I think about it
and forget about it
The past haunts me
it runs away with me

Abducting my body
its hard to stay steady
Old pains are fresh
stinging scars on my flesh

Ignore it and stumble on
choke it down never let on
Gotta keep it together
or be alone forever

I don't know who I am
but I do the best I can
Fragments of personality
coalesce randomly

Creates the illusion of a person
hiding a ghostly orphan
Shadows of myself hide inside
forgotten and set aside

I hardly remember who I was
who am I the thought gives me pause
Maybe an afterimage of myself

dollar earned only a dollar made when its a dollar saved
baller blinged out to holler about dollars he's still a slave
company store takes payments at four just your soul and more
many march in tour of golden doors as debts reach from a dirt floor
chasing the four door you can't afford its the debtors reward

dollar earned turns to dollar spent
when did life turn into making rent
was it while the middle sat on a picket fence
it came so subtle as we all drowned in media
seemed so helpful like a pound in the city

lock up your problems and show no pity
thats how they solve em out in the city
that or send them to a mortuary
words seem so incendiary these days
burning citys as life sets the people ablaze

burn a hole in your pocket to get laid
what's left when the ****** fades
pantyless and penniless riding waves
hoes and jesus since times medieval
both have kneeled to escape evil

crime is just a high risk job kinda like flipping burgers
time shows both ending without any futures
so excuse the hard worker whose turned to dope dealer
I know time is the best healer but it won't fix this
only fix I need is cash on cash in bank thats swiss

thats a low tax on racks so none of it reaches you
a million ways to hide millions from the millions that make do
charity tax breaks in the collection plate let the money accrue
get a wife thats foreign thats a tax break if your american
new legislation to make sure the middle an poor don't win again

poverty makes a child into a survivor
wealth makes a child into a toddler
prince rules over the pauper
for the price of a few cents
still the prince can't afford sense

maybe for a dollar some of mine could be lent
advisors with white collars must seem heaven sent
till someone wonders where the money went
white collar or black mask only difference opportunity
go live in a parking lot for a week if you don't believe me

Nothing eats away at me
Just wanna sleep away my life
Trying to be happy
Please, could you tuck me in tight
Just laugh with me
I'm okay I'll be alright
Stay with me
I don't want to fight
Or bleed
An ugly sight
Me
A rough night
Your right
write

It takes is one chance to make it
It takes is one rope to bite it

Meet me by the midnight sea
Where black waves crash over me
Burn your olive trees
Scatter salt and seed
Not what you need
It's who you want to be

Oil slick down the wireline
Cash sent down a pipeline
Downtown tick tock in time
doing fine, doin just fine
My life is just fine
Ran the stop sign

Smell the burnt rubber
Hit by the brunt of lost lovers
Real shaker and mover
Ever go still die in a gutter
Inhaling exhaust shake from the fear
No outrunning the past its already here

The future isn't real only imagined
But so sure I was that in its name I sinned
Hate when people ask where have you been
I've been busy far away dying inside
I lie and say it's nothing much I've seen
I won't fail, I'll save us all, I lied

Twenty two years I made it I survived
Sometimes back in nineteen ninety eight I wish I died
Every year I see more clear where we steer
Those at the helm speak and all I hear is fear

Hope couldn't cope so he did dope went to sleep never to be woke
Hopeless and could care less I have to confess I'm broke
Light pockets and a heavy heart as a child torn apart, ****
Light at the end of the tunnel but the caves end is dark

American raised told "not even the sky's the limit"
Eatin rice and pain I just cant feel it
"all the dreams yours the greatest ever" how they sell it
Hope for the future, for better days, its sold for profit

American raised so I party my life away
Drugs and rock'n roll keep reality away
Movin forward when I stop forever I lay
In dirt debts catch me and I cant pay

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Empty holes in my thoughts
I thought to lose my soul
I am the bard I am the fool
Don't go too far that's the rule
that's the rule that's the rule

The world is a tool that's rusted brown
Once was cool that glistened an glown
A fool who hastened to the ground
Mortal wounds my laughter found
I am an actor and a clown

The passion burned hot now it burns not
From the throat came every broken note
I rely on the rope never once on hope
One will hold you afloat
The other holds until you choke

Fossils rule the world
Oil and fuel do as they're told
eighty years old tell the young to fold

