It’s amazing the way that we bleed
The way the skin parts and the blood starts to bead
It’s a rush you feel through the skin
Like a tingling sensation without and within
Or a touch of rapture inside
Like the soul is escaping through a crimson tide
Believe it or not, it’s freeing
Until the moment you just stop bleeding...

In my dreams it all feels real
You hug me and it seems so clear
Then I wake and you’re not with me
Through the tears, I can barely see

But I’ve come to terms with this reality
No matter if I want you badly
I’m content with only getting you while I sleep
I look forward each day to my nights of counting sheep

Our fake bliss begets pain in my heart
And with the opening of eyelids our moments depart
I wonder if we’ll ever be together
But in my dreams, we will be forever

They expect me to smile..
Like its okay...
They expect me to laugh...like its funny..

They pretend to love...
While i know am hated...

Am progressing....
Receiving lord's blessing...

This is the truth...
You better do your confessions...

Unhappy...i said
Am in pain...
thats sad...😔
No one cares about me...
In reality....
I fade....no one notice me.....💔
Maybe am not attractive...
They say looks don't matter...

I don't matter...
To them...🌹
My light place turn dark...
I feel lonely...
And unhappy....
If i had a wish....
I will make it to death...
So i can be free...
In my prison...
I call myself...

I heard of freedom..
But i don't know any...😔

I heard of anxiety and depression...
I have those
are many...🌹

Its okay hate me...
I struggle loving myself..
I too...😔
Unhappy am...
Your eye sees it too.

-kay⚰️⚱️

His life was full of nonsense
His life was a jigsaw puzzle
His life was stone cold
His life was not looking both ways before crossing the street
His life was a masterpiece waiting to be finished
His life was a sad song
His life was the worst memory
His life was full of chaos
His life was surviving
His life was a thought in the back of your head
His life was a tragedy
Alive

Light and Free
Far off the ground
Can’t touch the stars
Can’t reach the moon
I reach out for you
Something to hold me close
As soon as I touch you
You’re gone

every now & then
my mind is sprinkled with powder dust
i can barely make out...tell apart
reality from
fantasy
it all seems too much
thinking hurts
feelings misguided
goals unreached
during this period of time
i slip through the cracks of roads
- i twist and turn with every move -
that lead ordinary people to success