Thomas Esparza: Favorites

Oct 2015 Thomas Esparza

Lost

They make you feel like you fit in
but you don't, you never have, and most likely
you never will.
So don't even bother with trying,
most likely they'll laugh at you behind your back
and tell you how stupid and ugly you are with pointed glares.
They'll snicker at you while saying you look amazing today,
but you know they're lying.
*You just know they are.

Oct 2015 Thomas Esparza

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Oct 2015 Thomas Esparza

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I wish you could've been there, sitting next to me.
Under the moonlight, sipping on some coffee.
Simply enjoying the bands play after a long day
with the lights twinkling above outside of the hipster
coffee house that I love.
Because it's these little moments that make me feel alive and I want to experience them with you by my side.
Yes, I'm talking to you.
I wish you could have been there too.

I often experience moments like these in which I wish my best friend was there to appreciate them with me.

#moon #coffee #music #night #moment #share #concert #lights

Oct 2015 Thomas Esparza

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Oct 2015 Thomas Esparza

Ryder Rose

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As I drive through our hometown
The one I've avoided for years
I try to block out the memories
But my face is already full of tears

In the middle of the park
Basketball you would play
I watched you for hours
Day after day

Just there on the corner
You kissed my face
I take in a deep breath
Remembering your taste

In the fields of daisies
We both lied
In each others arms
Until next time

But there wasn't a next time
Forever ended so soon
For me it's not over
I'm still singing our tune

#love #heartbreak #poetry #sad #depression #life #pain #thoughts #you #heartbroken

Oct 2015 Thomas Esparza

Fantasy

Oct 2015 Thomas Esparza

BellaK

Fantasy

In my head
I see us
Walking down the beach
Holding hands
Kicking water and
Chasing the waves.

In my mind
I see us
Lying on the meadows
Looking at the stars
Laughing and
Whispering love words to each other

In my dream
I see you
Standing in a black suit
Smiling
Waiting for me
As I'm walking down the isle
In white dress
With flower crown on my head.

But in reality
All I can see is
I'm lying on my very own bed
Alone
Fantasizing all the things
That will never ever happen to me, or
To us

#love #dream #fantasy

Oct 2015 Thomas Esparza

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Oct 2015 Thomas Esparza

peacepeddler

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I think love is when someone's presence becomes your addiction, when you find you can no longer go on without them
And it isn't for anything they can do for you
You just wake up one day and wonder how you got to this state where their absence is your pain
And you hate every second without them
Because that person, that beautiful, broken life has become everything to you

Oct 2015 Thomas Esparza

destruction•

Oct 2015 Thomas Esparza

cf

destruction•

relapse can taste so sweet
sometimes I wonder if cutting has the same effects as *******
heroine
****
we are all after happiness and freedom
we all crave what each action gives off
maybe it's the high
maybe it's the release
the rush
the fullness
because while everything else failed
it was still there waiting for you
with open arms
maybe that's why
we all love
what destroys us

Oct 2015 Thomas Esparza

It's a Shame

Oct 2015 Thomas Esparza

Jellyfish

It's a Shame

I guess it's too complicated for us to stay friends
after everything that's happened
I'm sorry that I can't take it back
you were my bestest friend and
now we don't even say hello or
associate with eachother in the
slightest amount of words or chatter.
and it's a shame because to you; *I mattered.

#sad #alone #hello #friend #goodbye #shame #over #annoyance

Oct 2015 Thomas Esparza

Its not your fault

Oct 2015 Thomas Esparza

Sumina Thapaliya

Its not your fault

You cant save my life
I am drawn
drawn in my own pain

You cant make me happy
I am covered
Covered with my own grief

You cant read me
I am written in the paper
damped by my own tears

#pain #tears #grief