Expectations can be such a misery
Misery of unexpected truth
Truth that blinds us
Us that expectation have tore apart
Apart from what we knew
Knew that in the end we weren’t true
True be the misery of expectations too

He told me,
"Don't expect
Too much of
Yourself.
My love,
You cannot
Touch stars,
For they are
Too hot."

How can one feel so empty and hollow
yet at the same time so full of pain
how does one continue on
how can one live this way
and why do I have to?

I'm not saying that I am hopeless,
because I do have hope
that at the end of each day
I won't live to see the next
because why do I have to?

Keep fighting, it'll be okay
some day, one day, maybe.
just continue to suffer endlessly,
to please your family.
But why do I have to?

"Your life is important
You need to take care of yourself"
But I'm tired,
I'm so tired.
Why do I have to?

Take a breath.
Push through.
But why
the ****
do I have to?