The music drifts my mind away
Each beat shuddering through my whole presence
Making my heart thump and my blood frantically flow through my veins

The city lights hide the dark shadows of the night
Bringing warmth and safety to the room
Like a big blanket that protects you from the things scaring you

People huddle in groups, all enjoying the ebullience in the air
Smiles and laughter could be heard from miles away
Not a trace of unhappiness on this beautiful night

I look around me, my eyes shining as bright as the stars
Smiling at the sight surrounding me
My stomach fills with butterflies and goosebumps trail my arms and legs
And a warm feeling ignites within me
This is a night, a moment I’ll never forget.

walking along the beach
a warm summer breeze passes
birds chirping along with each other
laughter in the background
seems like everyone's come
to enjoy a nice summer day

bodies are shamed
made fun of
because they don't fit
society's definition of beauty

your weight matters
your waist skinny
your stomach flat
and legs skinny

have we no shame
to make fun of bodies
bodies that are all the same inside

putting somebody below you
because of their body shape
makes you a smaller person
then them

I’m underwater
I cannot breathe

I’m underwater
darkness surrounding
me

I’m underwater
my lungs
caving in

I’m underwater
drowning
an escape
from reality

If I showed you my scars
would you run away
or will you take a chance
and tell me it’s okay
would you hold me all night
and make me forget the pain
slowly falling asleep
to the sound of the rain
will you stay with me
and hold me as i cry
talk with me
until it’s time to say goodbye
if i showed you my scars
will you change your mind
go without a trace
as i’m left behind

I walk around
The air as still as can be
Shivers run up and down my spine
The room is like a blank canvas
The only color is the yellow tiles
And the fading white walls


The chair creaks as I sit
The sound bouncing from the walls
My shoulders lean forward
And my eyes close to imagine
This room from when I was a child


The memories start spilling,
They make my heart ache,
My throat close,
And my chest burn.


The floor underneath croaks with each step
And the doors have started slamming with the lightest breeze
The windows can’t hold themselves up anymore
And I realize
The room I grew up in
The room with all my greatest moments
Has become a place that’s no longer recognizable
Only the aroma brings back
A trace of childhood
That’s left in this broken place
I once called home

late nights and having fun
movie nights and spa days
mani-pedis and hair stylists
so many memories and pictures
i'll never forget you

you don't know me
not then
not now
we could've had something
something special
if it wasn't for all of your games
you pretended all along
you don't know me
not then
not now

hey my little angel,
how're you doing
haven't seen you in a while
hope I've made you smile

hey my little angel,
how're things from above
do you feel what I believe
do you see what I've achieved

hey my little angel,
things just aren't okay
I keep thinking it'll get better
but instead it's all the same

hey my little angel,
will you recognize me
when I meet you someday
in your land far, far away

hey my little angel,
make me see
show me the light
I won't give up the fight

The water ripples
as I throw a penny in
wishing for something as I do
looking deep inside
I can see others have made a wish too
I guess we want to believe
that they'll come true

You're here on my porch
begging to let you in
trying to apologize
but darling, it's a little too late for that

You say that you want me back
but i'm already gone
fooled me once, shame on you
fool me twice, shame on me

When you're all alone
and you feel you've lost your way
just know that I'm here
and I'll always stay

Even in tough times
we'll make it through
don't listen to what they say
it's not true

I know it's hard
to stay alive and put up a good fight
although deep in your heart
you know nothing's right

but keep going strong
it's gonna pay off someday
and thank all your haters
then keep going your way

never had somebody
love me like you
the way you take over me
is scary and new

the little sparks ignite
every time you come near me
i don't know what love is
but you help me to see

I've stayed clear
from the big L itself
nothing good ever comes from
keeping someone to yourself

but with you
i love the way it seems
i guess no one can ever stay away
from the root of dreams

I love your eyes the most,
because they hold all the emotions you cannot speak of
they hold such beauty that when I close my eyes
it's yours I see

