay
No longer chain from my rear
Hoping one day
I made it and it will continue this way
To keep that fire burning
Keep on fighting
To the Lord i pray

For the time being
I just wanna do the things I love
Protect the ones i care to
Until one day
This body wont be able to

To one reading this, God Bless

It is something to wonder,

To sit underneath a tree

To close my eyes and ponder

What's reality and What's fantasy



Life is a ride,

To take a different ways,

To look from a different side,

To lost myself in my own trade,

You been talking about money,

Talking about getting laid,

Been writing from my shadows,

You can call that shade



Cause I know

To live my own life and not others,

To not simply take it and throw,

To hold my own,

And find my own door



A different tracks,

Different sound,

Different hype,

To know you,

To hold you and to cried.

It seems that its all I can do,

To hear your name,

And help me to walk the difficult times I been through.



I'm just a simple man,

Just a simple lonely guy,

who happens to be on the train,

Discovering tracks that none had seen

That none had been



People says destiny is in the hand of God,

Well people tends to be carefree,

Some simply goes and rot,

While others still sitting in the same tree

Cause we all are simply human,

We make mistakes,

No what religion you are,

We never had gives or makes,

We always had steal and takes

Greed and Pride,

People judges,

People scared and hide,

Cause that what makes us humans,

In all we do and all we take

In all days and seasons

We are simply a human

Doesn't matter the reasons.

Stupid Things

Crowded minds,

Heavy rings,

Pretending like Im the knight,

And You are the queen,

But you had stop since

And you had diamond rings,

Money things



Its funny how,

People change easily,

Flows of greed

Pour down heavily

Like a rain in Havana

Just like the moment when people

Started asking my name,

Tried to run from my past

Try to hide my shame,

Deep in the sand,

To play the life game

And lost in the chase of fame



''Kechik''

I take it,

''Sky''

I guess its a Lullaby,

Cause Im so good in saying goodbye,

And running away from myself,

To hide myself and to not stare in your eye,

Life's been hard,

Been working in street

to be curse at,

Been working in convenient store

to be laugh at

To open a side Chinese shop

to be stare at.



To run away from life,

Hiding away in Shade,

from light and reality

To close my eyes,

and hear my own heartbeat,

To die and hears whispers

Die beautifully..

Possibly.



To left a legacy

Is just another gasp,

She's now left me,

Just another memory,

Of what I had become,

To blown away from reality,

To hear, love and maybe some.

No Poetry,

Nor sanity,

Can really change me,

Cause Im not the same,

Nor some game

Nor some Twitter fame

Or those fake girls in Instagram

That can change my name

If there is something,

That maybe I can just bring back in time

The echoes of voices of the angels sings,

Or maybe memories of you that gone it seems.

Life is a hell of a ride,

To meet different faces,

To meet different type,

To tie different laces,

To gone a different hype



If there is something,

I can make out of my past,

Is to hold your hand,

And to confess that I like you at last,

Not because of any money nor fame,

Nor power nor lust,

But simply because in all words and act

You are simply perfect

Too perfect that I kept it in

Just to be blown away like dust



Before I die,

If there is something,

That I can say nor see

''I wanna love all of you''

''Just the way it should be''

''Just the way it want to be''

''Just the way it gonna be''

Then i would close my eye

To let the angels take me,

And sing me my last lulaby

Knowing my heart and its voices,

Will stay near you,

Because that is the place it should be



I know,

Words won't be enough,

To tell you what I felt,

The moment I saw you,

The moment I know you,

The moment I hold you,

The moment when I hold you hand,

To dance to the ryhtm,

Without a sorrow,

Like a happy rabbit in its burrow

To dance and Love you

Like there is no tomorrow



If there is something

I wanna do before I go,

Is to say I love you,

All this time,

All this years,

It is only you,

Im Sorry

That I had fallen in Love With You.

Sincerely
Jacquim

The Wind,
whisper silently within the distance,
waiting patiently,
for those who craving for a reason,
to stay awake and see life,
in every despair.
For in every eyes I see
Those who struggle
Or finding Oneself or those that they wanna be,
Lit up upon Thy faith ,
He close her eyes,
To cover in a smile and hold her tight-
All her pain,
All her feelings,
All her struggles,
All of her
And her well being,
Knowing that one day she will gone
And she will dies.

The Wind
Echoes and rings among those who believes,
or those who long lost hope,
Or those that simply
want their voices to be heard.