Stay positive who cares if your a *******
Ramen noodles and cold hot dogs with mustard
Living off the trash and scraps  its hard
But im not in pain really im just so bored
Listen to sad songs they really strike a chord

I see a future ahead  we'd be better off in hell
Its hard to get out of bed hard to get out my head
Still put feet forward even when everyone's ill
When no one can pay the bill well, oh well

My side likes silencing and witch hunting
Their side likes killing and witch burning
I have to confide I don't think we're winning
And from inside  it feels like tragedy is brewing

Generation of dead with nothing to lose but their life
They kneel and it hurts their pride the fuse is short
**** your future **** your friend its legal in court
No time for a suture or scripture soon is the night

The time is up the toll is up and I ask whats up
God and heaven above to witness a massacre
Tear gas in your eye I cant see it either
Empty void of space to scream I need a breather

My heart is so ******
Isn't that how it should be

Spread it everywhere this disease
Make friends with care my release
Dopamine is starting to cease
So like frayed twine snap and release

Friendships made to fill my heart
Void fillers made of broken parts
So dumb yet I must be smart
To get these people filed in my heart

Never enough companionship
I'm addicted to a disease called friendship
Extrovert is just addiction to lips
Speaking to ignore loss with a quip

Friendlists for miles
Start and spark my smile
If I'm important to them
I'm important then

Enough to ignore holes in my head
Lobotomized I think like I'm dead
Repressed emotion and dread
Just ignore the stupid **** I said

Ramblin for miles then quiet for awhile
Thats just my style spacing out lookin at tile
Jovial all the while looking like I'm on trial
A laugh is the only time I'll smile

Losing touch so I make a new friend
Just looking to make my own pain end
Using people like they're money to spend
I pretend the pain will end with the next friend

But a void cant be filled it just takes more and more
To get dopamine in my head I need more and more
So I try not to be a bore or make others too sore
When lookin to gather parts for my busted core
Always goin towards  that next score

Mycology the sole source of joy
Caps fill my head, wind up this toy
Pass out sheets a real paperboy
Hallucinate happiness so coy

Pull me in while the vapor dissipates
Can't see in the cloud only anticipate
Memory fragments, fragment the weight
Disperse the pressure allow a steady gait

The reality in my head made real
From my dreams, happiness I'll steal
As fog clears I see before me what's real
Existence so unpleasant that pessimist feel

But still, I persist unable to never exist
When I can I visit that place lost in the mist
I must find a way to live with life, coexist  
Or in misery, I must resign to subsist

Happiness a toxin to my sanity
Giddiness breaks down my reality
Joy consumes my heart I'm an amputee
Sadness flows into the hole an endless sea

Woke up looking sideways
Time to get on the highway
Moving past my yesterday
No one to ask if I'm gonna stay
Wouldn't want it any other way
I have so little left in me to say
Woke up looking sideways
Pulled into different byways
One has my head in yesterday
The other took my soul to latterdays
Never given direction so I pave a driveway
I'll make the home where I can stay
Then watch ashes as I burn it anyway

Its time to draw a lot from a devils claw
Born in Soldotna to a family of outlaws
Went below Iowa off  Mound Street In Arkansas

Left  before we attended police court
Landed to heat and haze I lost my heart
Left it complete in yesterdays start

Bounced from hotel to motel
Settled down in a ghetto
And had no choice but to let go

New start became a bookworm
And the people made me squirm
Awkward red cheeks that would burn

The compliments came in often
But it only made me frighten
Called exceptional so often

Test always said I was bright
On every test I would write
Cheating out of sight

A diet of highs
Prizes, Trophys, lies
Gave my ego a rise

Dad did the best he could
Till the oxy popped his hood
Empty eyes haunt my childhood

Came to school holes in my jacket
Wadin in a cesspool a poor bracket
Low income the rule bein empty pockets

Ate at reduced price at the mess hall
Head full of lice, bed bugs on the wall
Mind full of lies, delusion my heal all

Voices in my head told me it would get better
Voiceless thoughts all that held me together
Tomorrow it'll get better, tomorrow is never

At recess I traded and sold pokemon cards
Started with a few old cards made more with words
A dollar here a quarter there robbed kids with a word

A few years later I got a step mother
She was an agitator and instigator
Drug addict waitress, a complete failure

Brought two kids, two chains on my dad
He was playin with roxy, eyes empty and sad
Step mom spent the money things got bad

Stopped leaving my room became a shut in
Years alone only out for school started fallin
Grades got worse, lost my friends, death was callin