For all the times we’ve had together
it was all for nothing
one mistake was all it took
and now we’re on different pages

trying to rip out all the problems
trying to get you to understand
it’s not just me to blame
and it’s not for you to judge

it doesn’t take much to get mad
and the problem may be small
but you don’t know how it feels
until you’re in my shoes

I want you to know
that i’m not mad
but you’ll never see
because you don’t talk to me
anymore

don’t want this friendship to end
but I don’t understand why you’re mad
we’re on different pages
and we can’t go back

different minds brought us apart
and now i’m left here to try and fix this
but this can’t be a one sided job
we’re both to blame for what we haven’t said

I love you like the sun loves the moon
As they say
It hides every night
Just to let the moon rise

Your smile brightens my mood
No matter what it is
Your touch tingles my very core
You make me feel

I love all your little quirks
And imperfections
They remind me of who you are
And why I’m in love with you

I love the way your eyes crinkle when you smile
And it reaches to your cheeks
It shows me it’s genuine
I love it especially when I’m the reason for it

I love the way you talk
How you look away after eye contact
The shyness doesn’t go away
Even after all the time we’ve spent together

I love the sound of your laughter
The way it brightens your features
And the way it lifts up the tension
It truly makes me happy to know your happy

I love how you stuck with me
Even through the tough times
Even after I was being selfish
It showed me you really care

You’re like the sun and I, the earth
You’re the center of my universe
And I just want to get closer and closer to you
Just like the earth revolves around the sun ; closer and closer

I love you
I’ve been in love with you since the moment we met
I want to spend my happily ever after with the woman I love
And the woman I love is *you

I want a perfect body
I want a perfect face
You look like an angel
I just feel so out of place

Your laugh is like music
Your voice like a song
I stand and look at you
And I know I don't belong

You're so special
And I'm a creep
Everybody wants you
But nobody wants me

I wish I was special
But I'm just a creep
everybody wants you
They don't give a ****
About me

if a man can say what he wants
shouldn't us women get the same chance
without someone calling her a *****.

if a man can eat so much
shouldn't us women get to eat that much
without someone calling her fat.

if a man is a victim of ****** assault
shouldn't us women get the same treatment he does
without someone pinning the blame on her.

if a man was sexually assaulted
and he was getting the blame because of what he wore
wouldn't he get mad.

if a man ate so much
and he got called fat
wouldn't he be mad.

if a man said anything he wanted
and got called an *******
wouldn't he get mad.

when we hear someone's name
their face comes to mind
their personality, their body, their voice
sometimes it makes you feel good and
sometimes it doesn't
but when your name is called
it makes my heart beat harder and faster
it makes breathing difficult
it makes a smile tug at the corners of my lips
a name is just a word
but when placed to a person it becomes so much more
it makes you feel just by hearing it
and whenever i hear your name
i *feel

saying this makes my heart ache
my stomach churn
and my eyes water
but a place like this
is not one i would've liked to exist in
where everyone excludes one
because of a language barrier
and is punished for speaking their own language
because the others felt uncomfortable
it disgusts me
that people think it's acceptable
and it saddens me
that this is a world we live in

Tugging on my skin
leaving permanent scars
blood sheds out
but i let it dry up

busy chugging pills
trying to look skinny
even throw up a little
so i can like me

going through magazines
and wondering about
how they're so beautiful
and i'm not

i think god hates me
because my life is a mess
leaving food behind
for my beach body

a shadow
whispered to me
my only companion
left as quickly
as it came
and i just stood there
in the middle of the night
looking towards where it went
wondering if i'll ever see it again

the patriarchy is taking over this world
this world where both men and women have lived for thousands of years
never have we had to fight for rights that was to be given to us
never have we had to reunite millions of people
to try and solve a complication that shouldn't have rose in the first place
no women shall be deprived of basic human rights
no women shall be treated as an insignificance
a women can't do what she wishes without a comment of dissatisfaction,
without a comment of unrighteous criticism
the equality of both genders is a rising problem
we fought this over 100 years ago and the inequality is still not resolved
it's sad to see that gender is one of the major things that tear this world apart
it's retched to know that women are to be thought of as a lesser human and sometimes an inexistent creature
our voices are silenced by those who wish to be in power
by those who are afraid of what we can do
this is becoming history and us women won't stop until we get the same payment, the same rights, the same treatment that men have
we have fought too **** long
we are human, we are people and we deserve to be treated as such