Among those winds,
I look ahead
the scenery
Of how great,
Thou hast created Thy art
Just walking through times,
With laughter and Jokes,
Not to worry about tomorrow
Or money,
Or fame.
To simply enjoy life as it is
To enjoy it as it was
And to enjoy it as there is.

The Wind
Blows joyfully among the stars,
In Awe and wonder,
In fullness of its yonder,
Sometimes,
I just lie still
Counting the Stars,
far away from the buzzing of Cars,
Or any hushes of the City,
How great a destiny or dreams could be,
If one day it just happens to be
That I lose this life,
I'm truly grateful
To know this life,
To know and survive,
Till the moment i will be awaken and revive,
Among the angels and Gods,
And most of all to let it happen,
And to let it show
That I Love You,
And thats all I know.

To know that my feeling for you
To fall for you,
To look forward through all the phase
To know what you are trying to shyly says,
That ''Yes I love You''
Is all i need to get through the days,

Oh Goddess of Wind,
If you are truly real,
And has always been,
for my hope has echoes through all the rivers
Through all the seasons and all the wonders
Of the world
For among this swift echoes
To watch her dancing on her toes,
To hold her under the moonlight
And kiss her slow

Sometimes I learn to stay awake,
In dawn some falls says ''It is the fate''
Running past the wall of hardship that you make,
Thinking of giving up every hour that i fail,
But looking up ahead i see the birds
Free, Flying past that wall that seems high without a trail
The sound of freedom rings in the distance,
The wind of change whispers within the walls
Slowly gone without a trace,
Somewhere in me,
I know there is something that kept me back
Something that lock me in my track,
The old me that use to say No
The one that laugh that say No
The one that say they care about you,
The Inner me that spark me to go,

Lift up my eyes,
I grab the first rock,
It Hurts,
It Hurts,
Slowly i whisper, It Hurts
I felt alone,
I felt hopeless,
I felt useless,
The dark hands that strangle me from within
And somewhere within this journey,
I realise i was not lost,
I was not beaten,
For None are worthless in His eyes,
For those who had give up hope,
For those who had lost in darkness
Shall found light,
And In you hope lives on.

I lift up myself,
I grab the second rocks,
I saw you,
Trying to carry all the burden alone,
And you were whispering
''Help''
You were worrying of how Others will think of you
You were worrying how Others life are so perfect
You were worrying how Others look so cool doing it,
Unrealising you are drowning in pain,
Deep in you slowly rotten away in vain,
I close my eyes and whisper to you,
Somewhere in you The You has decay,
Hope has no where to stay
And All I can do for you,
Is Pray.

Sometimes life is weird,
Life is hard,
Life is scary,
Life can be wary,
And it can drown you,
Life is like the rail in the forest
Dark in the midnight
Unknowing where to go
Or where it leads to
So many tracks
So many ways
So many walls
It just a matter who or which
Track will you chose?

Woke up

To open my eyes

To the clear sunlight

Just to realize

How lonely it felt

Without you beside me



Woke up

Try to face everyone with a smile

Hoping it gone for a while

This feeling of emptiness

That I kept in my heart

To silence the pain in my chest

To hold my breathe

And take a deep rest

Every time my friend ask if I'm okay

I just smile and try my best



Woke up

To not know my name

To not know what destiny holds

To not know tomorrow is

To not know what it is

To love you again



Woke up

I stand strong

To keep on going

To keep on moving

To keep on knowing

That maybe my inner voices will be heard,

Somewhere in the distance,

Those voices will reach someone,

And told them it will be okay,

Nothing will gone

You are not alone

That you can make it



Woke up

Looking ahead to the clear sky

To know you are just beside me

As we just standing in the street

Waving goodbye

Maybe just maybe

My voices had just been heard

Even if we are strangers

But in our own world

We are believers

I may never knows what lies ahead of me,

but I had never giving in

even if my future holds it tight

not letting a sip to enter my mind,

I Stay ahead, Leave what past behind and kept look forward.

Someday maybe they will understand,

Someday maybe Some will remember,

Someday maybe Some will regret,

But its up to you,

Because its Your Life,

Because its Your Dream,

Because its Your Road,

Whether you wanna start the journey,

Whether you wanna take a break during the journey.