Alone for years on end as my father abandoned me
Just like my mom who left so long ago with no apology
Failed my 8th grade year then got sent over the north sea

Departed for Alaska and found that my heart
I left so long ago at the start was forever lost
Not so smart and without a heart I began a new start

We talked the other day you said you wanted to die
Even if its what you want I'd rather you be okay
Just going day by day
Sleeping, spending, nothing to say
Bingeing, barely breathing, letting threads fray
I ask hows it going you say you feel empty
Its relatabley the same I wish what I wished for me
I wished someone would save me
Never prayed but twice I was on my knees
Once to ask for anything set my life free
Once to ask the same for every friend of me
No reply, now just hope you don't become an amputee
Not like me, living without a guarantee
Stay surrounded by people that want you happy
A new year to go towards your own family
And one day relax as a retiree
Even if its a grim reality
And a ****** country
There's more in life to see

Shadow looms over the patriot nation
Darkness blooms over rot and revelation
Sadness runs across the holy nation
One under god Indivisible stagnation

Cant pray the disease away rotten to the core
Maggots fester in its brain as it screams for more
Cursed land of plenty parasites in every pore
Tragic fates for all who hate and adore

The past is genocidal our forefathers were homicidal
Get the pesticides and apartheid **** the undesirable
Dont think wrong, look wrong, be strong just be small
Cause above all this country is for the weak and frail

Small minds create the law Frail hearts preserve order
We ****, enslave, then set aside to create the mortar
Built the rails of immigrant backs got our labor mail order
Shipped them from Africa to be the chained and stabled labor

We committed upon humanity nuclear holocaust
And to be sure we did it again at reasonable cost
Landed on the shores and it would've all been lost
Found a savior and on a trail of tears they were cast

Now we stand divided by our caste by our birth
Left to escape the kings only to crown our first
There's a humor in this storied past a dark mirth
A nations hero complex perverted by imperial thirst

Conception of endless consumption capitalism's
Inception with bad intention left no options
They say socialism is communism and communism's
The devil all red looking for our destruction

Jesus has a Gucci  cross and Versace rags
Status and money worshiped in all these rags
News of the second coming stocks on the rise
Every day another person dies so a bottom line rise

And these people want to be crushed underfoot
Protesting protection demanding oppression
The uneducated pedestrian Loves licking boots
Complacent peasants never gonna change succession

Evil and corruption isn't only at the top look at us
***** in a *** make change seem like it treasonous
Cant even discuss trying to change the U.S.
Without some ******* saying just get off the bus

If you wanna see evil all you gotta do is look at the street
Where they'll lay you out and take the shoes off your feet
Everyone desperate poor man rob a poor man to eat
Everyone's addicted everyone's a deadbeat debts on our sheet

Sometimes it all feels hopeless like I'm helpless
To systemic problems made to chain my dreams
Only thing keeping me going is all my friends
I cant change the past or even the now nevertheless

I still exist and I am forced to coexist with this mess
Everyday historical its forecast oncoming endless stress
Every year piles on the duress death creeps in the press
Whispers in my head wonder if I could care less

Tired of caring about **** I cant change
Of a living in a  life I didn't make
Emptiness and regret/Contempt and rage
Emotions flipping  page to page

A hypocrite to the bone
Trite words said to none
A life spent all alone

They brought me to my knees, so
Fought with all of my friends
Now I don't got any of them

But I'd rather be alone
So I hung up my phone
I do my best on my own

I'm doing the best I can
On my own I still stand
And I've got a plan

When the stars touchdown
Let's see how much I've grown
Because I've always known

I do the best when I'm on my own
It's okay who needed them anyway
Nothing to say I will walk on my own

ignore all the lies
and think of apple pies
a stranger dies
a sparkle in my eyes
no one will defy
no one will cry
don't listen to their lies
believe in apple pies

Its half past 2 AM and I'm way too ****** up to survive another minute
Same **** another week luck hasnt run out yet man this is the best
Half past faded and I don't wanna wake up get me higher for just one minute

One more spliff two more drinks first in last to stop till my mind snaps
Spin another track my blunt ain't ash yet forget it all while we ball
One less regret and two more mistakes its nights like these I can relax

And when I'm spillin my guts I'll fill back up with ***** and sprite
This is my peak this is my height and I'm loving it things are alright
Im doing okay thats why I binge drink every night

