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497 · Aug 2015
Paper (10w)
sheloveswords Aug 2015
You are my loose leaf and I scribble on you.
488 · Dec 2017
So Let's just be frank
sheloveswords Dec 2017
there's a peace of mind
I'm on a journey for
scavaging and hunting for
what belongs to me
my sanity
I can't let you have
my love
and turn it into profanity
a curse
a joke
my deep passion soaking into your hands
as I watch you carelessly play in the dirt
here it comes
the hurt
races against joy
but insanity has come to steal the race
and the crowd makes the noise
I feel so out of place
I fell so deep into you, I no longer felt the light
then my skin became cold
following my emotions, or lack there of
my soul began to decipher
what feeds and what destroys

I am now waiting for my mind to fall in line
to find peace
my thoughts to find ease
finding a way to re-write our history
your name rings the very bell that controls my tears
when I close my eyes
I see yours
I repaint your lips and each word spoke
I hate you
then I love you
you watch me entangle with my emotions
you feed my despair
you stir my commotion
I feed you your energy that you allow to be stole
I fed you half of me
there's no way I can be whole
playing this game
your poker face is so perfect
and unphased
while I'm on this trip to neverland
a journey alone I never planned.

I need a peace of mind
a peace of mind I'll give you
you were my sickness
I need to heal you
disinfect the wounds you caused
the ulcers of false hope
the emptiness,
you wasted my time
you misplaced my crown
a blue river I have cried
its time for my smile to return now
....because even if you say it's not over
I know I won't die

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480 · Dec 2015
Ignorance is Bliss
sheloveswords Dec 2015
when times falls upon your hands
cradling each indentation
of the lines that predispose
our vitality
every hearts measure
of every unveiled emotion
wrapped around each soul
that didn't deserve such tenderness
you freely provided

when time calls for every ear
to anticipate the knowledge of the
conscious thoughts that flows pass
toxic lips espoused from a sweet soul
who would stand the words?

who would lock their lips?
open their ears
and hear
cease listening with their eyes
to see the unseen
to know the unknown
a fool of this generation
one would be
because in these times
ignorance is bliss
it has found itself a nice comfy home
to thousands of lost souls
wandering in this Earthly abyss
454 · Dec 2015
Falling in love
sheloveswords Dec 2015
The best lesson I learned on falling in love is how to float in each moment of laughter and passion before the long fall of crashing and eventually hitting rock bottom, which turned out to be the most loneliest coldest emptiness of a place where I naively thought happily ever after could possibly exist.



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453 · Apr 2015
Desiccated
sheloveswords Apr 2015
LOVE
I promise you
Every time I feel all is well
you take your rusty bucket
and you dry me out
until the last drop
completely drenches your self-serving satisfaction


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443 · Sep 2015
Written Melody
sheloveswords Sep 2015
He goes against my code of conduct.  
I am a poet, I love words.
but He.
He makes my poetry sings
and never have I performed a tune
I provide the words, The rest he brings
he's a live concert under the moon
the vibrations of his life flow creates the perfect songs to make up to
to break up to
and after the wounds are healed
and the war has ended
he turns my poetry to the most wonderful songs to make love to.
419 · Jul 2017
Constant Shower
sheloveswords Jul 2017
Embedded
Engraved
Tattooed
Enslaved

the flood
the waves

of this static despair

the tears

I can begin to hear them form
I confess my sins to see if the rain would cease to pour

now

I can swim in my tears.
It is my preferred way to drown.

Constant showers
my ocean floors cannot be found

the waves pound
and the sea roars

I pray depression sees my worthlessness and not want me any more

I pray that I find that purpose, that peace, and that sanity, that everyone I see lives for.


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sheloveswords Oct 2017
Searching for the strength
          to write again . .




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398 · Aug 2016
Sad in Silence (10W)
397 · Feb 2016
Hidden Treasure
sheloveswords Feb 2016
He gave me poetry when we first met
he had it perfectly wrapped in a deep purple bow
satin swimming all around
resting inside was his heart painted gold
391 · Oct 2021
h o l y l i n e n
sheloveswords Oct 2021
he swallows me in his arms at night
and wears me when he’s most vulnerable
In honor,
I clothe him
unbeknownst to him
while he sleeps
the angels and I meet
and we celebrate him
381 · May 2017
Cold Bed
sheloveswords May 2017
chilling sheets
there are
crystallized tears
on these  frozen pillows
I lay still but
my silhouette willows
through the winds from the window
that we kept open
last night
was an exception
I had to focus

        to give heat
because
once again I found myself
laying in a cold bed
with another being
beside me and
Still I Stay
like I'm Jodeci in the 90s
the temperature drops now
there are snowflakes all around me
his frost then surrounds me
this cold bed holds me
but
I am so warmed
that
I survived another moment
379 · Dec 2015
My Happy Feet
sheloveswords Dec 2015
I hear
     and
I feel
     the music
of your
     heart beat . . . .

