me
i grew up dreaming
that all good things happen
maybe in real life it does too
but i realised
life doesn't work
when you try reaching the stars.
all you can get
is air

you
dreamt of what's real
you knew the injustice
of hoping for the irrational
because you know the stars
are dead
and their shine
is hope
in illusion.

me
the ground
the mountains, reaching for you
you are the one that fills the gaps
between what i lost
and what i have yet to find
yet dreams will still be dreams
and my hands will never be long
and enough
to fill the space between
you and me.

you
the sky
you stretch your arms
you plague my existence with yours
and everyone above me
desires for your touch
what bothers me are the times when
you let your guard down
when you don't have to
and i feel you
just because i crave to.

me
i always want you.
i always do.
but if all i can get is air
while you're miles away
and if i'll be drowned
with your hellish hurricanes
and torturous storms
what could you make of me?

us
what could be?
will it be?
i have questions unanswered
but if there's one thing i'm certain of
it would be
there's no me in you
and there's
you in mine.

"And I swear
I loved that boy
With all that I could.

Loving him was
A painful venture,
And I cherished
every
    excruciating
         step."

Have you ever felt
The world slip away from your fingers
Your hopes, worries and anxiety
All crush you beneath a mammoth of fears
That no matter how much you struggle
It'll push further till you bleed
How much you try standing up
It'll splinter the strength in your marrow
Bit by bit
You Crumble and fret
And all of a sudden
You stop struggling.

Have you ever felt
Like giving up to it
Just embrace the slumber
Sooner than planned
And close your eyes
Forever?

I have. I do. I will. Until it all ends...

Meeting you must've been destiny,
Your bright smile lighting up my world.
The moment you entered my life,
It became so much more worthwhile.

We spent many summer days together,
Long nights talking about the world.
Winters spent wrapped up in blankets,
Enjoying each others company.

I wish I could go back with what I knew now,
Prevented many regretful mistakes.
I wish I let you know what I was thinking,
That I could have told you the truth.

I was in love with you,
You were the world to me.
But you had to leave me behind,
So I will keep my thoughts in mind.

Until we meet again.

i'm at this point where
i need something bad to happen
so that i can talk to someone
because there is no
apparent reason for me
to feel the way i do right now
so i can't talk to anyone about it
i can't tell how devastated i am
or how much i'm hurting
it feels like something is eating me up from the inside
and it hurts more than ever
but nothing happened
so i'm just gonna sit here
in the dark biting my tongue
hoping that someone will come
hold my hand and tell me that it is okay

*(s.m)

When I'm with you, my heart beats fast
I'm sorry our conversations don't usually last
I feel like this is going too fast, I never had
a relationship like this in the past, I've only been bashed
I've only crashed, With a razor i slashed, now I'm trashed
I'm waste, toothpaste, When I'm faced, My lips are laced,
That's the case, that's all that i need to say, Now go away
I'm about to have a panic attack every day, I'm just like this
you can't change me, Every time someone gets close to me, i just flee
Like a flea, You can't see me, I'm so small I can't be free, I wish i was
a tree, so no one could be with me, I'd be still until I'd decease, I'm a broken piece of glass, bet you never heard that, In grade 6 all i ever did was wear black, Yeah, i wear that, but it's not fair that, i was made fun of, made me feel suicidal, throwing my emotions in a tidal, tidal wave, I can't be brave, They say, I feel locked away, rocked away, fading, in decay, I can never stay, My heart melts to clay, when i see you everyday. Now I'm broken, trust issues, now I've spoken, can't you see the rhymes I've broke in, I want a cloak n some magic potion to send me away from this place, I'm such a disgrace, I hide my face, I pick up the pace, I tried to avoid them but it didn't work, they just made me hurt, I had a spurt, of confidence there, well that confidence's gone. I'm shattered in pieces. And yeah, you better believe it.

I wish I can write a poem about how I feel
But I can't find the words to express how much it hurt when you left

Put yourself out there or you'll never know

Give love a chance ,see if it grows

But this do remember when your alone, each heart has a dark side that seldom is shown.

The pain I feel now I doubt will subside, the ache of this love as it slowly dies

Never again my heart will I give, this I do swear as long as I live .

You seem very happy with me now gone ,this fate awaits you it won't be long.

These words someday in your life will be true ,for what you did to me will be done to you .