Who am I to wear a crown
Someone falling down
Rain its falling down
Soon it'll hit the ground
I've come unwound

On rooftops with a bottle of crown
Trying not to fall all the way down
Last drop falling and I drown
Ground rise up to smack me down
I've come unwound
Unbound so hear this sound

One parent only father raised without a *** to suckle
Dad did his best hammer raised knees buckled
Every night hammered drugged up and tired
He gave me life, he raised me, he failed me

Now twenty tabs in wired all night long
Need to sleep so I hit the ****
Need to live so do drugs then I'm gone
All my fake friends know I'm on one

No benz, two wheels across town
Back paths and alleys gone down
No smiles round here only a frown
I'll die afore I can afford a hospital gown

Twenty shots of costco gin
Broke the same as broken
Soon to be in the trash bin
So I turn to crime again

Dealin like part time workin
Flippin like life is dependin
Profitin off others addiction
Is this really livin

Gotta get outta these places I been in
Aint any place for me to die in
Aint even got a place I'm buyin
Just rentin a slum ****** apartment

The things I write have no meaning
I hardly even know what I am saying
I speak on and on its kind of like praying
All while I know my kind live like dying
We wile away the time and cry while smiling

What is it I'm hearing, that you have given it all up
All while knowing that your effort or lack of matters not
Even if your not going I must go
Its empty resistance? but even so
I must go

I would rather live and die alone than live where I've grown
This town would rather live under the thumb of those that govern
I will have no sovereign that is tyranny to everyone who is born
Heirs to grief I renounce my throne and I give up my home
Belief in a life without chains I know I'm not alone

Its all often misunderstood failure to understand where I stand
Appear broken but nothing to mend and nothing is planned
I wear down but I'm not waiting for the end or for something grand
I tend the soil until its grown even when I hate the land
Some toil until its late and they are grown according to fates hand
For me that's what was planned for me to be buried in the sand
Shifting and lost in the land so I ran and I ran

I can't die until I hold something with meaning give me anything
Even a lie, I am boldly running toward nothing and everything
And sadly the land is lacking, barren with loathing
So onward I am going looking for belonging
Onward and trying to make something of nothing

Soft flesh an brittle bones or solid steel with copper wire
Failing gristle, mushy brain or slick oil with combustion fire
Walkin legs overtaken when tarmac gets hit by tires
Eisenstein surpassed by a TI-84's processing power
Humans expire, a robots life can be forever
Mortal morals never bother a mechanical processor
The worlds owner could be either which would you rather

Poems filled with different words but they feel repetitive
Words filled with different meaning but they feel repetitive
Mind filled with different thoughts but they feel repetitive
Soul filled with different parts but they feel repetitive
State filled with different beliefs but they feel repetitive
Country filled with different people but they feel repetitive
World filled with different walks but they feel repetitive
Time filled with different events but they feel repetitive
History filled with different tragedy's but they feel repetitive
Life filled with different cycles and they feel so repetitive

We write down the sadness in ours souls to cope with the passing
I write my sins I write my hate I write my sadness and its repeating

As a society looking the other way when did this become okay?
I think it was yesterday when we made our way from oversea

Came from the isles where they subjugated the whole world
Hate held in humanity's heart since Carthage evil we hold

I cant see a bright future ahead when our future is in our past
When I see everyone repeat the same mistakes only one thing lasts
The repetition of pain and misery in future, present, and past

Coast across the rapids of life
Avoid all the struggle and strife
People and problems cut by a knife
Excised them from my life

No problems left in my wake
No people left when I wake
All alone for eases sake
The easy ride is all I take

In between life and death
Taking breath after breath

Embrace betrayal tastes stale
Got my face in the mail
Want to find me follow the trials
Follow behind my shadows trail
I live on the hill beside the pale

If the sky flashes deep then leave
Or its lashes with tears, fallen leaves
If ground quakes grey in its ways
Then stay for I have nothing to say
This is the last line anyways

Burnin blunts ash em in my soul
A few blunts in em and im cool

Scrape the resin till im smokin glass
Shut up an pass the ****** grass

Outsider sittin in the back of the class
Dark figure sittin in the back of the mass

I'm Sellin addiction, addicts seek my benediction
Movin the product, the holy ghost sellin salvation
So addictin pullin in the dead with my gravitation
Sell you your addiction for mine that ****** benjamin

