I render a wounded apology
for I've caused the hurt,
for I've ruined the peace
you were looking for.
Forgive me
for i am too nascent
in the handling of love.
And tell me how
a person used to so much loathe
adapts to the selfless love?
Because i too would someday learn
the art of holding you dear.
Don't leave,
Stay near.

It's the calm and stillness
To make me realize how
Stormy I am inside
Thunderous and crashing waves
The kind that wears away at
The cliffs and change the landscape
I feel like I'm being worn
By my own sea
But even still
Waves of emotion are better than the
Calm, the quiet
That's what really rips at my roots
And tears me from the soil
From which I got my nutrients
I'm starved of oxygen
Yet to be free of my restraint
Inside the ground and hugged by the waters
I don't mind this peace
I'll let it fade me away

you don't own me;
yet you gripped my past
gave me nightmares,
and made me loathe living.

you don't own me;
but you claimed to be
my saviour when
you blindly tied me
to your wills.

you don't own me,
for I won't be owned,
by no one but myself.

All of sudden reality happens
Ruining my mind that's already jumbled
"where the hell did i just go?"
I ask to myself no one listens
Obsecurity is still in me
Recognizing situation where i have been
Looking up the sky it's already dark
Worrying something, i need to get up
Home, i need to find home
Stepping forward to pass the crowd
The longer i go, the quieter it's so
Taking my glasses off because its fogged
Focusing my lens but the blur shows
sigh
Now melancholy does it again
Lack of knowledge about locations
Lack of someone to be asked for
And there is no light to guide me on
Vision, direction, companion
I wish i could make them clearer
But in reality, they just disappear

being held in your arms gives me
security
being held in your arms brings me
hope
being held in your arms makes me
flustered
being held in your arms means
to lose everything
being held in your arms is
rebelling
being held in your arms has
to be fate

...

when i am not held in you arms.
i bring doubt.
i lose purpose.
i create insanity.
i long for desire.
i mean nothing

I've poured out all the love out of my heart
For you
now how do I pour out the hate