How can they  pretend like nothing happened...
Like they never said they regret giving birth to me
Like it never happened
But im crying every night
Till I can't breath
Cursing my existence
Blaming myself for everything
How do I tell them
Their words are killing me every second
How do I tell me
I force a stupid smile ever time I'm abt to cry
How do I tell them
They destroyed me in every possible way

But never noticed me crying
Never noticed my hands trembling
Never noticed me getting distant from them
Never noticed i tried to **** myself
Never noticed I had no friends
Never noticed the things I like
Never noticed I needed their love
Never noticed my unsteady breathes
Never noticed my voice trembling
Never noticed my tear stained eyes
Never noticed my body flinch at shouts
Never noticed my efforts to love them
And they say they care....

I have always love
the flame that you make—
a warmth that hums against my skin,

soft as whispered smoke,
kind enough
to forget it could burn.

The same kind you wield
around so desperately
toward those frozen far too long to thaw.

They were already
too deep in cold to ever feel
the love you were told

was not enough—by the people
who wore the skin of
the new generations of love.

I wanted to touch you,
but I cannot let you light so long.
not before—you turn into ashes.  

I wanted to light my own bones
and radiate the same kindness
you burn so bright

and glow the same
pinkish red of love
too tender for everyone else but you.

I’ve always been unwanted..
Unseen
Always in the background watch the scene
It was supposed to be about me yet I was not seen
The look of unwanted isn’t something i haven’t seen
The words that were spoken to left me unwanted and unseen
I left so quickly so I wouldn’t be down
But I stayed close so others around me wouldn’t frown
The day was for me yet I put my needs aside as they went unseen
I stayed for you and I went for you
For you and for you because you are seen
I put my heart aside so your heart could be full
I watched from a distance still unseen
My emotions were all over the place
I was crashing
Everyone seen it but only one acted
Only one was by my side and helped me calm
I came back inside and tried to stay calm
Yet you didn’t see
Because I was unwanted and unseen
That’s always been my life
The girl in background
She didn’t have any lines
The days that were supposed to be about her they were turned into something that made her unseen and unwanted
Her anger was not of born
It grew with every ignore
Her heart burns with rage and her jaw hurts from grace
She plays her emotions as overreacting
Only so the ones close wouldn’t react
She still wants to be seen and wanted
But after tonight she knows she’s unseen and unwanted

I walk through the halls
like a forgotten ghost
everyone looks through me
like they can't see me
but to be honest
it's better if they don't see me
because when they do
the things they say
oh, the things they say
hurt like a knife to the chest
the pounding of my heart
spills the blood of anger
and seeping sadness
and splatters on the walls

He never left a single note.
Just rings on wood, the scent of smoke.
A door unlocked a room left bare.
A ghost still sunken in the chair.

The bottle stood, its duty done.
A quiet war that no one won.
No cries for help, no last refrain.
Just heavy air and dried-up pain.

The world still turned the clocks still kept,
No one knew how hard he wept.
And when they asked they swore he laughed
Yet all he left was hollowed glass.

Speak, though the world may not yet hear,
Your voice a melody, unique, clear.
In the symphony of life, each note dear,
The universe listens, always near.