I'm happy.
I am happy.

You left me;
And, I thought I would be broken without you,
But I learned that I was miserable with you.

I swear,
Don't ever come back.
It was the only thing you ever did
That didn't hurt me.

If you do,
When you do,
It will tell me
You never loved me.

But
Remember when I said, “I love you”
You replied with, “I love you”
Awesome, great, thank you.
I felt, I thought, I knew
That I was important to you

But
When I said, “I love you more”
You replied with, “I love you less than you love me”
At first I thought that it was meant to be a part of our lore
I overlooked the toxicity
To try and find the beauty

But
I will never forget
Every jewel I ever spent
I wanted you to say that you loved me more
Instead, you left me in a pile of gore.
Forget it.

And
I was left all alone.
In the depths of my own thoughts
I felt that I was less than the crone
A fool left in a thousand cuts.
So, I will end it all to impose the end of all buts.

Where are your words?
Or were they meant to be just words?

His spoken words were:
“I will love you.”
And so he loved me.
Then left me.
Because his unspoken words were:
“I will leave you.”

The rain is pouring out of my soul
The roaring thunder left me cold
The blaring lightening is indeed bold
A sad story of a lady behold!
O Lord of the magnificent world
Please give us thy blessing tenfold

In your nothingness, I found you
In my nothingness, you discovered her
Leaving me to grief losing you
With such heavy heart I let you go
Only to meet you often in my dreams
A dream where you are a part of my being.

When disappointment comes to call
I will be there, laid bare, find me there;
Open wounded and standing small,
Arms outstretched like a fool.
When just my fears are standing tall
I will be there, I would dare, leave me there,
To prove my worth was nothing much,
A slight of touch, fingers slipping,
Dreams were nothing, all I held
Were little more than grains of pain.
I will be there, still, always, just the same.

TS Lefort