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SøułSurvivør Mar 2016
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expect nothing to go as planned
except for the changes

expect changes in your plans
and you'll never be disappointed

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SoulSurvivor
(C) 3/25/2016
My yard sale was cancelled. My father is returning and I want to do things with him. He has been in a rehab center for about 3 weeks and I haven't seen him except to visit. I'm glad the cleaning got done while he was gone! He's something of a clutter bug. Even though my plans have changed and I was looking forward to the sale I'm very happy my father's coming home and I will be happy to see him.
Grace Jordan Mar 2016
You see that phrase above? I always hated it. I hated it with every fiber of my being. But I could never deny that was the exact kind of living I always did.

Always convinced, even conditioned, to think people would leave. To think no one would be able to feel anything but temporary love for me. That I'd always be alone, that I'd always feel unworthy, that I'd always feel afraid.

Its weird to not be afraid.

I lived so many years of my life in fear. I had everyone leave me on and off for 18 years. I couldn't possibly fathom anyone would ever stay. Why would they? I was just broken, crazy Grace. Why would anyone really want me.

Here I am today though, not afraid.

I don't feel sane. I thought I'd need that to get here. But controlled crazy isn't so bad. I actually think I prefer it. My fingers can dance across a keyboard but also still and be human. I feel ok to be crazy when I also don't feel like its eating me away. Being eaten's always the worst part. Its much nicer to sit and have a cup of tea with it.

So yes, life isn't perfect. That's another fallacy I convinced myself of; if I stopped the crazy my life would be perfect. My head was a little funny like that. Of course things aren't perfect; family stuff is a bit messy and I have flashback moments of bad childhood feelings and I haven't been able to write much. But I'm doing well in class. I finished a novel. I have people who love me and I love them. I have the best boyfriend who I always love to see. Of course things aren't perfect. But they feel like life now instead of a painful sinkhole.

I need to read more. I need to write more. I need to publish my novel and I need to graduate. But I'm on my way and I m so happy to be somewhere. I'm not where I thought I'd be when I controlled the crazy. But there is no such thing as controlling the crazy.

Best you can do is sit right down and have a nice chat and know together that's really the best.
Mic Mar 2016
Demanding nothing
But your smile
Life's a dream
From my diary entry: "I'm happy when you're happy."
NeroameeAlucard Mar 2016
Don't get my hopes up
Because that'll only lead to you getting shot down after your endorphins dope you up
My mind and chest cavity are closed up
Don't forget me
Don't forget
Don't
Get
Expectations set on anyone
That'll lead to being shot in the head
And fate pulling the trigger
Or your soul burning like ******* in ether
Spoken word
Brigette Beck Feb 2016
If I've learned anything
It's that you don't always get what you want.
Life isn't like the movies
Make it out to be:
People don't follow the script in your head,
Your plans for the future
Aren't what's in store for you,
Expectations can crumble
In an instant,
Everything you tried for
Turned to dust in a second.
That's just the course of life.
have a good day :)
SassyJ Feb 2016
Mercies at  juxtapositional refinement
Abandoned constitutional confinement
Handshakes on the bridged ligaments

The sweet melodious serene dreams fleets
One after the other like peculiar inventions
The mellow scenes of frames realignments

Wonderful crafted words verses paradigm
Harmonic jazz awesomeness, decode freeness
Orchestral spontaneity drills pragmatic energy

Yet, as the gingered steams rise from the hot brew
The scented breeze of life vaticinates with a smile afar
Whispers of "no obligation, no expectations" reverbs..... on and on....on and on
If it has not been mentioned DO NOT READ AND ANALYSE THE IN BETWEEN! It is what it is ..... "PERIOD"!
Angelique Feb 2016
ruined expectations
a destination of fools
obvious opportunities - lay damaged
the disappointment is hard to comprehend
and
the message is blinding
Nora Feb 2016
I’m waging battles,
Winning fights
Against my mind.
Little things that
Dragged me down
Are gently tucked and
Buried beneath
The soft loam of
Recovery. It’s fresh
and shallow, like a
Scab and you just
Love to pick around
The edges until it’s
Red and raw and
Ready to rip off my
Skin, it’s thin, I’m
Sensitive and
War has not hardened
Me enough to roll
With all the punches.
Expect me not to
Meet your Expectations
I am done trying,
Even though I’m
******* hardwired
To shove myself into



Their ill-fitting form.
McKenna Balzer Feb 2016
keep spending expectations like currency on maybes,
Or miscounting the number of steps between us.
I can't quite reach what is already gone.
But I don't want to.
I'll keep singing lullabies to those who will not listen,
and you can tell me what it was that made you crave love,
but kept you from ever loving anyone in return.
I can't keep looking for reasons to things I don't want to know.
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