xxxxxx-x: Poems

105

xxxxxx-x Jan 2019

105

Staring into the darkness,
Mind is filled with unspoken words,
The coldness of my heart has gone to frozen,
I am not whom you thought you knew.

#latenightthoughts #darkness #overthinking #latenight #thoughts #words #1am

Drive

xxxxxx-x Jan 2019

Drive

Driving around town,
With the windows down,
The cold air touched my face,
I felt your hand.

Passing every streets,
I could see us at the back of my mind,
Where did the time go?
Where did we went wrong?

The songs were loud,
But the sound of your laughter was louder,
How I miss those sound,
For crying is now the music to my ears.

The lights turned red,
The colour that reminded me the trouble I had with you,
The lights turned green,
I must go now and
let you go.

#movingon #drive #latenightdrive #latenight #words #lettinggo #letgo

FATE

xxxxxx-x Mar 2019

FATE

We met and said our hello,
For every moment spent felt like it was meant to be,
Now that I got you under my skin,
I find your heart isn’t there.

The sun rises,
You are still there,
The sun sets,
You are still here.

Your eyes locked into mine,
Your lips moved,
You said goodbye,
My heart was torn into pieces.

The constellations changed,
The stars realigned,
But our fate remained unchanged,
We were never meant to be.

#fate #destiny #love

Heaven and You

xxxxxx-x Feb 2019

Heaven and You

Your pain has come to an end,
Your smile remains on your face,
Your beauty will always be remembered,
You lost in the battle
and Heaven wins,
But now,
You are an Angel.

I dedicated this poem to my friend who has been in a battle with cancer and I only found out about her death after 2 months. She was a friend that I met online and we only met when I visit her hometown. It was difficult for her to keep in contact with me because she was too weak to update her social media but one of her closed friends manage to reach me. I couldn't stop hating myself for not being there for her and saying goodbye. It was a news that I can't take well. It took me awhile to actually finally write about it. May she rest in peace.

#heaven #death #friend

LOVE & LUST

xxxxxx-x Mar 2019

LOVE & LUST

In denial I was,
I forced love to you,
You forced lust to me,
In the name of LOVE, I gave you LUST

#love #lust #unrequitedlove

Now and Then

xxxxxx-x Dec 2019

Now and Then

You were there
for me
to teach me
to guide me
to help me
to listen to me

Are you here now
for me
to hug me
to kiss me
to hold me
to love me

Because I was there then and I am here now

#time #love #distance

Rose

xxxxxx-x Jan 2019

Rose

Beautiful flower,
Bold but fragile,
Thorns enveloped her body,
For only one is willing to hold her;
Her true love.

#rose #flower #truelove #love

Untitled

xxxxxx-x Dec 2019

Untitled

Why do I feel the only way to start all over again is to be reborn?
Why do I feel the only answer is to leave everything behind?
Why do I feel everything is not okay and it will never be?
Why do I feel everything is falling apart and there is nothing I can do to stop it?
Why do I feel like exhaling one last breath and then leave with a smile?

There is nothing else in my mind but to just leave and let go completely.

#dying #suicidal #letting #go

Waves

xxxxxx-x Feb 2019

Waves

There was something about the beach that made her wonder,
The sound of the waves promised it is a safe place,
The company she had said
"believe in yourself",
For the sun has risen up,
It is a new day, another chance to start.

#beach #believing #chance #restart #waves

Yellow

xxxxxx-x Jan 2019

Yellow

Time and distance may separate us,
Forgiveness and acceptance lead us here,
You were never really gone from my life,
For the sun is always shining,
The sunflower is always blooming,
And you are the Sun and Sunflower.

#sun #sunflower #yellow #love #miss

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