why did you came when all you wanted was to leave ,
I know I wasn't perfect,
I know I wasn't normal.

I loved you,
I gave you my heart ,
All you did was leave me alone in this materialistic world .

I changed ,
I cared ,
All I wanted was to see that free smile of yours that i was unable to copy

Dear MOM,
I'm one hell of a lucky guy to have someone like you. You are absolutely amazing in every aspect of your life.
You always gave me some extra pocket money and I still can't figure out - how you could figure out my needs even before asking.
Quite some superpowers you have.
I saw some pictures yesterday of you holding me as a baby and believe me I felt so safe with you,
I felt I'm been watched over all the time and nothing wrong can happen to me.
Thank you for everything.
From a really lucky son

I see parents connected so close to their child,
I see it as how beautiful is that,
To have someone like that,
A bond that's so scared and cherished.

Yesterday I saw a 5 year old child playing with his father and I can't tell you how mesmerized I was - it seems so magical.

I wonder what would I feel if that be me,
Things would have been different for sure,
It's all about what I'm missing out in life

My heart goes out to many
My heart goes out to few
To friends who have my back
To the one I saved for you

Many think we have one heart
But I find that to be untrue
For I love the ones around me
As much as I love you

Some think I over exaggerate
When I yell out "I love you"
To a stranger, an acquaintance I just met
But they deserve love, too

So understand this heart of mine
In the many pieces you see
Is not broken, no,
But used, to share with many

The many are the ones I just met
The few are the ones I hold dear
If the many give it back to me
Then I give more to the few

I am strong,
Strong enough to take the beatings of the world,
To be burnt to death.

But you know where I'm not,
To see you get hurt,
Not even a scratch.

Stay behind me,
Let me get hurt for you,
That's how much I care for you

Through this weighted and wanted life we live
Handshakes, hugs, and smiles we give
Patience and temperament tried
Will broken and tears cried
There's a lot more to life than just surviving

Life's greatest pleasures
Lie within the smile of a child
Or the whispers of the wind
The only mysteries worth solving
Are those that lay within

Have you ever watched the sun chase the moon?
Did you know it was just another love story?
Our unique perspectives are what make us
And it's okay for us all to be different

This is something that makes it so special
When we cross paths with those who we can relate
A kindred soul
Someone cut from the same mold

Keep your happiness simple
And you will see
Not only will you survive
You will thrive
And be free

When I had my death
I kept my life on bedside table
and it continued to appear in front of my barren eyes
Chapters of sorrows and regrets
came over
and over
verses of sadness and remorse's
fell again and again
ahead of my dark image!


Night, outside was dark
thick, foggy, cold
inside, the life was
getting cold
freeze and thin

I tried to ran away,
to escape myself
from this pain, from this agony of coldness
by throwing a blanket on
my dying body
but
death approached me
with fast steps and caught me

I saw its face, full of disgust,
and dark with blood on its flesh
all over!


I shouted and shouted
I screamed and screamed
but no sound came
No hands came, no wonder happen
And I quietly
let the death embraced me
in that very night!!

-2009-

as a generic medicine
exposed in a drugstore
no one knows your name
they take you
because you have a low cost