Haha i lied
I tried to hide
I am just so tired
Of crying
I kept the facade up
Really believed myself
When i said
I wasnt bothered
yet i stood there
My heart breaking
At each word she said
About laying in that bed
With you
Seeing you
Ignoring me
And wanting her
Talking to her
Like you did me
It wasmt just jealousy
But pure hurt
Now I cry
And i ask why
******* why
Everyone makes me die
A little more each time
My heart really hurts
How cruel to me
You didnt have to be
I was happy with what we had
You pushed me away like trash
And she took my feelings
And ripped them apart
Ruthelssly she came at me
Eyes wide open shamelessly
Telling me her exploits
As she stomped on my heart
In front of everyone
I smiled as she pounded
Twisted and churned
With a burning sledge
Maybe a bulldozer
It hurt more then anything
Yet i smiled becuase
What can i do
Jokingly tell you off
Is about all i can manage
Becuase it doesn't matter
To anyone but me
Lets face it
I'm nothing
Replaceable to all
Everyone waits for my fall
They see me crawl
And hit so many walls
They all laugh
Hurting me is ok
Beating my face in
In the middle of the day
It's cruel and unsual
But for me it's normal
Everyone watches
Noo ne cares
I'm in pain
I expected this
I did think of course
That when you moved on
You'd be a bit kinder
Then taking full force
And ripping me in half
Its okay
I'm sure you're a great guy
It's just me
My eyes
They speak to people
They tell everyone
To hurt me
In the sickest ways
I must have a price to pay
With god
I don't get normal
I get eternal damnation
And I'm still alive
When i see her face
Smiling with yours
My heart doesn't just break
It sinks
Into a dark hole
Taking my life and soul
The rest of my body
Falls angry and stabs
Stab
Stab
Stabs
Until i can't breathe
But i didn't want to cry
Therefore i drank
Because the poison
Soothed the anger
Id rather poison myself
Then let it out
Yet a song played
I wrote the words out
In my diary
And each mark
I put down
Reminded me
And brought a smile
Into a frown
Each memory escaped me
And then returned
Darker and unsettled
Now they hurt
But
Theyre in pen
I can shred the paper
Theyre still written
Even blowing through
The wind
So each mark i made
With each memory i tear
broke free
Now here i am
1am and I'm crying alone
The worst part is
Im so used to this
Yet it always hurts more
Each
*******
Time
I was so happy
I wore yellow
The day after
You touched my heart
Now i remember
Yellow was never
My color
I only know
Deep blue
The yellow is raining
The rain won't stop
It's cold and hailing
I keep failing
Everything
The storm is breaking
Im in it and shaking
The ground is quaking
Inside it's aching
Deep inside
That yellow dress
Is torn and bruised
My fingers bled too much
To fix it
I'm so sorry.
My pain never goes away
Im so sorry
The endless crying won't stop
Im so sorry
You hurt me
And I can't
Stop
Missing
You
Im sorry
I'm a fool
i just give up. Everyone hurts ne and then acts like its ok. And i never do anything but cry becayse when i tey i get laughed at and hurt. I got replaced. So fast. Right in my face like im a ******* joke.