#envy poems on Hello Poetry

Katie Oct 2021

I lost this game long ago.
I lost the moment I considered it such.
Your heart was far too pure.
It matters not if I have to endure
Seeing her smile raise you so.
My words were a crutch.

You were always here,
and you always will be.
I hate that that's not enough.
My love is unrefined, far too rough
to lighten the sun and make skies clear.
I'm far too blind to see.

Love is hard, but beautiful.
My heart is blackened, wrong.
I love you too much to make you
Suffer all the pain I'd put you through.
She's kind, loving, dutiful,
enough for everlong.

Part 2
Written a short time later.

#envy #bitterness #love #acceptance #care

Katie Oct 2021

Love Me, Not Her

You don't know it,
You can't know it,
I never said a word.
How could I?
The borders of our friendship,
Though the thought makes me cry;
Too blurred.

But why her not me?
But why this not me?
I wanted to be here
Within you;
To nestle deep into your heart
and love you your life through,
Without fear.

Why couldn't it be?
Why shouldn't it be?
Years, months, weeks, days,
Eternity.
You've always been here and yet
I'm selfish with pity.
My type betrays.

Part 1
I wrote this recently. Never got around to posting it.

#unrequited #love #jealousy #envy

Hunger Sep 2021

Release

My sweet release so sad and dark,
Was the start of the black fire that tiny spark,
Ignite my once weak soul,
The fire that burns me is what makes me whole,
I have become the pain,
My soul is no longer free to stain,
I am Greed,
I am Lust,
I am Hunger,
I am Malice,
I am Hate,
I am Wrath,
I am Envy,
I am Sorrow,
I take it all I breathe it in,
I am it and it is now within,
My soul shakes at what I have become,
But its now all said and done,
The monster I am now all may fear,
Till the day I die and disappear...

#lust #greed #hate #sorrow #envy #hunger

Descovia Sep 2021

Envious ArchAngel

I may not be your first or only

It appears that forever is not to be

I cannot see you without me

Time flies fast, any moment the next flight, could be our last!

To have you as everything, even at the cost of my own wings.

The light of miracles and destined hope, makes you shine so brightly!

My shadow-self, is visibly able to see the pieces of the true me,

reflecting in your glorious radiance.

Reality dissolves, accepting my eternal fate for an unholy escape.

Darkness burns it all before my eyes

Watching the parts of me die and scatter.

Wanting only my love to matter.

In the end, I became something more I hate.

I just realised you can read this backwards as well!

#new #raw #love #envy

beckie d and the poetry Sep 2021

motherhood envy

mother,
yelling at her child
in the market
mother,
stranger,
how i wish to yell at you
a child.
so precious,
ALIVE!
BREATHING!
HERE.
how i wish i had
a child to yell at
to take into my arms
to love
to kiss
to hug
to yell at,
never again.

be grateful for your children

#motherhood #envy

noura Aug 2021

Radio Silence

I cannot explain all the pathetic measures
my eyes will take to avoid your gaze,
all the paths my legs will journey to avoid bumping into you on my way home.
All the ways I knead my hands to the bone and all the toothpick excuses skewering my tongue.
And I cannot explain the way your presence deflates something inside my chest.
I don't know what to do with all that empty space. It echoes.
I fill it with the thimble's worth of pride that I scrape together,
every meager flake of validation I pick from the floor. I shovel slopping handfuls of sawdust
to try and soak up some of the shadows
but everything dissolves in that oily void, green and hideous.
God, it echoes, and everyone hears it.
I muffle it with my radio silence.
I look at you and I see everything I hate about myself
under a microscope.
Every blemish, every scar, every gaping hole
that you lack.
Stop, look. Here. Wrong.
Hear?
I blind myself with radio silence.
I don’t know how to live with an eternal reminder that I am incomplete.
You, and the place you hollowed without even knowing it.
Green and monstrous.
It echoes and everyone hears it.
I love you, but I cannot explain my radio silence.

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#jealousy #insecurity #envy #silence #excuses #conflicted #i #hate #tags #ew

Lyrical Dream Aug 2021

Seven Deadly Sins Collection Part I: Envy

Fair goddess, strip me of my wings
And cast my body to the sea

Atleast then I become the rain that kisses your cheek-
the morning dew that brushes your ankles-
the snow that rests upon your raven lashes.

For as Icarus envies the sky for embracing the sun, I envy these things in their gorgeous simplicity

And yet,
they dwell oblivious to the fortune they posses-the gift of touching you

#envy #icarus #love #rain #sea

lua Jul 2021

i dont understand

no one really understands
but i get it
i dont understand either
why this ghost in my body
why this ghost in my body writhes
and tosses
and turns
and makes me sob and weep
shrill and high
yet silently, unobserved
i dont really get it either
why this ghost in my body falls in love with everyone it meets
and makes me green with envy
and a chilling blue of loneliness
that makes it hard to see anything
other than red
and rose
no one really understands
but thats okay
i dont understand either.

#envy #jealousy #green #blue #red #rosetinted #loneliness #ghost #detachment #confusion

Pseudonymous S Jun 2021

14:37 EST

I’m not sure that I know what jealousy feels like.

I’ve heard tales of it.

Of green cheeks and envious eyes and pounding hearts.

And while my heart beats in my chest like a snare drum,
I don’t believe that it’s out of envy.

I’ve little care for your other loves
Or other bodies.
For all that matters to me
Is when your head
Is on my chest.

I don’t believe I’ve felt jealousy.

Fear,

On the other hand,

Is a strong possibility.

#fear #envy #jealousy #love #emotion