People take it for granted And just assume that everyone has it To feel themselves be captured By something they won't admit
To feel the pain That consuming torture To have that warm beat in your chest Spreading like wildfire
To feel what I want to feel
Not when the music starts Or when a novel ends I want that constant suffocating feeling That gives my life meaning I want to be whole and broken
I want what words can’t explain Or letters can't decode I want to be torn apart And sowed back together I want to feel my stomach drop when life nocks me down I want to feel my vocals rip When i cry
I want to feel Like something to someone I want the emotion of knowing I ment something I felt something
To feel the raw emotions Of being human Not this numbness
Not the dread of the sunrise knowing It will be gone
Screen in hand I scroll past the pointless pictures Until suddenly I see your face You're smiling with the same dumb grin Not a picture you've taken You're probably not even aware it exists Too caught up in the moment You're surrounded by friends People I used to call friends too once a long time ago I can feel the tears build in my eyes Even though I told myself I wouldn't cry over you It's the end of an era that's for sure Everything that was once mine here is gone
