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1.3k · Feb 2018
Girl Next Door...
Tash Feb 2018
I'm the girl with the glasses
who hides behind her books and would rather stick to one friend than a crew
I'm the girl that's social but not on social media
because she needs my space to be her space with the ones she actually faces
I'm the girl who would like and follow subscribe and share
but never tweet or snap or post
I'm that girl that invites people literally into her life and shares who she is with the ones she chooses
I'm not awkward nor strange
I'm me and that's what's unique and beautiful
I'm an ambivert...
608 · Feb 2018
Changes of Time
Tash Feb 2018
Time goes by and people change
Friends turn into strangers and fade away
Forgetting all that was said and done together

Time goes by and people change
Life changes
But better yet you should still remain the better you than you've ever been in life

Change is inevitable embrace it...
349 · Jul 2018
Friendships not Endships
Tash Jul 2018
I used to have alot of friends you see
Friends that promised to turn my endless dreams into realities
Friends that would inspire to respire nothing but pure joy and great laughter
That would creep secrets and wild fantasies out of me
Just to make sure that the world saw that which they saw in me.

But when I met the ultimate friend that never promised but made sure to never let go of me
That's when I saw that the friends that were there were not destined to be my friends indeed

They each stepped out and let me down when I was no longer who they thought I ought to be

They each left me cold and wet and not one came back to shelter me untill I was warm and dry
Oh no not one I might add

But this very friend that did instead of spoke that cared instead of promised even though He was empty and all sorts of broke
Showed me that friendship is more than the mere words you speak and the dreams that you share to turn into realities.

It's the bond between beings that requires actions that would speak louder than words and reassure you that this love between all of you is there to settle whether high or low.
330 · Aug 2018
Self Pity Nothing Pretty
Tash Aug 2018
Self pity nothing pretty
You always look down at yourself
Thinking that there's nothing to make you feel so great on the inside and out

Self pity nothing pretty
With endless regret you take one glance and start reconstructing who you think you ought to look like
Just to make the staring worth while

Self pity nothing pretty
Is what you preach to yourself
Every Mornin, Noon and Night.
Turning your heart from glee to hate
Disguising that beautiful trait
Just because you feel all sorts of strange.

Self pity nothing pretty
Is what I beg you forget
Because you were made with the most precious time,
by the One who called you great.

Forget about the hate that lays within you
Or the frustration of the thoughts that clutter your mind...

But better yet love you
for everything that makes you, you
And as for the world,
it shall be strong.
Just make sure you're not one that falls for its "self pity nothing pretty" endlessness.
330 · Jul 2018
Thanks
Tash Jul 2018
You are the reason for my deeper happiness
I guess
Thank you for not loving me back and having your heart yearn rather for another

You are the reason for my inspiration and to tell you the truth I'm glad I met you

To have you view my life through my status is more than enough
Maybe one day we'll speak or maybe one day we won't.

For as long as you know that I knew you once and I'll know you forever as my contact is more than enough.

Yet again I'll sever this bittersweet moment that ironically makes me glee at how much I've gotten out from me being far from you than being nearer.

Thank you inspiration
It's because of you that I write...
329 · Mar 2018
I'm amazed
Tash Mar 2018
I'm amazed at the fact of how much I am still welling to prolong my hope and wait for you
when you clearly don't give a dime about me

I'm amazed at how much I brush my feelings away for you
In hope that you won't fall for someone else and give us a chance aleast

I'm amazed at how I couldn't stand you
yet here I am day and night dreaming of the two of us together.
And yet I can't even get the courage to say hey hi, while you're just a message away from me.

I'm amazed at how much I think I know you while I don't even know your second name to say the least.
I'm amazed at how much my heart beats uncontrollably for a guy that might not even care if I exist.

I know I might have done you wrong but I didn't go looking for all these feelings that have emotionally blinded me.
I didn't go looking for all these feelings that causes me to be someone I'm not comfortable with
And I didn't go looking for these feelings that makes me pray for you day in and out without any reason.

I'm amazed that I'm still habouring all this while I try so deep and hard to think of why I desperately love you...
300 · Sep 2018
No Longer Can It Last
Tash Sep 2018
I couldn't take it any longer
I just realised that
The pain and hurt
The catching of unneeded feelings
Feelings that I thought were left a mile ago when I repented to what I thought was true

I couldn't take it any longer
This for sure I knew
That even when I told myself through every breathe that it was over before it ever began
There was a part of me that still hoped for
still dreamt, still prayed and still wished
that it would all turn around for me, for good.

I tried pretending and instead fostered an unneeded hurt that grew instead of died.
And with that said I've come to the conclusion that I'm tired

And all I can do now is let go and not relive the hurt and pain that I softened to keep
what it was that I needed to stay...

Although it will hurt now this I know for sure
The best thing for everyone is to let go and let me be completely done...
277 · Jan 2018
Her tears
Tash Jan 2018
My eyes are filled with major insecurities
I never thought that this was who I was meant to be
Through all the abuse, damage and pain that I went through
Who knew that this was where I'd end up to be

No longer being that joyful girl that opened her heart to everyone around her
No longer carrying that smile for a mile which would help someone in need somewhere out there

She became a sad little prisoner
In her own world
Shutting everything and everyone out because she was afraid to love again
to accept all that was her
because of all that she went through

She became me and I became her
a girl sitted down, broken and less full of emotions I might add...

