My chest aches for someone I've known for seven years.
But knowing you so long doesn't mean I know your heart.
It's been ages since we've even spoken, and it's obviously clear
That for whatever reason, without you, I might just fall apart.

You've probably forgotten me, and for that I do not blame you.
But my mind wanders to thoughts of you every time I go to bed.
Why is that, I do not know, it's painful but it's true
That for whatever reason, without you, I might as well be dead.

You look in the mirror, and admire your face.
For once in your life, you don't feel out of place.
Then you head off to school, and something has changed.
You feel ugly, and weird, and so very strange.
People are watching you. Or do they even know you're there?
People are judging you. Or do they even care?
Then you go home and stare at your reflection and see,
That all along you've been as pretty as can be.

I get unpacked
And settle in
But only to
Move back again

They well up in my eyes.
I blink them away.
Because it doesn't count as crying,
If the tears don't hit the page.

I'm sad and I'm a wreck.
But hey, it's okay.
Because it doesn't count as sadness,
If no one sees my pain.

So much frustration.
So much anger.
Voices shouting.
Seems like a stranger.

I have to listen.
Though it pains me to stay.
The conflict thickens.
But I can't look away.

Did they say my name?
Are they talking about me?
The yells get louder.
Finally I have to leave.

If you keep on tugging me,
This way, that way.
I feel I may just break completely.

It's rather scary,

New faces that you've never seen.
No traces of the memories.

A blank canvas.

Friends to make.
Hearts to break.

Rather, my heart, I should say...

It's rather scary.