Why do I love you
Why do I care
You’ve destroyed me completely
Yet you call and I’m there.

You could rip out my heart
And hand it to me on a silver platter
And I would still love you

I dance around a fire, burning too hot.
Fire I foolishly threw gasoline on.
If I take a wrong step,
misplace my footing,
I’ll surely be burned.

The warmth, a stark contrast to the cold night,
But the heat has become sweltering.
My hair has began to singe,
my feet have blistered.

Every crackle threatens an explosion,
At any moment it’ll combust,
but still I continue to dance.

he brings the storms
his heart is a battlefield of highs and lows
bipolar skies
filled with clouds that shift from sunshine to tempest

and i, i am his mirror
an echo of his broken soul
a child of that storm
torn between the calm and the chaos

we are bound by our blood
by the same fire that roars in our veins
but we are split by the chasm of his silence
his departure is a bridge
burnt by the flames of his own war

in my darkest times, i see him
in my reflection, and in my shadow
and it leaves me wondering
am i chasing the ghost of a man who never learned to stay?

our connection is a wound, scarred deep
where love and pain intertwine
where his legacy is my inheritance
an heirloom of torture
a story that will never come to fruition
and a relationship torn to pieces

not only are you my favorite love,
you are also my only love;
let me explain:

the only love that I want to participate in,
the only love that I want to share,
the only love that I can see and feel
and the only love I feel no absence in when you're not there

you're the only love who has taught me how...
your love thought me how to be,
who to be,
how to love others back,
how to feel confident,
and how to stay in the present.

your love is my beating heart
and I don't want it any other way,
my only love

i'm so lost
first you love me
then treat me like trash
acting like i'm not there
...acting like you don't care

i don't understand what ive done to you
to make you hate me the way you do
is it really hate?
or only a facade?

i don't know how to feel
cause i don't know what's real
do you truly love me?
or am i only a means to an end?