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Mom
I crave the affection of a mother that no longer exists, the mom that gave me baths, the mom that tickled my feet and cracked my toes, the mom that sang itsy bitsy spider to make me laugh, the mom who held my hand to cross the road, the mom whose arms felt like home. But you're not her anymore. You're the mom who protected an abuser, the mom who threw away her family for gambling, the mom that told me I should've killed myself, the mom I spent years trying to connect with, the mom who never opened her arms and heart to let me in, the mom that never showed love but showed hatred. I miss you, but the you I miss isn't here anymore. She died a long time ago.
Monika 5d
Isn’t it wild, how the universe misaligns?
Creating distance through time by drawing lines.
You were here before my first breath began,
I’ll spend my years chasing where you stand.

Oh, if I could rewrite the stars’ decree,
I’d cast myself into your century.
A sister, a confidant, your equal in time—
Not just your child, but a partner in rhyme.

We’d share the rhythm of life’s steady tune,
Matching footsteps beneath the same moon.
Not mother and daughter with years to compare,
But living as equals, the same life to share.

But this isn’t our story; this isn’t our fate—
Time separated us, made me too late.
You live in a past I can only trace,
Through your wisdom and the lines on your face.

I'll learn about you by trying to guess,
Closer in age, maybe then you’d confess,
That you’d borrowed my strength more times than I knew—
And in return, I’d say I learned how to be strong from you.

You age like fine wine, your spirit refined,
Each year adds layers, a shine so divine.
But my heart aches with a bittersweet pain,
Knowing we’ll never age the same.

For every year that makes you glow brighter,
The space between us becomes a bit wider.
And though time keeps pulling us apart,
You’ll always remain timeless in my heart.
sena Jul 21
she plants wounds where comfort should grow
then calls it motherhood
while watching me slowly erode
havent wrote in a while i miss it
Hailey Jul 20
Dear mom,
I’m a mother myself now.
A mother to a little boy and girl,
and both of them are just like me,
and everyday they remind me
that I was never the problem.
As your daughter I forgive you, but
as a parent I will never understand.

-I am breaking the cycle
ASLRC Jul 11
You told everyone you were a care bear
But you don’t know how to handle my heart

You don’t know what it means to care
Because otherwise my heart wouldn’t be ripped apart

You told everyone you would fight for me
and would go through fire like a bold beast

You only fight for money and power, can’t you see?
You toss me around like prey, celebrate it like a feast

oh you, you beautiful bear, you stuffed with jealousy bear
you use your claws on me, you show me you are the silverback

And you hurt me so deeply, I don’t think that is care
which is odd, because bears don’t like leaders of a pack

I tried to stuff myself back together with needles and thread
but my eyes are leaking and my mouth stays taped

you want me to sit still and look like every other zombie-head
Mary wrote a book about me, in which I was monster-shaped

I wish you held me, consoled me, supported me and not like a ripped bear
because that is what it actually means to care
Skyla GM Jun 30
"Oooo" my mother exclaims
stretching her body over the drivers wheel to peer down the steep *****
That touches the highway edge

The ground lifts and ducks
like the incline of
a dragon's long tail

As if a creature the size of two cities
had found itself a resting place here- falling asleep civilizations ago
and as it slept, the grasses
crept their way over its scales

Small pulses of purple and white flowers scatter themselves among
the tall arching stems
of wheat and grass as we drive further. These are the culprits who draw my mother's turned gaze.

My eyes, however, sweep once more
from tail to peak of the sleeping
dragon mountain view
and I allow myself to imagine
the low hanging clouds are the result of
steam filled exhales.
A mother's love is a different type of love.
A love that you will want to keep forever.
The woman that made me strong, courageous, ambitious and fearless.

A woman who showed me that even though in a world full of man you can and will stand out.
A woman who showed me that no matter how hard life got, you will need to put your feet down, head up, and walk out stronger than you were before.

Even though we're as different as water and oil mixed together, it's somehow perfect just like blooming flowers on the first day of spring.

No one will ever match her type of love that she has given me.

Even though one day she will rest.
I want to make sure that the time that we have left will be the best.
For my mom who I love dearly
Nobody Jun 20
i can tell you want me to be a different person
******* say it
say it one more ******* time

you wish i was a different person?
so do i.
you hate me?
so do i.

i'm so ******* tired of being the problem child.

i don't want to be this way
stop ******* acting like it's my fault
i can feel our relationship getting worse.
Pri Jun 15
You don’t know how much your words and actions broke me,
how they cut deeper than any scar could.

You never cared how I bled inside, only how it fit your story.
After every fight, you act like it never happened,
like to you didn’t rip me apart, like I’m not shaken from your storm.

But I am.
I am broken.

I hate you.
not the childish way, but the way carved from survival, from needing to protect a fragile heart you never learned to hold gently.

When you truly show me love, I don’t know what to do. It feels awkward, strange, like a trap, because your love always came with a cost.
I watch others, friends with mothers who smile without storms, who hug without fear, who speak without swords. and my heart aches, tightens with jealousy.

Why can’t I have that?
It’s not fair.

Every conversation with you
is like walking on glass. one wrong step and everything shatters.
I shrink,
scared of the woman who should have been my safe place.
The scars you left inside me are not healing
And I don’t think they ever will.
firefly Jun 10
Stop telling me I’m not alone
Just because so many others feel alone
Meanwhile, none of you make me feel seen
And it’s my fault because I just cling
Onto a shred of affection or attention
And connections are sabotaged
By my own self,
By being my own self
People have tried to love me
And now they stay away
Because I can’t behave
I can’t get better in the name of a relationship
I can’t change myself at my core for you
And the you is interchangeable
I break and fix with patchwork
All to replace the one person who I loved first
Mother dearest you’ve left this wound
This shipwreck, and its sunken below
The sharks and fish swim in and out
And no one will ever know
That I was once afloat
I ask someone remembers me
How I was then,
But I cannot even do that myself
Because there was never a before you
And there’s been no after you
It’s perpetual, I still scream out your name
At night when I feel your presence wane
You’re a floor below
But no matter if we’ve leveled
I’ll never reach you
I want this version of you I created
That repaired the you that sullied me
To be so real, I won’t question it
And it never is
You might as well have died
Before I even got to know you
Because I’ve never had a mother
Just a woman who yelled then smothered
A woman who threatened then pampered
Inflated then deflated my worth
And it’ll never leave me
Your impact teases me
Even still, I miss you so
I miss the mom I made out of snow
I’m a creator
I make things my reality
Live it as if everyone is
Until I no longer can
I remember snowfall
In a desert like land
It’s easier to make you out of snow than sand
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