Just think of rain as my tears
At first the sound of lightening
Is what you hear
Then the it starts drizzling
    Drop  by drop
The clouds turning black
Refraining from letting it out at first
Trying to remain intact
Far above in the sky.

The sobbing starts with a  roar
The lightening somethig I once adored
Now becoming a part of me
Something that I hate.

Then suddenly the clouds can't hold it in
It bursts all the pain it had within
Shedding down the rain of tears
Croaking to those who can hear
Some wear a raincoat
And some a get an umbrella
Others run away
But some drench themselves
In my own pain
And feel the tears on their own skins
They kiss the tears
And quench their thusts
And when they do,
There's a cloud burst
*The black sky turns blue again.

I guess you could say
I had to get away
From the way words
Had began to grate...
......of late
For we seem to have entered
A season without reason
Where simple lies
Multiplies
Revealing just how unfeeling
People can be
So much so so much
Hypocrisy
Total insanity seems...
... To have slipped in, ripped in
To the very core of who...
... I used to think we were
And it never did occur
to the me I used to be
Before I had to look... Into the eyes
And accept this new reality
So I took myself out
And closed the door after...
... I locked myself in
Where i decided to start
A season of art
Climbed out of the web
And then ...when
I have the blues
Its somethig i can use
To make lakes or skies
Or lovely eyes
And for a little while
Pretend ....i put an end
To all the ugly hate and bitter  vile
Because i got so tired
And being uninspired
by those who seek
new lower lows
While shooting holes
In their very  own Souls

i am feeling my emotions
in my head their all yelling
causing a commotion
"your not good enough" they shout
"your selfish and greedy"
but don't feel sorry for yourself
you don't want to seem needy

how is it that i can help others
but i cant help myself?
you all come to me with your problems
expecting me to solve 'em

I can't solve mine
maybe its because of the mask i hide behind
but you know what world
I gotta thank you
for all this anger I carry inside

i know that its probably inevtible
for me to carry plan: s
but i want to give it one last shot

and thats what i keep telling myself
just one last shot
and maybe it'll get better

but its not, because of all you selfish *******
i give everything i have to you
i gave myself up to the world
i have torn myself apart
to entertain
please
and just give to you

but your all selfish
you don't give me a break
you always want more
and i guess thats partly my fault

instead of giving you all somethig to wish on in times of need
i gave you a machine
that you've slowly turned to grief

and I know
oh I know

theres nothing i can do

all i'm doing is venting to you