I make decisions
That I regret sometimes
But I own them
As a part of me
And take them
As learning experiences
Sometimes correct them
I'm human
Bound to make mistakes
Not a robot
Not an angel
Not a god
Not perfect
like everybody else

You’ve gone so far and yet you think
That everything is far behind you.
The things you’re missing when you blink
Do not define you.

no one's past should
define who they are today,

unless their present
is merely an extension
of the supposedly
dead and buried.

It's a mistake to love someone
Unless you like despair
Far wiser would you be to just
Pretend that you don't care

It's a mistake to need someone
With all your soul but then
It's a mistake I make I fear
Again and again and again

Monitor the way you speak to yourself,
Catch yourself
In the midst of your own delusions.
You have mirrors
And a light in the middle
And you bounce off surfaces,
Weaknesses and solutions.
Confined in a body in a body
Revelling in a cognitive dissonance,
As you recognise within you
A drop from the divine,
You cannot ignore the infinite distance.

I stumbled upon your linkedin yesterday,
and saw you frozen in time.
Read through an articulate and proud bio, and wished that that was still you embodied.  
Before all the pieces crumbled apart.
I didn't realize that it would haunt me.
What a feeling it is, to know you're alive, while mourning as if you're gone.
I would give you all my hope if it had a chance of saving you.

Have you ever looked back through your memories
And think something different
depending on what you see?
If you look back on yourself, you think,
This isn't right
But if you look back on the memory, you think,
That isn't me.

Have you ever felt like your life is a flowing tide
You have to wade against it to get anything done
But you end up getting swept aside?
And so you're trapped, beneath the waves
You feel as though you're on top,
as you drown helplessly below.

Have you ever felt like you can't change?
You try and you try, but along the line,
you slip up and fail again?
Obvious lessons you never learn,
and how everyone around
is cursed with pain.

If you have ever felt this way, then you and I,
We are the same.
If you always feel this way, then you and I,
We are the same.