Come to me for paradise
Feelin pain here's the ice

All I see is dead presidents
Eyes dead to the residents
Dyin for my decadence

**** a ******* with a needle
To buy a ****** gold fiddle

Jhonny may play his fiddle hot
But for the hotshot his fiddle I got

Ridin in the Mercedes benz
After I move a couple benz

Rottin the whole ****** hood  
Makin my bankroll look good

Jhonny boy givin me all his bread
Then come famine and he feelin dead
Jhonny boy robbin for scraps of bread

Jhonny boys mums bread used to get baked
This boy takin till his whole fam gets raked

Money funneled to me by the addicts
Jhonny is enforcin my pyramid schemes

I'm Sellin addiction, addicts seek my benediction
Movin the product, the holy ghost sellin salvation
So addictin pullin in the dead with my gravitation
Sell you your addiction for mine that ****** benjamin

I'll be drivin around at the seams
Collectin the green for my dreams

A real ****** nightmare on my street
Krueger with your dope sheet
Salesman with the ****** rapsheet

Killin users and abusers while I sleep
Makin a killin in back alleys I creep

Get customers lost in the nightmare
Then sell the lost a rotten cure
Maybe give em a little gear

Maybe im a travel planner
Sellin trips to wherever
Nah im just another killer
Sellin trips to the executioner

When the lord doesn't hear your prayers
To take away the pain I'll bring the wares
A couple pain pills and a few uppers
Just bring me the bills and the paper

I'm Sellin addiction, addicts seek my benediction
Movin the product, the holy ghost sellin salvation
So addictin pullin in the dead with my gravitation
Sell you your addiction for mine that ****** benjamin

Slinging drugs got somethin inside me broke
Cause i'd rather be out killen than be broke
Bring me the bricks and i'll move that coke
To all the froggys in the pond till they croak

All this movin got my numbers inflated
Got my ****** neighborhood inundated
Careful you dont get ****** ventilated

For a quick buck to take to the pusher
Bodies pile around me a deadly peddler
But ive never pulled the trigger
The passive killer, waterwell poisoner

Body pacing while my heads racing
Anger surfacing replaced by euphoric feeling
Thoughts are tangling each dropping like its raining
A thought falling then pooling till they hit the ceiling

What am I feeling, something different than moments ago
Am I happy, sappy, mad maybe I just cant tell I dont know
All I know is feeling are crashing and I'm caught in the undertow
Electricity grabbed me, body pulsing it won't let go

All I can do is sit and wait as every cell vibrates
Wait for time to make it all turn quiet
Patience while everything in me riots
Silence while screaming have to try it

Its all one unknown, dead seeds sown
Born from broken homes, just how it goes
Some days swing low lotta bodys in the undertow
Beachside all alone down a bottle down I go
Into the tide to drown my woes

Look at the mirror knowin I could die here
Nothin held dear no one held me dear
Still have no fear cause one day I'll die here

And you know what just **** it
Everyone leave me alone you ******
Watch me ****** up never gave a ****
Down to the last bill keep it one hunnit

All I can afford is to think for a few
Shut off heater I'm a far too coo'l
Pills like water in US nothin new
Drugs choked down in us beautiful
Thrills looked down on by you

Beachside and the tide pulls at my feet
Wayside in no one I confide my piece
Wayward son put aside like a felon with rapsheet
The prize won is pride useless like a renters lease

Last hundred dollar bill might rob the till
In my head in this hood to live I might ****
Or be dead hollows spread blood on a windowsill
Suicidal addicted to lead, one bullet my fill

Left to rot I ferment sadness out the still
In picture caught lament my final still
I wonder about what it meant even still

Smoked a whole lotta gas but I've been on empty
Puff puff I don't pass cause I feel so ******* empty
Breath it in till its ash, I know this wont save me
Walked into the waves they crash I let it take me

Heels real and imagined grind on my skull
To the hospital at the bridge pay the toll
Rich and territorial start up a poll
For how many poor they will cull

Put on vans with the worn out sole
Head to work and fill my role
Everyday I sell out losin my soul
Getting harder to keep my cool

When everything is ****** life or death
Break a bone lose it all in a breath
Cant afford the upkeep on my teeth
So I hang with friends and smoke leaf

All decay all falling apart losing heart
Calls today say your wasting it your so smart
**** them I dont even know how to start
Writing on the wall saw it on a plummeting chart

