You will always be
the heart of my art.

I would die
for another touch of yours;

I would die
for another kiss of yours;

I would die
for one last sight
of yours.

there are dozens of reasons
of staying in this season
for choosing this decision
for not breaking this tension
but when hurting hurts
but when loving stops
calm your heart
touch your palm
is it hot
is it not
what you wanted
what you painted
embrace the whys
don't just ever lie
you just loved someone
who you think is right
who you think will might
not sure yet
but that is how you felt
now you question every why
now you can't even say bye

xo

You have all my attention even when the Corona is the world issue.

I miss you from the future
As in, the time ahead bleeds into now
As in, the space apart balloons from here
As in, these minutes will soon be weeks and maybe someday years.

Someday will I see you and not know who you are?
Your bearded face, your grown-up heart?
Once we were Gemini but then we could be strangers.
For years we blossomed side by side,
Now your fern and my oak have been planted far apart.
And I fear we'll forget
we were saplings in the same ***.
For just a moment,
Family.

thought you should know
i don't want to hear a no
spend time for me
i wanna see you bee
honeybee
sweet little pea
this cold embracing
i miss the feeling
of warm hugs
clingy hands
scooting alongside bed
we are gold
when we both are bold
let's fold
this blanket
let's hold
and share a jacket

xo

I could still see you
In my dreams
As you beckon me
To take a step
Closer.

I can't, I say,
It's all just a dream.
Your smile fades away,
Black cuts clean.

I wake up confused,
Breathing hard,
Needles piercing my chest.

I miss you.
I miss you
So much.