Incase you're wondering
     why I can't stop dancing
sheloveswords Dec 2017
will all the man who will fail me, please stand up.

you will be escorted out of my life.
sheloveswords Dec 2017
My thoughts alone arrest me
Your fresh iron bars fills my vicinity &
it protects me
from my anxious flights
I fight with
with my back against the wall
and an uncontrollable tremble
my body rains this dew of unwavering terror
uncertaint
thoughts of errors
forms theses arrows
and I follow them to my demise
but if he opens this cage
and I can see further than my eyes
I may just as well
walk to my own ****** suicide

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369 · Oct 2015
Embedded|Proven
sheloveswords Oct 2015
your skin held captive under my hard keratin
I am finding myself
passionately carving my favorite drawing
of this over spilling ecstasy
you easily made
the walls that have been build
Finally I get the pleasure
of knocking them down
passing over
each river flooded by our fears
flowing by our tears
gravity pulling me down
attempting to own me and mark
its estate
my friends think it's crazy
but
It's only the other side of love
others refuse to show



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367 · Sep 2015
Pillows Painted Wet
sheloveswords Sep 2015
I've grown tired of crying myself to sleep at night
soaking my pillow
my mind makes me believe that
somehow
through the currents of my nightly oceans
I master swimming in my sleep



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361 · May 2017
Poetic Blues
sheloveswords May 2017
from the top of my crown
his blues come traveling down
sweet paresthesia claiming my arms
grabbing my hands
he gives me this case of poetic blues

he strings my instrument
his rhythmical melody soothes
and tunes
my uncontrollable side

it is finally tamed

oh, the blues that flows down my thighs at the sound his name
is another debate

it went from I putting a spell on you
to you putting a spell of me
this has caused
a swap of fate
the waves of me swimming on top of you
or the calm of you floating on top of me
oh, the blues that flows down and travel to my feet

gives me the strength to stand in this cold dark world
with out this blessing I would have surely sunk
I dwell
I survive
I dance
Amen
to this case of poetic blue funk
347 · Aug 2017
We will all get by
sheloveswords Aug 2017
I dont know if it is the clouds in my head or the souls in my bed

or the tainted pleasures

instead

of pouring
I rather blaze

In place of worry
I rather praise

and pray

that we all find our way

on this cold ground
with this frozen breeze

I don't have parents or

or a grandma to pray for me

so lately my ruthlessness has generously been on display for me
to be able to stand for Him and for myself.
335 · Nov 2016
Wake Up, Soul
sheloveswords Nov 2016
The need to be needed
is falsity alone
your journey is your rode
perfectly carved for your feet
intentionally prone to your stride

the repetition
the system
the matrix caving in and expanding as one
intertwined
***** dancing

the insult to be able to breathe
is a bullet to my gun

a breath taken before conceived
a birth before life begun

surround and bond the thieves
LETS THROW THEM TO THE WOLVES!
but the sheep are asleep
during the battle of the war

during the only chance to defeat
the front line that you've been assigned to

they put your very own flesh and blood
as an opponent
their horses are galloping with death
on their breath to find you

are you too blinded by the smoke from your guns or the smoke from your lungs?
the plots to dehumanize, destroy, and abandon  your young
doesn't mind you?
Does the mysteries and fulfillment of the Most High not find you?

Peace and Wisdom are the most beautiful women
still awaiting for your attention
for your focus
this war we are fighting against our own flesh and blood is it worth it?

the man you are killing
the life you are stealing
do you know that is your brother?
that woman crying and dying over the lifeless body of her son, did you know that is your mother?

IF Yah was just

Please open your eyes and realize
His hands are on us
We are made in His Image
We are made in His Love
His living words breath right inside us
but you wont be able to see it until you wake up

wake up, soul
wake up
you've been asleep to long
the street lights are on
and it time to make up
for way that has been lost from the generations of slumber and strategical attacks to break up the most deepest fulfilling intimate connection that you will have in this present of a lifetime.
329 · Jan 2016
the things he do to me
sheloveswords Jan 2016
with no words

with no sound

with no hands

with no hesitation

with no hate

with no force

                                  *he makes me write poetry
298 · Sep 2015
This A.M.
sheloveswords Sep 2015
Last night I feel in love
and when I woke up
I was covered in you.
295 · Feb 2017
forbidden soul
sheloveswords Feb 2017
my soul is broken and wordless
in the depths of loneliness combining
the deficiency from lack of love
there is no poetry to report
I am starving with hopelessness
in any case
who loves the person who loves everyone else?



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220 · Jul 2020
Veracus Tragos
sheloveswords Jul 2020
Why, even, start something so beautiful...when it’s going to end so ugly? 


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219 · Jun 2019
trA
sheloveswords Jun 2019
trA
Painting with a twist
Paint me with your kiss
Stroke me with your brush
Stroke me till I blush

Oil me in your pastels

Your lavenders soothes me well
Hang me on your wall

Until you’re ready to use me...
again

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125 · May 2022
e n e m e
sheloveswords May 2022
most times,
I’m without words
without emotions
mute and frozen
reoccuring spurts of sadness
strikes me
and my heart becomes burden and heave
see, no one is more disappointed in me than me
I know that
no one hates me more than I hate myself
I show that
still, somehow

it’s a sick satisfaction I relish when my worse enemy glares back at me everyday
124 · Nov 2020
get out
sheloveswords Nov 2020
the further I drift
the darker I dream
116 · Aug 31
bon appetit
sheloveswords Aug 31
you lie as a disguise
and want me to love the mask I see
when I claw to reveal
the scars always end up on me
you kiss my war wounds
after my trample under yo feet
you scrape my tears
then plate them n serve em back to me
111 · Sep 2020
well, I hate me too
sheloveswords Sep 2020
it all ends with the inevitable, you hating me in the end.

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