tears dripping from your eyes
and they run down your cheeks
to your nose and your lips

no one there to wipe them away
only a demon inside
to accompany you as you fade

the demons inside me
i can't get rid of
taunting me relentlessly
still i can't shake them off
it's like they have taken ahold of me
taking control of my own body
of my own conscience
making me fall deeper
and deeper
feeding me nonsense
making me believe
believe that i'm nothing
nothing but a waste of space

sweet sounds
so melodious
like a bird chirping a morning song
i listen closely
not wanting it to end
it takes me somewhere
another place, another time
not stuck in the present
until it stops
and i'm back to where i was
before the angel-like voice
interrupted my day

you treat people sweetly
believing they have a heart like yours
but not everyone can be as soft
and sweet as you
the person they truly are
is not that person to you
they become just as sweet and tender in your mind
and you give and give
they take and take
and here you are in the end
left empty
and there they are
left full.

what if you never really liked me
what if we weren't actually friends
what if this whole friendship was a lie
what if our memories meant nothing to you
what if we never talked again
what if we're not friends anymore
what if...

do you know how many people are desperate
desperate to look young
to feel young

so don't just exist through your early years
you'll never make memories
you'll miss all the fun

I don't tell anyone how I feel
there's too much emotion and not enough words
I feel like I'm all alone and no one understands
even if people are going through the same thing

I don't cry in front of anyone
it's a sign of weakness
I feel embarrassed
even if no one laughs

I don't self-harm myself though
even though sometimes it seems like the only way
to release the emotional pain
it doesn't solve anything

So put down the razor
cry if you're hurting
tell people how you feel
and most importantly, don't hate yourself and don't let anyone put you down.

I'm just me
a person that doesn't do anything perfectly

I'm very normal
There's nothing extraordinary about me

If a stranger were to see me, there would be no second glances
I blend in with the crowd

I'm nothing exquisite
I'm just *me

A fresh wind
a walk in the park
leaves falling down
mild weather
sweaters and coffee
then winter comes
white covered land
everything draped in snow
blinded by the sparkles
.....so white

silence
no words spoken
no voices heard
so unusual
so ...  
           odd
but beautiful
every once in a while

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is good

You think my scars are to get attention
I think my scars are there to remind me not to go there
they remind me of what I’ve been through and that I’ve survived

You think my outer appearance defines me
I think my outer appearance is nothing compared to what’s inside
my personality and knowledge is what I think matters more

You think my past is something that’s to be made fun of
I think my past has made me become myself
i’ve found the true meaning of a warrior but you’ll never care

white flakes of wintery snow
softly peck my face
his fingers caress my shoulders
warmth radiating from his body
making me draw him closer
I look up and gently plant a kiss
lingering for longer than needed
and finally I could fall

i don't know what i did wrong
but you won't pick up the phone
and every time i think we're through
you come back and say i love you

it's like i'm stuck in your twisted game
and the rules change everyday
too scared i might break things
it's like i'm trapped in you

don't you think that i'm too young
don't you think you've done enough
with all your pleadings and all your guilt
i guess i was too gullible and thought you'd have changed

you come and leave anytime you want
using me but i can't get out
stuck in a maze and i'm trying to find an exit
but you're in the way every time i try to leave

I have been broken and bent for so long
Not truly knowing where I belong
I feel the dread crippling through my veins
As I break and break again
I long to see the days
Where I’m finally taken away
From this dark and silent mind
To see what else I can find
Every second, minute, hour I’m here
I’m losing myself even further, I fear
I’ve spent so much time on the ground
Staring at the pieces of myself I’ve found
Still as I try to piece my heart back together again
Like a mosaic, it doesn’t quite fit right in
And so I rest and try again tomorrow
The crushing pang in my chest of sorrow
I rise and fall and rise and fall
I guess life really is a ride of heartbreak after all