anxiety build up

emotional release

how did you hide this?

now you're there and i'm here

thanks

Tears, anger, resent.

What you felt after I left.

Onto the next stage.

You were once around.

thought we were sound.

A flash of light.

Sudden plight.

You use,

abuse,

confuse,

I lose.

Emotional fall back,

your safety net.

Not anymore.

I have never tasted

the fruits of my work.

The apple of our eyes.

Just one, sweet bite.

One bite, to last a lifetime.

Is all I need.

I was sat in a hunk of metal.

Soaring through the sky with unfathomable speed.

Over countries and cross continents.

I was sat in a hunk of metal,

thinking of you and what you were doing at that exact moment.

Wallowing in my sadness, wishing to feel your embrace.

muse.

ever escaping.

back of the mind.

itching.

begging.

**** the muse.

**** it and all it stands for.

little dark girl with
kind eyes
when it comes time to
use the knife
I won't flinch and
i won't blame
you,
as I drive along the shore alone
as the palms wave,
the ugly heavy palms,
as the living does not arrive
as the dead do not leave,
i won't blame you,
instead
i will remember the kisses
our lips raw with love
and how you gave me
everything you had
and how I
offered you what was left of
me,
and I will remember your small room
the feel of you
the light in the window
your records
your books
our morning coffee
our noons our nights
our bodies spilled together
sleeping
the tiny flowing currents
immediate and forever
your leg my leg
your arm my arm
your smile and the warmth
of you
who made me laugh
again.
little dark girl with kind eyes
you have no
knife. the knife is
mine and i won't use it
yet.