Life is no place for fools like me
Because there are no other fools like me
Cloudy nights wearing purple and grey cumulous
Softly comforting in their silent beauty
Puffy explosions of midnight joy
Quiet ponds reflecting the quiet night
There is safety in the solitude
Wonder in the shifting clouds
I choose this over the hustling daytime
I love this over the breakneck bar scene
Dimly lit lamplights breaking through the dark sky
Giving me just enough glow to read by
And when the evening gives up its sounds
The singing crickets and other chirping things
It’s like a beautiful painting, breathtaking
I choose this over the mangled masses
The mauling throng of throbbing crowds
Rushing and rushing pushing and shoving
Just to get to the next spot
A competition for the best jobs
Keep what you can and leave me the night
I am not a competitor in your gladiatorial bouts
Leave me the silence and I will take it as a gift
Leave me the night and see how my spirit is uplifted

the moon
is so enchanting,
but if i
follow the light
through the darkness,
i might get lost
before the dawn.

I'm franticly searching for a bit of oxygen, I'm suffocating
these dreams are drowning me,
no surprise, I fall asleep at night stalking along the shoreline
I wake up, surrounded by salt water.
your words sent me asphyxiating
choking on what to say next.
this constant wave of emotions is no longer worth
a relationship that there is no hope in catching.

I sat in the club,
enjoying a menthol drag
I looked at the stage
I heard the band play
And boy was I glad
And there she was, the singer
a young, trophy with an hourglass figure
she stepped to the mic
And started her song
she had the crowd hypnotized
And kept the show up all night long

I eyed the singer,
silky legs slipping out of the dress
I finished off my menthol
And soon she was by me
teasing her ample *******
she sang with a sultry voice
her delivery was immaculate
If it had really been my choice
I definitely would've gone after it

She grabbed my necktie
And threw it back into my face
she walked away swaying her hips
as she commanded the attention in the place
I walked back to the bar
as she completed her song
I tipped the barkeep heavy
after that show I had to tip
with her charisma that'd be wrong

As the club closed down for the evening
And we walked out into the night
I looked behind and I saw the singer,
with her eyes shining oh so bright.
I complimented her on the show
she said thank you with a smile
I took out another menthol and she said
"Stay with me awhile"

To Be Continued...

my head hurts I should probably go to sleep but I can't stop thinking about you

2am
I'm addicted to heartache
The kind that rips you apart inside
Leaves you shaking
Tears streaming down your face

3am
The moon bright in your eyes
Sparkling behind the moisture
Sobs wrack my body
The stars seem to be falling from the sky
This feeling is what I know best

4am
All is quiet
The night doesn't make a sound
Theres nothing left to come out
Tears have dried
And my mind is numb
I feel nothing
Hollow and empty
This feeling is all too hauntingly familiar

5am
The morning approaches
And I am still awake
Staring at the wall
Nothing left

6am
Time to get up
Plaster a smile on my face
Smear concealer under my eyes
And pretend like those dark circles aren't there

9am
Everyone is oblivious
But I know
That tonight
I'm going to go through it all again

Because the view in the dark is full of noise that never ends, that distracts me from all my untied odds and ends. And the view at the top is so full of peace. Too quiet. And the thoughts from the dark fight to break free.
And in the dark it's blinding.  I imagine one day I'll grow to be deaf, from the silent screams I hear endlessly. Maybe in some way the darkness will save me. I know it's irrational but really, jumping right into the water is the quickest way to forget that it's freezing.