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  Jan 2018 Savannah Muller
sarah
i try not to blame her
she makes you happy
and if you deserve anything
it is to be happy but
every time i see your eyes light up at her
brighter than they ever did at me
there’s a pang of aching jealousy that
hits me and my stomach drops to the floor
i wish i could be her
i wish i had her long blond hair,
perfectly shaped lips and thin hips
i wish i could’ve made you as happy as
she makes you.

soon i’ll be gone from your memory
i’d like to say the same for you of mine but
i know the thought of you kissing her will be
enough to keep me up at night for weeks

it’s not her fault, it’s not her fault, it’s not her fault
(is it mine?)
  Jan 2018 Savannah Muller
Rubii ü
SHE
She's lonely, but she seems happy
She's tired, but she moves forward
She's down, but she doesn't drown
She's hopeless, but she's not careless

They say she's pretty,
but she feels ugly
They say she's smart,
but she feels dumb
They say she's talented,
but she feels incompetent
They say she's strong,
but she feels weak

She has no one, but she ain't gone
And that she,


**Is me.
Savannah Muller Jan 2018
I see what I could be, What I should be and what I must be.
you get lost in your thoughts. but you must think.
What could you be, what should you be and what must you be. you should forget about the past on what has happened and turn to your future self. picture what you are in the future. not what you can be. but what you must be. It is your destiny to find where you belong later on in life.
who agrees with me like if you think so... love it if this is you. dislike if you think otherwise
Savannah Muller Jan 2018
I remember the last time I was hurt. I remembered how much pain he caused me from when I was born.
My body always hurting. my heart always broken.
I felt like I was a slave to him. I had never felt like a nobody in my entire life.
My heart felt like I would never be happy again Every night i got to bed asking myself the same question.
How did I not realize he was doing this to me? how could I not see that my Father was destroying my life with domestic Violence. as an abuse all his life. i feel safer now knowing i never have to bump into him anymore... or at least i think so.
Domestic Violence is never a good thing. people wake up and smell the coffee see the dangers and stop it before it impacts you life big time... or you could end up like me.
take off my
clothes. you'll see
the red lines
intertwined with the
pain and suffering
that my heart
endures. the suffer,
the pain, it
doesn't go away.
undress me completely.
you'll see my
story. my weak
hands, my weak
heart, my shallow
breath, it all
tears me apart.
look at my
chest, not my
*******, that doesn't
matter right now.
you will begin
to see all
my insecurities here.
look at my
stomach, weathering away
the scratches all
over, stinging, bleeding
so much bleeding.
look at my
arms, the bumpy
red lines of
a depressed and
suicidal ***** who
believes the lies
fed into her
brain, just to
throw it back
out. look at
my thighs, the
fingerprints that are
engraved underneath the
red webs, the
home that the
metal-like spider
made. look at
my hands. my
cruel, unforgiving hands.
the greatest danger
known to man.
look at my
face. my insomnia
induced, tired face.
worn out from
tears and anger.
look at my
eyes. the salt
water burns my
retinas. blinded in
torturous traumas, taunting
my cheeks with
its bittersweet release.
look at me.
look past my
figure, my feminine
physique, my tongue
that licks the
very lips that
has kissed death
many times before.
leave me in
the ****. exposed
for everyone to
see. underneath my
clothes, underneath my
skin, maybe then
they will begin
to understand that
I am not
okay.
beneath my skin, beneath my bones.
Savannah Muller Jan 2018
You pass me me by. I stare
who knew that someone like you could be so perfect beyond compare.
every time I look at you, i can't help but smile.
yes your the one for me, I love the way you have style.
i can't keep my eyes off you this is true. for my love you for you is stronger than my heart put back together after being broken in two.
i see you smile and it makes me think. how wondrous it would be if you knew the true and real me. I will love you forever my heart will not change, for you are the one i call a someone who brings my life around the the next day.
love is wondrous hold on to it.
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