You said you hope you don't smell weird, your hands were covered in copper you were in the art room working with metals I said it was okay actually i said "i don't care" and i kissed you anyways. as lame as it sounds i kissed you outside the art room in a school where everyone hears everything and everyone's eyes are wide open i kissed you anyways. you smelled like fancy men's bath soap the good kind.
I feel as If I’m eternally melting everything around me that I touch melts too.. I lay down in bed and cover myself in sheets I melt into my mattress and sink further. everything around me, everything I touch Is fouled.
My tears pour from my burning eyes everywhere I look I see lava everywhere I glance, they vanish: The people I love The people I live for.
the tears dance and roll down my red cheeks the land on my skin and melt into it even my tears melt away as well as every strength left inside me It melts away . even you melt away too.
Eternally melting for I can’t do anything to stop it
hi it’s been a while since I’ve written anything- I forgot how good of a way of venting it was
i don't know, i don't know, i don't know what to do. I feel like im going to ***** every last thing inside of me out onto the floor and it'll turn to acid and eat me up from the outside with it. I feel like im going to ***** up my heart and that'll be the end of me! Or i feel as if ill throw up my heart and it'll keep pumping blood out and it'll pour out onto the floor and i'll never get to die. Ill just sit there and suffer as i cough up blood.
i feel like screaming so loud that my neighbors may believe im being slaughtered by my abusive father, but somehow i don't even have the energy to sit up- how would i find the energy to shout?
I feel like taking the sharpest blade in the house so i can use all of my remaining strength to dip the tip into the skin underneath my throat, and to rip it across the fair surface.
i feel like screaming to the world that im sorry for everything and that im just so sorry. Everyone tells me that i apologize way too often but it's the only thing i can ever think to say. I'm a broken record and i keep skipping and jumping all over the place and the only thing that anyone is able to get out of me is the word "sorry" and it's frustrating. Its frustrating for me and everyone else.
sorry,, i typed this up in the middle of class and it makes absolutely no sense and its just a bunch of mashed up thoughts scattered around