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Sep 25 · 632
Unfulfilled
Arpitha Sep 25
Life has only been
a trail of
unfulfilled dreams.

Somewhere along the way,
I lost the courage
to dream again.
Sep 25 · 563
Someday, I will
Arpitha Sep 25
I will learn
to speak aloud
what's on my mind.

I will dance
the way I move
inside my head.

I will say no
to what weighs me down,
yes to what sets me free.

I will stand up
for myself
when required.

I will love
the person I am,
without condition.

I will heal
the hidden wounds
buried deep within.
Sep 24 · 585
End
Arpitha Sep 24
End
Struggling to breathe,
like a fish out of water.
This is the end.
Sep 24 · 527
Destroy
Arpitha Sep 24
I want to scream my head off,
crush my heart out,
destroy this anxiety—
the way it’s destroying me.
Sep 24 · 200
Buried
Arpitha Sep 24
How can I see
the light at the end of the tunnel
when I’m buried inside?
Sep 24 · 212
Turmoil
Arpitha Sep 24
Turmoil
inside me
threatens
to tear
me apart.

I am
giving in.
Sep 24 · 206
Captive
Arpitha Sep 24
Don't you miss
the happy, carefree days?
How can I miss
what I have never had?

Darkness has engulfed me
since childhood,
holding me captive.

It fortifies its armory
day by day,
leaving me incapacitated.
Sep 24 · 602
What if
Arpitha Sep 24
What if I lie down
and refuse to get up?
Ever?
It's all I want to do,
It's all I can do.
Take rest -
forever.
Sep 23 · 3.8k
Self-doubt
Arpitha Sep 23
Reading my poems -
Am I a good poet?
Am I a poet?
Sep 22 · 1.2k
Leave
Arpitha Sep 22
My heart, so often,
threatens to break from my chest—
just go, wherever you must.
Sep 22 · 273
Gaslight
Arpitha Sep 22
My brain gaslighted my body —
now every heartbeat is an alarm.
Sep 22 · 580
Purpose
Arpitha Sep 22
Is it necessary to
have a purpose in life?
To achieve it after a struggle?
If so, then mine is to stay alive.
Sep 22 · 772
Mad
Arpitha Sep 22
Mad
So deep into art and poetry
some might say I am mad
But if not for the duo,
I would be mad.
Sep 20 · 205
Coping mechanism
Arpitha Sep 20
Life
has become
a game of
finding one
coping mechanism
after another.
Sep 20 · 573
Loiter
Arpitha Sep 20
I loiter
between
what was
and
what will be.
Overlooking
what is.
Sep 20 · 465
Crutch
Arpitha Sep 20
Handicapped by my brain
art and poetry are my crutches.
How long will they last?
Are they helping me stand?
or just digging a hole
for me to sink deeper?
Sep 20 · 421
Content Creator
Arpitha Sep 20
Likes, loves and reposts make me happy
but trending makes my day,
Eagerly wait to receive a sun -
Maybe I am just another content creator!
Sep 20 · 42
Drugs
Arpitha Sep 20
Two weeks of hellish side effects
One week of euphoria
Back to the lows now
Feels like back to square one
What even is the point?
I started medication finally.
Sep 17 · 51
Addict
Arpitha Sep 17
I crave sadness
like an addict
with a needle.
Sep 17 · 571
Gravity
Arpitha Sep 17
Gravity
pulling me down
Physically
Mentally
Taking my all
to just stand upright.
A domino
set up to crash.
Sep 17 · 953
Let me be
Arpitha Sep 17
Can’t do this no more
Don’t make me
I’m tired to the bone
Just let me be.
Sep 17 · 3.6k
Auto-pilot
Arpitha Sep 17
Running on auto pilot -
wonder when it will give up,
and refuse to move.
Sep 16 · 747
Comfort
Arpitha Sep 16
The comfort of sadness
falls short
only to the comfort found
in a mother's lap.
Sep 16 · 439
Priority
Arpitha Sep 16
For the first time
prioritizing myself
Feels unnatural,
But oh so satisfying!
Sep 16 · 1.3k
Feel
Arpitha Sep 16
Stop asking me
What I feel
How I feel
Why I feel

I feel nothing
and
Everything.

Everything is out of control
A game of waiting
for the end.
Sep 12 · 35
Passer by
Arpitha Sep 12
Feel like a passer by
watching the people go by,
while I keep waiting & waiting
for the light to turn green.
Sep 11 · 257
Where the heart lies
Arpitha Sep 11
What makes a person go on
when he doesn't want to
is the answer to
where his heart lies.
Sep 11 · 564
Good days
Arpitha Sep 11
Good days are like the
brief, bright moments
of warm sunshine
between heavy downpours.

Just a momentary respite
from the gloomy clouds.

