Maybe,
If I spent less time looking ahead instead of down,
I'd trip less over my own feet.

When I look back,
I always have answers,
When I look at you,
I don't.

But I don't want you behind me.

resonance...
i feel it in my bones
do you feel it in your soul?
i’m detoxing from a nightmare that happened in a moment that no longer exists
when i experience bliss i make sure to loosen fists
the other part of me that i held dear for so long is fading along with the rest of our song
i’ll be gone before dawn
i’ve transitioned into the queen and you’re still playing as a pawn
i only let certain dates resonate
and i’ll reciprocate the conversation
i’ll look you in the eyes and smile and tell you everything that comes to mind
happiness refined
i can always tell when they’re falling in love cause they don’t ever want leave
i like to make you laugh
as we seep into the cracks
reality becomes something i’ve never seen before
i’ve become an anchor to silver linings
and i live life making sure you can’t find me
i’m trying to contain the love that wants to overflow in the spots i seal so tightly
cause i promise that with just one kiss
i can’t make you forget me

I know there was no we before
But now I think that we can be more
More than just together
I think "merge as one forever"
      -Is the phrase I'm looking for-
Loving you was a chance I took
Breaking you was a choice I made
Accepting you was challenge I had.
Loving me was your choice
Staying was your choice
Leaving was an option
     - why didn't you ?-
Through it all I grew from imperfection to imperfection
From me to me
From loving you to Being In Love with you.
From talking to doing.

I ... we take the next step from here...

my car broke down
and it made me think of how everything breaks and loses its place
only to be replaced
maybe that’s why it bothered me so much
i took it as a life lesson
but it still didn’t lessen the load
stress on my mind
anxiety for breakfast
i know it gets better from here
i always tell myself that anyway
all the old things fade not meant for you
and better things come along
those who come along make you anew too
i got a broke down car and i live pretty far
but my friends still love me
i’m trying my best to see the rest of the big picture
my car was smoking coming down the causeway
so i lit a blunt and smoked too
and told myself “this is it” everything is becoming anew

Just a fling,
just a thing,
what shall I bring?

2 servings of joy,
a pinch of serenity,
and a bell just to ring

:)

I can feel the winds of change
brushing against my skin.
It's so close to here and now.
We cling to time because
we know if we let it loose,
it may never come back.
We're always running from it,
change, even if it could be good.
The tide always rolls in,
the sun always rises,
as change is inevitable.

Do not go out softly
but like a free verse
rain into the Pacific

splattered then spent.
Odious vessel,
dry and salted.

Come watch comets
graze mountains,
with their audacity.

And eclipses! Behind
blue lights and fluorescent skies --
foibles of exigency.

Form was not made
for free spirits
to crash into. Watermarks

dance lively now, like petals
that once spiralled
outside our window.

I used to like swimming in the warm seas on a cold day
I never wanted to share my ice cream with you,but anyway
You told me something I almost forgot
And now we're up here, and became little dots

You're moving upper and upper
And I'm moving downer and downer
But if I life seems happier and friendlier
Why waste your time, put on a smile?
Why think twice, put on a smile?

Your world from afar seems bright and happy
And my world up close is far from yours
But if you come closer and see the undergrowth
You'll notice the difference between us

And you're feeling bluer and bluer
But life is painted with rainbow colours
And you keep frowning and crying and shouting
Why deny your face, just put on a smile?
Why live in a hapless place, put on a smile?

And when everybody leaves on planes
Seasons pass and trees will change
And when they leave you alone
I hope you don't feel like you're alone
This world has people on it
Why be lonely, scaredly, frightening and somehow describing
Your way back home, to a stranger you go
And they don't respond anymore
But if you put on a smile, even for a while
Your sad and blue and greyish day
Will turn up for the better and you'll be okay

So if we both go up and down and cry all around
If we somehow laugh at the silliest things, playing childish games
If we learnt to love our reflection in the mirror
Why would you live her and not, put on a smile?
Put on a smile before it gets too late, when your body doesn't move again,
And you're feeling kinda sorry then...

Put on a smile, don't ask why
Put on a smile, don't try to close your eyes
Open then wide, show your brightness
Your happiness ends when you feel worthless
So chin up, chest high
Open your eyes, and PUT ON A SMILE...