Collapse into the past we wont last
The fashion is getting trashed
Faded today tomorrow I'm passed
Curtain called coffins filled with ash

Saw beauty once and someone bought her cash
The city lights are pretty but its a world behind glass
City streets are gritty and you'll get taken with the trash
Acid streaks, empty cars, jump and you won't make a splash

To ourselves we lie saying its a new beginning
And every-time we cry we see its just a new ending
So its time to finally start pretending
That what we have is a new beginning

Turmoil has yet to spoil the fury
loss isn't the foil to blood boils
It brings my head to a broil
Then round my neck it coils

So I start again this time better
Keep myself up to the letter
Scars hidden under a sweater
And I've never felt better

Better than being dead
Better with some dread
Met her stole trust from my head
Now my heart has to be spoon fed

Lobotomized by a lie
Internalized as mine
Things will be fine
Fine in its own time

Eye on the prize but I won't grab it
Brains been fried on a skillet
Loaded up with fire on a pallet

On the way down with the face of a clown
Doom in the town death looms all around
Why the long faced frown what have we found

Blood in the paint and I sip it
Mud in the joint when I hit it
Ash in the vein and I slit it

Mirth and merry in a brazen bull
Flesh is scary we'll flay the fool
Hope is scary we'll pay the toll

On the way down with grease painted faces
Darkness unknowns without any traces
Flying straight down like four aces

Tents gather as permanence  loses its moor
Sold it for two pence and went on tour
What a joke to have hope anymore

Hatred for the old gods, god I hate them
We sprung from their ***** and it began
Inducted into the circus right then

Never was in the project I grew up next to it
Word up to white privilege let me out of sewage
Friends born without a chance so **** it
If they burn this ****** down I'll live in wreckage

Hundred years ago they were objects
Hundred tears now they live in projects
Hundred dead still deaf to the subject
Hundred voices tune out this movement

Shame'em for kneeling ruin a career make a mockery
So ****'em no complaining enough fear not sorry
Protest erupt in the country built on the back of slavery
**** the police **** the government and **** the property

This is about humanity and who we wanna be
No more hiding from reality now you have to see
And if you swear fealty to Trump you aint American
Follow a bunker ***** who saw trouble and ran

Declared antifa a terrorist movement
Antifa: **** fascism the creed
Some people wondering where peace went
Died under knee unable to breath

To serve and protect that's what they say
To observe and oppress that's the reality
They been taking from every poor community
****, maybe its finally time that they pay

A human with empathy could never be content with this ****
If you chant blue lives matter or MAGA then die you *****
Humanity will never progress till we're all equal in this *****
Lastly if you don't support the movement then **** my ****

Blood on my hands and the dead are risen
I can see black smoke off of the west horizon
My hearts on the line, my heads in prison
Now I'm doin time and the bars are crying

Fires are far away but the rains on me
The sky is hazy with heavy lies
With every line a few more fly
With every line another man fries

Dead friends, dead family, and dead faith
Wanna say don't give up, but its not my place
Wanna say just get up, but its not my place
My place is with dead blood and dead belief

Razor lines on glass tables
Dead kids in dark fables
Eyes are jaded, head is faded
But drugs make me elated

Fill the liver with  joy
Treat a life like its a toy
Wind it up and watch gears crunch
Couple keys of the green og kush

Smokin one while my brothers get rubbed out
Wonder if they'll ever let my uncle out
I hope not, If they do I'll cut his lights out
Blood is thicker than water now whats that about

The blood pumps down storm drains on a sunny day
And water is thick with lead and iron now we all gonna pay
Cause we all have debts in Iron, debts in blood, its collection day
The well is dry but bloods pumpin in our veins, we gotta pay

The dead take their due for the debts they accrue
Sins of my father found me and now I'm through
Riddled by addiction and collection through and through
Here comes the toll and the funds are looking few

What can you do we all got debts collecting on our hearts
Time for the bloodletting bleed out till debt finally parts
All we can do is suffer and accrue, wail and lament
Its how life collects its payment

Freezing, rights have me silent
Teasing sights have me pliant
Leasing rights for some guidance
Rolling dice to catch a balance

Cold seeps in, all accounts are frozen
Death creeps up nowhere to go snowed-in
I sleep dream of fire, heat, and passion
Upkeep steep a wire, a heart, and compassion

