I didn't know
I've been doing this for so long
I met you online
We had only one chat
About an hour
But you changed my life
In a bad way
In a way I can't describe
At that exact moment
The lies started
And have never stopped since

Everything I say is a lie
I have never see the sky
I don't have a million questions why
I give up after only a one little try
I have always loved to say goodbye
I was completely neutral when I caught your eye
That night I didn't dream that I could fly
My heart is not caught up in a tie
And you can believe every word of my,
Soliloquy, because everything I say is a lie.

Love..
I lied when I said I came for a coffee..
I swung by your cubicle to have a peek at you;
I lied when I said that I missed the exit..
I wanted a few extra minutes with you in the car;
I lied when I said I was super hungry..
I wanted you to invite me for dinner;
I lied when I said I loved movies...
I just wanted to sit beside you for those two short hours;
I lied when I said I wanted to learn that software from you..
I just wanted a license to be around you all the time;
I lied when I said I won’t miss you
I just didn’t have the courage to ask you to stay back
But I am not lying when I say that you are in my every single thought since you left;
and
Now I am lying to myself every single day, that I had never loved you in the first place

Now I don’t want to live a lie
I just want to live my life  
But for now let’s play it by ear
In this world that’s so surreal
I can wait with you my dear
Happiness is not far from here

Let the mountains run high
With the moon so low
Feel the wind upon your face
And let’s be mindful
That the world is a beautiful place

See the water falling from the sky
Remind me
We were gifted
The dimension of time
But I grow older with every tide
And I have moved on
From this calamitous life of mine

By Arcassin Burnham

You can't join,
What's a man to do to get his own peace?
Mind in a place with no granders,
Living day by day with no say and no law
and no purpose,
Hope it's worth it,
Still don't wanna create a life in world
that displays its okay to cheat on your wife
and lie,
Good thing I'm one of the good ones,
Pretending not to be the hood ones.

Save
Die
Repeat
The null and void reclusive love who we seek
I was a man once
Deceptively strong and meek
The world won't be inverted by me

Shame
Cry
Repeat
The painful resurgence of romance so bleak
I was a boy once
Innocently sweet
But internally soured

Love
Lie
Repeat
The patron of matrimonial glee
I am dead now
I'm married to death
A lonesome loving grave
What a shame