I couldn't take it any longer
I just realised that
The pain and hurt
The catching of unneeded feelings
Feelings that I thought were left a mile ago when I repented to what I thought was true

I couldn't take it any longer
This for sure I knew
That even when I told myself through every breathe that it was over before it ever began
There was a part of me that still hoped for
still dreamt, still prayed and still wished
that it would all turn around for me, for good.

I tried pretending and instead fostered an unneeded hurt that grew instead of died.
And with that said I've come to the conclusion that I'm tired

And all I can do now is let go and not relive the hurt and pain that I softened to keep
what it was that I needed to stay...

Although it will hurt now this I know for sure
The best thing for everyone is to let go and let me be completely done...

You are the reason for my deeper happiness
I guess
Thank you for not loving me back and having your heart yearn rather for another

You are the reason for my inspiration and to tell you the truth I'm glad I met you

To have you view my life through my status is more than enough
Maybe one day we'll speak or maybe one day we won't.

For as long as you know that I knew you once and I'll know you forever as my contact is more than enough.

Yet again I'll sever this bittersweet moment that ironically makes me glee at how much I've gotten out from me being far from you than being nearer.

Thank you inspiration
It's because of you that I write...

I used to have alot of friends you see
Friends that promised to turn my endless dreams into realities
Friends that would inspire to respire nothing but pure joy and great laughter
That would creep secrets and wild fantasies out of me
Just to make sure that the world saw that which they saw in me.

But when I met the ultimate friend that never promised but made sure to never let go of me
That's when I saw that the friends that were there were not destined to be my friends indeed

They each stepped out and let me down when I was no longer who they thought I ought to be

They each left me cold and wet and not one came back to shelter me untill I was warm and dry
Oh no not one I might add

But this very friend that did instead of spoke that cared instead of promised even though He was empty and all sorts of broke
Showed me that friendship is more than the mere words you speak and the dreams that you share to turn into realities.

It's the bond between beings that requires actions that would speak louder than words and reassure you that this love between all of you is there to settle whether high or low.

Little child why do you cry
Is it because you're in fear of what will become of you when you grow
Or because without experiencing you've entered into a world full of less hope and more misery
Or because you wonder whether this thing called life will have more ups than downs

Little child why shed a tear
Why make your own heart feel less so dear
Why think of all that while you haven't even opened your eyes and ears to see and hear all the blend and overjoyful stuff that life has to offer

Little babe of mine you have so much more ahead of you
I might not be with you on this journey called life for long
But with all that I've got and the time that's given now
I'll make sure to wipe every tear shed dear
And gear you up for the world to hear who you are and who you will become

Little child silence that cry and rather increase your confidence and pride in who you are
A little world changer seeking for what to do to influence this world and change it for the better if not but for one step at a time

Little child so small come on tiny one
You've got more than you know

It's funny how most of my poems starts with I and not you or we

I've given it alot of thought that instead of writing about me and
placing I before we

I'll take all things surrounding me and make a rhyme or two about it

From the the neighbours walking on the street to the humming sounds of the birds in the morning
From the hustle and bustel sounds of the town's street to the tinder whispers of the blooming orchard tree

From now on I've decided to make me and I only applicable when there's we that I'm talking about because as the saying goes there's no me or I in a team...

I'm the girl with the glasses
who hides behind her books and would rather stick to one friend than a crew
I'm the girl that's social but not on social media
because she needs my space to be her space with the ones she actually faces
I'm the girl who would like and follow subscribe and share
but never tweet or snap or post
I'm that girl that invites people literally into her life and shares who she is with the ones she chooses
I'm not awkward nor strange
I'm me and that's what's unique and beautiful
I'm an ambivert...