My mind wanders,
Still, he is in it.
My heart race faster,
His name is shouted
Beat by beat

And just like any other nights
I am missing him, still.
When morning comes,
He is the kind of hope
I wanna steal.

He once kissed me on my forehead,
A kiss that I know won't last.
He once held my waist when he tightly hugged me,
The best feeling yet he loosened me so fast.

Unmutual feelings filled the empty room,
He was staring right into my brown eyes.
T'was a birth of chance yet also a doom,
My heart is in agony and it cries.

I should have never hope for more,
But it was everything I asked before.
Yet, I hold on and I am sorry if I did,
Even though I know it was the kind of love
That the moon will never forbid.

I thought you were the one
that i would spend my whole life with
I thought you'll give
the same amount of love i did.

I am more that willing
to give you my everything,
but you chose to ignore me
when you're all i see.

I even felt the need to move on
from something that doesn't even turned on,
i thought i won't ever move forward
because you've been pulling me backwards.

But despite of all the tears,
thank you  for letting me pass through my fears.

Thank you for not choosing me,
when i only have my eyes on you.
For all the mixed signals you gave me,
making me think that you'll love me too.

Thank you for making me realize that you not choosing me,
is the start of me choosing myself.
Thank you because i am finally free,
from someone who won't even look at me.

I am now finally happy,
i found someone who wont  doubt on choosing me.

Thank you also, for realizing,
that i will always be your 'The one that got away'.

You smelled like bourbon today.
I still long for the old musky scent,
Your neck used to reek of each day.

Your skin felt oddly smooth today.
Gone was the funny stubble,
That pricked my tired face each day.

Your eyes glows a subtle shade of emerald today.
How I miss the hazel pair,
You used to look me at each day.

With you grabbing my wrist
and I, spilling my wine.

With you kissing my cheek
and I, letting out a little sigh.

In those moments I realize
He’s not you, but you are mine.