Rewire my brain a jumpstart
Replace my heart a new part
Revive my passion a fresh start
Reboot the system its time to restart

bullets out in the thunderdome
five five send bullets at your dome
glock glock shots **** ya in your home
nine one one callin from a payphone
Someone pay for the dial tone

So if any one has problems with me
I take care of them I keep the peace
Don't need the ******* police
Don't need more dead bodies
Blue boy gang stay out the lobby

Besides don't you got a starving kid to arrest
In aisles shoplifting a box of chex mix
Put in slammers for feeding himself
Throw someones life away like kleen ex
Dead to society life of the ex convict

Lost it all, coulda avoided it for 3.50
But they need cell fillers cant be left empty
Cuz slavery is the cornerstone of american currency
Tell me would you fight to end slavery?
Or lie to yourself and say slaves are the enemy

If this society collapses thats fine by me
I would rather live in a land thats free
Than one where people swing from trees

****-en my brain cells, in the moonlight
Lost-em with Jane, in the fire light

Pop a bubble, bubbles pop
Bubble up, bubbles stop

Lights I need some light
Light I need a light
Born Bright now dim
Burn Bright till dumb

Been havin’ sports car dreams
Ridin’ in a Volvo, blowin’ steam
Livin’ the crème de la crème

Till I wake up to the nightmare
Tired of wakin’ up poor, I swear
Gotta sleep, dream of somewhere
Somewhere… somewhere…

Man, somewhere else is where I wanna be
Reachin’ for green like my fool Gatsby
Every comedown, letdown, settledown leaves me empty
A fog of smoke from the green I burn, who do I be?
And who was it that I be? Had to have been somebody

Been slowly dyin’, workin’ nine to five
How long can I last? Maybe nine or five
Don’t know if I got the pay needed to live
Gotta get this bread if I wanna live

Takin’ a stride, lost in the forest, lookin’ for somewhere to apply
Then again, might just burn the forest, float on a smoky sky

I’m livin’ this life, strugglin’ against the current, currently
Workin’ this job, strugglin’ weekly, concurrently for currency
Grindin’ my life away, gonna end up passin’ away silently
Wanna burn fast and hard, a pyre burnin’ brilliantly

But I’m just slow-burnin’ embers, no fuel for the fire
Gotta get some more, need someone to send me a wire
These burnin’ embers are goin’ out, the light’s gettin’ dimmer
Drownin’ in darkness—never been a good swimmer
No food in the pantry, man, I’m gettin’ ******’ thinner
Keep competin’ for the prize, but never been a winner
Can’t win the rigged matches unless I become a sinner
Gotta be criminal just to get myself some dinner
Still believe I can make it—call me the deluded dreamer

Gotta try and make it, live my fantasy
Or die locked in a penitentiary
For the crime of chasin’ my rhapsody
Probably just end up another casualty

I know I shouldn't touch the flames
But I keep reaching out covered in burns
I can't feel my skin
Tongue taste tin
I left my brain
So I'm right as rain

Right on time give me some change
Right on time can't you spare some change
I know, I know
I've really let go
But it don't show
The flames they glow

And I shouldn't put my hand forward
When it sparkles I'm fine being charred
Tired of tryin
Now its time
For fire and wine
Am I unkind?

Rude of me to offer myself away to the pyre
Not my fault that I'm burning your final wire
Hot to the touch
Unfit to be a crutch
I don't want to touch
You'll be my torch

I'll burn out and you'll catch the flame
But you still have our skin and our brain
You will feel pain
of the oil rains
On your skin
Change will burn

On time or too late I don't care I just know
That sooner rather than later I'm gonna go
Living life lighter
Gonna be brighter
I'm going faster
Won't last here

Who wants to live forever
Rather be spectacular
A spectacle
Unpredictable
Uncontrollable
Until I am unable

Here I am, doing fine again
Where I am, burning down again

In the ashes I found my friend
Gave me warmth he would lend

Now alone, here I am
Cold as stone, where I am

Been havin sports car dreams
Ridin in a Volvo blowin steam
Livin the creme de la creme

Till I wake up to the nightmare
Tired of wakin and bein poor here
Gotta sleep dream of somewhere
Somewhere... Somewhere...