Or whether you just wanna end the journey,

Its Your Road,

Yours not anyone else

Not your lover,

Not your Love ones,

Nor Your Enemy,

Its Yours,

And Yours Alone

I'm falling on my own

Hoping time will stop



I'm falling alone

Hoping the pain in my chest will just stop

And the gun you hold tight might just drop



I'm falling on my seat

Still gasping for air

Hoping it end fast

And somebody just pass by me

To stop and actually care



I'm falling behind

Realizing it is the end

Jumping in reality

Has really tie me to a trend

Nobody listen

Nobody trying

Nothing glisten

At least I'm trying



I'm falling deep,

Deep inside the light

Hopefully when it ends

There will be a ride

Hopefully it won't bite

Just like how it felt on my heart

When she left me that night

Just to know she doze away

To satisfy her own way

Gasping for the last day

Ends me in a sway



I'm falling away in my vision

Closing my eyes

Hoping it fade like my last text

Someday my name will be heard

Truly, X

Life Is Weird,
How it tends to sips deep into you,
Sometimes even when there is this doubt,
You just stay strong,
Because somewhere in you,
There is something saying it will be fine.
And tomorrow will never ends
Life is truly weird,
On how it makes you feel
even when many surrounds you,
as a friend nor lover,
You still feel a sense of loneliness
within your soul,
Life is Weird,
Sometimes even when you tried your best,
It end up in failure,
But only when you desire a true change
Will the star falls on your laps,
making you think is life truly a slaps?
Just another words passing by?
Life is weird,
So is Love,
When you say everything will be alright,
without her beside you,
You will started to miss her,
You will started to hear mumbles
from the air,
Maybe just maybe
Those words that sometimes looses your heart
Life is truly weird doesn't it?
A wind of change blew right true me
Alone under the moon
Just enjoying the scenery of the woods
As if the Trees are whistling in the distance
Whatever it is,
Deep in me still saying
I'll sway together away with this life,
Even if this journey does end up weird,
I Love it,
This Life

Live a Strong in you,

Never Despair

Learn what is within you

Never To Turn back

Learn What's Close to you

Never To Lose None

Believe what made you In you,

Never Again To Lose Trust.



To Live is

To see,

To watch,

To Learn,

To Love,

To Hurt,

To Feel,

To Care,

To Hug,

To enjoy,

To Passion,

To Die for,

Never Stop to Live.

Until that moment comes,

when He said 'its Done'

When You had seen the edge of the world,

Where in Living you feel completeness,

Where in Living you had learn to Live
within in you
or outside you

Never Stop to Live,

Until You see that Meter Stops,

With Beating in your Heart,

And then you will realize,

Oh How Much I Really Want to feel her hand,

Oh How will I miss My Grand Child,

Until Then never Stop Living,

Move ON

Plunder ON

And Game ON

Until then

Do not Stop

Living


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Don't be afraid to ask for it
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You are not alone, We Love You
https://suicidepreventionlifeline.org



rip Miya we will miss you especially me
I love You.

A Smile wavers,

Deep from a far away land,

Standing just waiting for the unknown wind,

Blew softly through my ear,

Sound of voices,

Echoes within me,

All those memories,

Olds and News,

Slowly creep within my bones,

Those moment of laughter,

Those moment of tears

Those moment of pain

Those moment of joy,

Make you think being alive is worth it

But the most is,

The moment you smile

and Said I Like You,

The moment when I hold your hand

The Inner warm that magically runs times

As it creeps fast through its clock

To hold your hair

And your lips

Pondering over you

As that beautiful smile disarm the bright stars

Even the moon stands in awe

As you tip toe,

To lock a kiss

As the sun strikes,

I Woke Up

To realize you are not with me,

To not remember whats your name is

To not remember who are you,

But deep inside you

Still wanders this feeling that unknown to you,

Willingly to accept her,

Even If the memories decided to kept itself within its cage

Somehow,

Those smile,

Those Lips

The warm of her hand and body

Make you realize,

Shes the one that was below the moon light

No of us could utter a word,

Even though we did met in a dream,

Suddenly without we even took notice,

Our Lips utter those words,

Those words that relinquish those wall between our memories

''I Love You''

Unfair? Sometimes it goes like this
Starring away from it,
Makes you wonder ,
Is Life gonna stay the same,
Or rather stays in unusual way.
Sometimes I wonder,
If tomorrow they will be there,
If they will heard my calling,
if they will listen to the voice of my heart,
Sometimes I wonder,
Is there soul within a Life,
Is there answer to my words,
Is there way to my confusion.

Life is truly full of wonder.
To meet many faces,
To meet and understand many heart,
To understand different culture,
And knows the meaning of humanity and unity.

I hope my train won't stop now,
Even though it will be always hard and rough,
But I'm glad to experience what i had right
But most of all,
I'm Glad
To meet and know your name.