Cloak

Cloak Oct 2017

I Love You,
                       You're My One And Only .
I Love You,
                        I Can't Ever Loose You .
I Love You,
                        I'll Love You Forever .
I Love You,
                        I Will Always Be There .
I Love You.
                                                I Love,

Your Beautiful Lies.
Your Hello And Goodbye,
You Were Very Shy,
In The End...
You Were Sly .
Why Must Every Hello End With Goodbye?
Why Did You Stop Telling Your Beautiful Lies...

After realizing your Love's words don't hold merit you can only sit here and reflect. Forever is a short amount of time...

#lies #love #lose #goodbye #shy #hello #one #you #always #end

Cloak Oct 2017

Deleted Words

Last Night I Deleted a Handful Of Poems
Now Where Are They?
Gone Forever?
Discarded Quill and Feather?
No...
They're In My Head..
It Fills Me With Dread...
No Matter How Hard I Try...
Deleted Words
Don't Delete From The Mind...

I went on to destroy my journal of work... Burned it because all it was is a journal full or memories and torment..

#poems #deleted #words #dread #quill #feather #night

Cloak Oct 2017

Forestall Gaia's Being

The Grass Was Green
Back When The Air Was Clean
        Now It's Dull
        It's Uniqueness Null
        The Chem trails ****
The Grasses and Hills
         Faded Grass
Representing Our Past
A Clean Nation
With No Radiation
         Now We Happily **** The Earth
Our Stay only Curt
         Goodbye Mother Earth
I'm So Sorry It Hurts
One Day The Grass Will Be Green
         When The Human Plague Recedes...
The Grass Will Be Green
And The Oceans Be Clean
          When We Humans Die
          Maybe Mass Genocide?
          Our History Is A Crime
Please Forgive us Mother Earth
           For You were the one that we,
Hurt...

We must save you Gaia...

#earth #gaia #pollution #genocide #extinction #radiation #humans #plague #crime #history

Cloak Oct 2017

Your Lullaby...

Your Words are Songs to My Ears.
I Think About Them In Fright,
As I lay my head to sleep Tonight.
Your Sweet Words
So Beautifully Sincere
Yet
I won't always be here to hear
To Feel Your Lips Against mine
To hear your Beautiful Lullaby
To Share Myself with you
I Have a time and so do you
We All Live
We All Die
We All Have A Time To Shine
My Time shining Is With You
The Rest Of Time To Spend With You
In Life
And In Death
Our Endless Love
I Won't Regret
This Is Me
Sending You
A Message
That's Simply True.
A Sincere,
I Love You...

This was written upon the realization that I can just die... I was in Love at the time at during this period I was grieving the loss of a close friend. I realized that one of us would die first... and I was afraid that if I was the first to go.. Someone would fill my spot in her heart...

#regret #love #death #depression #time #message #true #lullaby #beauty #companionship

Cloak Oct 2017

Hara-Kiri

Sometimes...
    I sit here and cry,
       Because it's You I Despise.

Spend every waking hour
                                by your side;
    Hearing every I Love You and
                                    Goodbye.

With every kiss you give,
          I feel Empty and Sick...

Why do you deserve to be Loved?
When everything about You is...
                                             Flawed.

You're an Accident,
                  A Disgrace.
  You don't belong in this place.
                       Dead and gone,
            Where you belong..

So My death
     Do not prolong.
                I Hate You...
                         I Hate me...

You can hate yourself...

                                    Apparently...

This was after a 2 year relationship, my life spiraled out of control into hard substance abuse and an obsession to die. I blamed myself for it... But I now realize Love cannot be regulated.. Either you're all in or you're out.. Even though you can blame yourself all day and focus so much on aggressive self destructive behaviors, at the end of the day you will find that peace you have so desperately seeked.

#suicide #death #anxiety #depression #relationships #love #pain #anger #harakiri #her

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