When you see me bear in mind that I'm no longer who I used to be
but rather I'm someone minding my own because the world has shown me it
and that has changed who I am forever more

My new identity lies within my tears
258 · Jun 2018
Little Child...
Tash Jun 2018
Little child why do you cry
Is it because you're in fear of what will become of you when you grow
Or because without experiencing you've entered into a world full of less hope and more misery
Or because you wonder whether this thing called life will have more ups than downs

Little child why shed a tear
Why make your own heart feel less so dear
Why think of all that while you haven't even opened your eyes and ears to see and hear all the blend and overjoyful stuff that life has to offer

Little babe of mine you have so much more ahead of you
I might not be with you on this journey called life for long
But with all that I've got and the time that's given now
I'll make sure to wipe every tear shed dear
And gear you up for the world to hear who you are and who you will become

Little child silence that cry and rather increase your confidence and pride in who you are
A little world changer seeking for what to do to influence this world and change it for the better if not but for one step at a time

Little child so small come on tiny one
You've got more than you know
220 · Apr 2018
Let's include we...
Tash Apr 2018
It's funny how most of my poems starts with I and not you or we

I've given it alot of thought that instead of writing about me and
placing I before we

I'll take all things surrounding me and make a rhyme or two about it

From the the neighbours walking on the street to the humming sounds of the birds in the morning
From the hustle and bustel sounds of the town's street to the tinder whispers of the blooming orchard tree

From now on I've decided to make me and I only applicable when there's we that I'm talking about because as the saying goes there's no me or I in a team...
218 · Dec 2018
Untitled
Tash Dec 2018
Life’s issues and life messes
all added up into greater masses.
Life’s issues and life’s craziness
Not one but a few can handle it’s pain.

Not taking into consideration the thought of its ideal
crumbling up the mind of its nearest victim.
Taking up the life of the one it attacks so mercilessly.
Consuming the very existence
of that one who was deemed for greatness.
And bring up tears and grieve
to the family so undeserving.

Life,
some say it’s a beautiful thing,
some say live and let live,
some say appreciate it
for we are unworthy of it
and some say just let it end.
But for me, life is a journey worth taking an enemy at times worth fighting with and for
and a blessing in disguise worth sharing about.

Life, a circle of stages occurring
please be at least considerate
to the one whose failing
in caring how to on go with you
and spare the lives of the worlds greatest that God has made to see change come through.
211 · Jan 2018
Untitled
Tash Jan 2018
My heart kept on beating at the thought of his name
I kept telling myself that it would be to my shame...

I wonder and gaze at the fact that everyone around me has their beloved ones
And that love, companionship, mutal care was within them...

I also want to experience such love
I tell myself
A love that I feel and will never let go
A love that grows stronger at the sight of my significant other's flaws
A love that opens my eyes wider than before
And a love that makes me the best me ever  

Yes I can find all that and more in the comfort of my Saviour
But I also want to have someone of my youth
Someone I can walk and talk to
Someone that has my best interest at heart
Someone that loves me like no other
197 · Jul 2018
Silence
Tash Jul 2018
She doesn't speak
All she does is keep it all inside
She's afraid of letting things go
Afraid of letting the unknown be known
Afraid of what will be said and done when the next hears of what she feels and thinks

She doesn't speak at all
And that has weakned her ability to share her thoughts and feels on how life has been through the ticking of time itself

She doesn't speak
For that's all she knows
In her silence she's caught up in her own dream world
Where she's safe and can never allow fear or danger to invade her space

She doesn't speak and she prefers that
She's happier that way
Or so I think but I'm not sure
Because she doesn't speak at all...
195 · Jan 2018
Stretch Marks
Tash Jan 2018
They say that I bear marks that makes me unattractive...
That I should get rid of it rather than embrace it...

They say that it makes me look like an alien out of this world and that society would rather condemn me than accept me because of the sight of this...

But no I stand against this
And I rather accept it as it shows forth who I am and who I am becoming as a woman in this era...

It moulds and shapes the beauty of my hardship...
Of the long internal and external sufferings my body went through
Due to mental and emotional suffering and pains...

Rather than having nothing to show forth my hardship...
It remains my true trophy of the many trails I went through.

Every stretch every pattern and every sequence tells a story...
A story of a young brave woman...
Who was once insure of the lines within which her beauty slept...
But now shows them off with no regret

My dear stretch marks she called them as society wanted to shame them by such a name...
But rather in that she has deemed them to be more than that...
Her tiger print
Her stretch marks...
147 · Jan 2018
Mirror Mirror
Tash Jan 2018
Looking at you at times has given me mixed emotions
Some days I love what I see
Some days I don't
Some days I smile and speak to my own as if another was starring right back at me

You know me, you've seen me clothed and all...
You've heard my voice time and again and still you remain a faithful friend that strengthens me through your silence...

Time and again you keep watch over me
In my deepest nightmares and in my sweetest dreams
Through my reflection I am able to see your sweet smile looking back at me and telling me that I'm worth more all because you're mine and mine for keeps

Dear mirror mirror your more than a reflection cover where one has to ask whose the fairest of them all and stuff
You're my friend, my advisor and so much more...
As I wipe the very dust that makes you glam in the morning light
I see that your deepest wish and desire is for my children to know who you are and for the rest to follow onwards

If you shatter and break into a million, it will be as if a part of me has lost a piece forever

Dear mirror mirror fine and swell thank you for the loving you give

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