Man, somewhere else is where I wanna be
Another reachin for green like my fool gatsby
Every comedown letdown settledown got me empty
Theres a fog of smoke from the green i burn where I be?
And who was it that I be? Had to have been somebody

Been slowly dyin workin nine to five
How long can I last maybe nine or five  
Dont know if I got the pay needed to live
Gotta get this pay if I wanna live

Takin a stride lost in the forest lookin for somewhere to apply
Then again might just burn the forest float on a smoky sky

I'm livin this life and struggling against the current currently
I'm workin this job struggling weekly concurrently for currency
Grindin my life away gonna end up passing away silently
Wanna burn fast and hard a pyre burning brilliantly

But im just slow burnin embers no fuel for the fire
Gotta get some more need someone to send me a wire
These burnin embers are goin out the light gettin dimmer
Drownin in darkness no I've never been a good swimmer
No food in the pantry man im gettin ****** thinner
Keep competin for the prize but never been a winner
Cant win the rigged matches unless I become a sinner
Gotta be criminal just to get myself some dinner
Still beleive I can make it though the deluded dreamer

Gotta try and make it live my fantasy
Or die locked in a penitentiary
For the crime of chasin my rhapsody
Probably just end up another casualty

Its a lovely day, love the smell of ****** in the morning
Its all okay, dank copped in my palm every mornin
No more paydays everything's stopped but Im not mourning
Its another friday aint that somethin outside its pouring
Inside its smoking baking home-cooking

Homies and I all ready to die
Shorty said lets all get high
Sevenfourtyseven time to fly
No worries no more suit and tie
I like ta party not to pry

Its a lovely day, Love the view of Cali Palms in the morning
And its all okay, me and the crew on one since the mornin
Aint working anyway nothing to stop us we soaring
Its another friday aint that somethin a drink I'm pourin
Inside its smoking baking home-cooking

Party favors in designer flavors
Stop n savor on recliners
Pop life savers in  highwaters
Trashed proper I teeter totter
Smashed party rocker

Double shot of *** drink harder than a privateer  
Backwoods, blunt smokin like a famous rapper
Outta wraps roll with hunnids whole lotta paper
All outta drugs call the plug for more favors
All about a good time its all we're after

Homies and I all ready to die
Shorty said lets all get high
Sevenfourtyseven time to fly
No worries no more suit and tie
I like ta party not to pry

I just want to **** my rage
Put two bullets in this age
But I can't find the keys to my cage
Got these needs chaining me with a wage
Emptiness in my eyes the void is a phage

It propagates from nothing
Springs from empty living
This police state is sickening
Its body is rotten and decaying
Can we euthanize the nation of slaving

I worry that progress is over
I worry that its now or never
And I worry that we will pick never
All while I clock in and work the levers

Living is so ******* incredible
It makes me ******* miserable
Always knowing I'm not on the level
I know its lame to be so cynical
But how am I supposed to be hopeful

Everything is buzzwords and clickbait pandering
I hope its not too foreword but we're all dying
And if words are stronger than swords then bloods flying
We know the times are trying and say bullets are coming
Viruses, diseases, and pathogens  all the same thing

Death cults on their side they fight so we all die
Ancient evils six decades old still grasping fading lives
They rule our feeble lands pervert our will as a nation fades
Some souls tremble and say this will be the end of days
Some souls shake and say they will ******* pay

Maybe I'm cynical by I say its just another day and they're gonna get paid
The critics will wax they will fade lives for cash thats always the trade
Tell me whats your wage you in the fields or the house do you have it made?
Just tell yourself atleast its not a third world like the ones we made
We get to feast while the poor are in famine now thats a trade

Sell out a million for a billion
Bloodflow, cashflow all im feelin
Keep pumpin till oblivion
Aint no ceilin and corpses pile on

Unapologetic ******* cash rules everything now
Pathetic stay low and when I pass you better bow
Autokrat choose when the deathblow hits earth now
Fully automatic sell to to the Congo, cash for ammo

God is cash and im feelin like money
Only one I'll let in to heaven is me
Peasant blood best remember fealty
Best worship the ground beneath me

I Keep pushin on the system till it cracks
While its delegates write me a paycheck
They lick my boots while I crush your neck
They watch as you suffocate fear the plutomaniac

Drinkin vino toast "finito"
Did it ever start though
Brain aches so slow
Down the flow
More wine now

Rolling grape ape burn a jay
Feeling clouds so high I pray
At the void to just stay away
White noise is the everyday
So soon its almost may

Twenty two years three without fear
Even still death feels so near
Melancholy life consuming cheer
Burn it,, drink it, just to feel tears
Raise a glass and toast "cheers"