The dark will be back -  
forever waiting its turn,
to haunt and torment.
Sep 10 · 460
Walk or sleep
Arpitha Sep 10
I told my friend
I am taking pills for my insomnia
She advised me to go for a walk
Since when did walk become a substitute for sleep?
Satire.
Though it infuriates me when people give such suggestions without knowing the actual situation.
Sep 10 · 864
Dreams vs nightmares
Arpitha Sep 10
Vivid dreams
Frightful nightmares
Tell me, which is more dangerous?
Sep 8 · 394
Imposter
Arpitha Sep 8
One good day
has me wondering -
Am I really depressed
or am I just faking it?

If I myself am not convinced
How will others ever be?
Sep 8 · 399
Mental illness
Arpitha Sep 8
If every other pain can be
seen, felt, measured and accepted
by everyone,
why can’t this be?
Sep 8 · 1.1k
Picture perfect
Arpitha Sep 8
Silent baby
Obedient toddler
Sincere child
Disciplined teen
Obliging adult
Doting wife
Picture perfect
depressed & anxious
shell of a human.
Sep 8 · 53
Rubble
Arpitha Sep 8
Buried under the rubble
just a finger protrudes.
People go their way
ignoring the sign for help,
stomping on it, crushing it.
Until all there’s left
is what once was.
Sep 7 · 53
Envy
Arpitha Sep 7
We were taught to admire
people who were successful
Then why am I here
Yearning and envying
those who are alive.
Sep 4 · 285
Spectator
Arpitha Sep 4
It’s so much easier
to pretend
you’re a spectator
in this game called life.
Aug 31 · 82
Guinea pig
Arpitha Aug 31
Stop treating me
like your Guinea pig!
Just when I had somehow
mastered the art of sleeping
You had me change the meds.
My anxiety is gone,
but insomnia is back.
Trial and error
on a tortured soul
is just cruel.
So tired of all the med changes!
Aug 31 · 52
Brain cleanse
Arpitha Aug 31
Why don’t you
break my skull
take out my brain
replace the damaged
fix the broken
remove the decayed
scrub what’s left
reset the product
jump start it
and put it back
Good as new!
Aug 31 · 283
Mania
Arpitha Aug 31
Today was a good day,
not by your standards, nay.
I did not lay on my bed
waiting for its end.
I cooked and cleaned
Laughed and danced
Almost like I was high
and glad to be alive.

It’s night now,
the euphoria is wearing off
I’m coming back to reality.

It’s gone now,
the bundle of energy
Gone on to possess someone else
Fool them into thinking all’s well.

Maybe it wasn’t really happiness
And all it ever was
was mania.
Aug 31 · 86
Dumb
Arpitha Aug 31
So tired of
being unable to talk
I wish I had
just been born dumb.
Aug 30 · 62
Vacation
Arpitha Aug 30
Forever waiting;
for my mind
to go on a vacation.
Aug 28 · 397
Outcast
Arpitha Aug 28
It shouldn’t be me
who feels like an outcast
It should be you
for having dreams
in this hopeless world.
Aug 28 · 279
War
Arpitha Aug 28
War
Fighting enemies requires courage
Fighting friends requires bravery
But having to fight yourself?
That’s the combat no one talks about.

Having to fight your own mind against
the most basic thing the body is designed for -
the kind of battle which wins no medals.
Only people on the sidelines mocking the “weak” ones.

No state of the art weapons in this war -
Arms which ambush the attacker itself,
Armour which require trial and error.
A lone crusader fighting all the mutations.

A battle unseen
Even by closest of the tribe
Days, months, years
A struggle I can’t describe.
Aug 28 · 89
Lie
Arpitha Aug 28
Lie
I don't want to lie anymore
that I am fine
so I just don't respond.
Aug 28 · 164
Throw!!
Arpitha Aug 28
Can somebody lift
this heaviness
from my chest?
this darkness
from my mind?
this racing
of my heart?

Throw it away
from my sight
from my mind
from every single ******* cell
which makes me me.
Aug 28 · 84
Pay up
Arpitha Aug 28
Every breath labored
Every step measured
Every word strained
Every morsel forced
Every vigor feigned
Every smile stilted
Every hello insincere

Every single waking moment
coerced
from this wrecking mind.

I will have to pay.
Aug 28 · 77
Strike
Arpitha Aug 28
For every step I take
For every word I speak
I get a strike.

It's funny how
all my strikes are exhausted
between me and my mind.

No wonder
I have nothing to offer
to anyone.
Aug 28 · 163
Long day
Arpitha Aug 28
With iron blocks
attached to my legs
the demon in my head
controlling my every step
how do I get through today?
Aug 23 · 293
Friday night
Arpitha Aug 23
Everyone is busy
making plans for a party
Here I am
convincing myself to go to therapy.
Aug 20 · 1.1k
Burden
Arpitha Aug 20
What does it feel like?
To wake up and be happy about it
To not want to be one with the bed
To not feel like a burden, to everyone and everything.
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