When there's no one here in the tryouts
Who will live through your first day's trial
Of confusion when your faint and crooked smile
Had to leave
When you're painted like a warrior
Though you know it's a raining war
When the first who spoke, but wasn't really sure
Was your heart
Your fear of the leading light
If they are with you and your heart won't fail
To see through a fearless eye
And know that danger finally goes away
Still you're trying
But there's no leaving now
And with your quiet **** devotion
To be lost like your child again
Claim forever is a close and honest friend
To your ways
Will there be time to harvest rivers
That for so long refused to grow
All the little things you need to build a home
For your love
Your fear of the leading light
If they are with you and your heart won't fail
To see through a fearless eye
And know that danger finally goes away
Still, you're trying
But there's no leaving now

If I could act on my revenge now, would I?
Some ****, some steal, some break your heart
And you thought I would let it go
Let you off
Broken hearts, break bones, and break up fast
And I don't wanna let go
So in my grave, I'll rot
I've dug two graves for us, my dear
Can't pretend I was perfect when you in fear
Oh man, what a world of things I hear
If I could act on my revenge now, would I?
Some ****, some steal, some break your heart
And you thought that I would let go
Let you off
Broken hearts, break bones, and break up fast
And I don't wanna let go
So in my grave, I'll rot

I can see everything
Believe me, it's all I'll bring
But love is still trust
As light shines through dust

Everything must belong somewhere
A train off in the distance, bicycle chained to the stairs
Everything it must belong somewhere
I know that now, that’s why I’m staying here

You say I'm missing
Yes, you are right
I'm missing from the
corner of my heart
as a soulless being
shallow
from the deep cut
within.
Into this dark lost world
wandering here and there
in search of
a puzzling piece
which
got lost long back
and other pieces unmet
destined to never ever meet!

But

I seek that piece
in the very first ray of the Sun
I meet in the empty roads
as dark as my soul
I speak every day
with every falling drop of rainfall
until the Thunderbird mocks at me
to find I have nothing of that
piece*

but still I seek...

leaving
into the woods
kind of
soul searching
expedition

suddenly
mind speaks up -
Are you sure you will
find your soul over me?

Our office building
Is in the maintenance procedure
Lot of cracks and paints are out
So those are being fixed

How?

Cracks are made
to be more cracked
To fill up the whole
crack from beneath.

A thought sparked -
our hearts too, cracks
or breaks sometimes.
Let’s break it more
to heal it from beneath
and to be whole
filling up with love.

– 17th May, 2017

I used to wait
longing for someone
to love me all over again!
Longing is hurtful
if no one ever
shows up at all!

But....

Now I wait for myself
to wrap up my each day's task
and be me, just me
whom I would caress
with some love
and finding my love
in everything I do,
I write, read & paint each day
& that's where I feel
This is what I was meant to be!