Get into my Hyundai
I call it my Ferrari
It goes hard when I'm at the wheel
Take me for a test drive
I'll show you how it feels
A body so hot it will make you melt
I'll take you to heights
you've never even felt.

©2018 Written By Benji James

I'm tired of bending over backwards
For somebody who just couldn't care less
Well you can just go to hell
Cuz I'm sick of dealing with circumstances, I've dealt
And all the pressures I've felt
I let down all my defences
Left my self-defenceless
Now I'm starting to lose all of my senses
And nothing makes sense cuz
You just went and walked away?
No, it doesn't work like that in my heart babe
I wanted you to stay
I tried to make all the badness go away
But this ain't a game
And I know you are not coming back
Yeah but you got to admit
what you did was slack
Yeah everything I thought you were is obviously a load of crap
I don't know what we can salvage from the wreckage
But what I'm dragging is heavy
And all that you bring is hectic
But I don't wanna be separate
when it comes to you
I'm mixed up with my emotions
I'm not sure whether to give you total devotion
Or if I'm better off without you around
Do you see what I think and feel now?
You can form an ocean of misery
I could drown trying to get out
But I'd rather burn in the flames
With you in my lane
And Nah I'm not ashamed
Of what I feel
Cuz you and I are one in the same
And neither of us is to blame
I just can't give up
On you, on us
So take all my love
But don't hurt me too much
Because I don't know if I'm enough
But for you, I'd bleed all my blood
Drench me to the bone
With all the pain you own
Together we can sink like a stone
You and I should never be alone
So come back, honey
We can work it all out
There's no need to fight this war
No need to scream or shout
Because you're my top priority now
I told you that before
But I'll try to give you more
Than I did before
Yeah, now I know that I'm sure.

©2018 Written By Benji James

You are so beautiful,
Your eyes glow like sapphires
You've got a smile
that lights up the night skies
I know cuz it makes me smile too
I feel your pain when your hurting
And that burns me to the core
Cuz making you happy
it's what I'm here for,
I'd give everything to have a girl
like you in my life
You inspire and give me courage
to keep on fighting every day
You'd be all I'd ever dream of
if you let me in
Your secrets are safe
in my locked mind
Cuz I'd do anything to prove
I'm worth your time
I'd share the world with you
And give you all I have
Your kind and sweet
as far as I can see
your perfection in my eyes
And I wouldn't believe anybody
who told me otherwise.
I'd wipe the tears and running mascara
from your eyes
If you took the chance
to see what lies inside
I can see what lies inside of you
You can make me laugh
with your quirky little ways
Your an individual
and that makes me proud to say
I've never met anybody quite like you
Your cute in everything you do
Being mad or upset with you
would be impossible in my world
Because you're such an amazing girl
I'd die, I'd lie, I'd cry with you
And always hold you tight
I'd never want to let you go
Cuz you're all I think about
every minute of every day
I wonder how your feeling
I wonder what your thinking
And all that is running
through your mind
I know things aren't easy
for you right now
But I'll always be there
when you call
I'll catch you before the fall
I'll always find a way to heal
the scars deep inside your heart
And share the load you bare
Cuz I'd do anything to get you
through every twist and turn
You have all my love
and the honesty in my heart
Your the only one I'd give it too
If you took the chance on me
I'll be everything you need
I hope that I'm everything
you could want
But deep inside I feel like
you deserve a better man
But I don't know how to let go
I wanna know you inside out
I'd like to find
what makes you weak in the knees
Your favourite colour
and favourite place to be,
the movies and music
I could share with you
Long walks and hold your hand
But most of all the taste of your kiss
the soft touch of your tender lips
is a memory I'd like to make
But there's a long road ahead
I wanna do it right
Take it slow, are you in for the ride?
Or would you pass this opportunity
and deny all that I write.
Would you let it just pass by?

©2018 Written By Benji James

Leaving on a world tour
Where I'll be alone
Surrounded by all the unknown
I got no plans for coming home
Oh, oh I'm not coming home

Follow the road
Of paved stone
Concrete laid beneath my feet
Yeah turn on the lights
I'll hit the stage
Surrounded by anarchy and rage
Like an animal in a cage
That's my cards well played
But god I'm glad
that I didn't stay
In this place

Leaving on a world tour
Where I'll be alone
Surrounded by all the unknown
I got no plans for coming home
Oh, oh I'm not coming home

Hear the crowds roar
Memories locked and stored
Some that just burn to the core
Never be the same person as before
Run away little train
From the thinking in his brain
Try to break free of these chains
Burnt by the flame
Bound by his own shame
That was the day
That the monster came

Leaving on a world tour
Where I'll be alone
Surrounded by all the unknown
I got no plans for coming home
Oh, oh I'm not coming home

©2018 Written By Benji James

They just don't get if I'm
******, Cynical or sarcastic
They think I've got a heart of plastic
That is pretty drastic
They say that I'm a spastic
My feelings like rubber elastic
It hurts when it hits
You try dealing with this ****
But wait that's just it, they do
We all have our personal scars
That befall us
And on behalf
Of everybody else
I offer up myself
To take the blame, the shame
Break you free of these chains
If that's what it takes
To break all the trouble I've made
Then lay out my fate
And I'll take your place.

©2018 Written By Benji James

I'm sorry that I was born ugly
I'm sorry I was even born at all
Just to grow up and be an idiot
I'm sorry that I fake my feelings
I know everyone thought I was doing fine
Truth is in my head I'm lying dead on the pavement
And in my heart, there is nothing there at all
All my ambitions went flooding out the door
Now it's just me and these four walls

©2018 Written By Benji James

No boys and girls I won't **** with greatness
I just wanted to get a taste of it
I never really wanted to be in this game
But all these People keep tempting me
And I'm still trying to figure out how to shine
I'm still not sure that it is my time
Sure I gotta few hits locked away
But they aren’t any good locked in a safe
I'm still trying to discover my image
Ladies and gentlemen this is just business
And yeah I tear myself apart for my art
Everyone might think that I'm crazy
For letting this shot break me
But it's what's put in that's special
That's why everyone's relating to this
Yeah I'm not trying to prove a point
I'm not hiding things deep down inside
Regrets are another part of life
And that's why I'm letting them out to fly

©2018 Written By Benji James