Lexi - Hello Poetry

Lexi Nov 2017

A shamed of who i am.
A shamed of what i am doing.
And horrified of what i have become.
It started as a hunger for anything.
A wish for that depth within something.
But slowly that desire i had is fading.
And -
The true glimpse of what i have started surrounds me.
The grip of reality and emotions plays loud in my hollow mind
It's hands devouring themselves around my already weak neck
Strangling this life i chose to live.

I thought it would end happily.
What I thought was wrong.

#ashamed #strangle #wreak #horrified #grip

Lexi Nov 2017

Mumma

I'm sorry you had to spend time with me.
That you spent money on me
And effort with me.
I'm sorry I fight with you
And lose my temper at you.
I'm sorry I ruied our relationship
And all we had.
Because now I live without you.
I live without the support of your hand
That hand I never truly had

The things I would do to have just one more moment of your love.
For you to look at me once more.
Mumma I am sorry.
I don't know how to say it anymore.
I♡U

#ruined #ruin #never #without #relationship #sorry #effort #fight

Lexi Nov 2017

Word's From 'Mother'

If u have *** with him.
OR
Already are.
You'll ruin your relationship girl.
It won't last.
You'll have nothing to give him.
Nothing to offer down the track.
Your relationship will be cheap. Meaningless.
Give up girl.

He violated you.
Took something that wasn't his.
No mum
Mine was taken 11 years ago.
Age 7 by the man you loved.
No mum i gave it to him.
No mum i chose to give it to him.
My boyfriend.
The man i love.

Mother's word's to her daughter.

#meaningless #cheap #*** #ruin #relationship #mother #words

Lexi Nov 2017

Your lost.

You will never be good enough
Everything you do or try will never lead to anything
but failure and disappointment.
Go ahead give it your best shot
Then slowly watch
everything
fall apart crumbling from your hands
pouring out onto the ground.
Your heart aching.
With no cure.
With no love.

Your lost.

#never #falling #nolove #dissapointment #enough #nocure

Lexi Nov 2017

No love

No one can love you no more.
No one could ever love you.
Just end the pain your in.
You've already ruined everything.
Every relationship.
Your family doesn't even love you.
Your friends won't care.
You'll finally for-fill your destiny.
There's no repairing the damaged.
There is no savior to love you.
Nor to save you.
Say GOODBYE.

I can't seem to breath anymore.
I really have ****** things up and there is not way back, nor is there forward.
It's time to say GOODBYE.

#nolove #love #goodbye #pain

Lexi Nov 2017

Untitled

YOUR A **** UP

Disappointed.
Failure.
Hatred.
Unlovable.
Stupid.
Immature.
Disgraceful.
**** UP.

There isn't any way around it. You are such a **** UP.
You ruined everything. Nothing is savable.
Where did you go so wrong?
How did you get caught?
******* it you stupid girl. Wake Up.
YOUR NOTHING.

You ****** up, now you must pay the consequences.
Whatever they may be.

#****** #disappointed #failure #unlovable #stupid #disgraceful #immature #nothing

Lexi Nov 2017

Unloveable

It is like

God must hate me

And after all

I have done

There's no way He could not.

#god #hate #sin #unlovable #forgotten #captive #trapped