When I saw his name pop up
In your phone.
I felt something in me break
& it hasn’t been right since.
The way you call my name,
The way you touch me.
I knew it was over.
I continued to go about,
Remembering the person I once
Knew.
When you’d kiss me your grip
Only got looser, while mine
Became tighter.
The receiving end of closed eyes
In search of better times,
Reliving a moment perhaps
I’d never live again.
Deep down I felt something in me
Break, something only you had
The power to fix.
The voice in my head told me,
The way you grabbed me the last
Time we met told me.
The way you tried to hide it
The way I pretended not to see
Told me.
Your eyes told a familiar story,
Not everything needs to be said.
To be dumb deaf & blind,
I love you that much

Looking at him by that door,
****.  
It hurts like your first baby tooth falling out.
A space left empty by something so familiar.
I can still feel the warmth of his pressure on my chest,
And boy, I miss it.
He looks like a kicked puppy when he has to leave,
But I feel like one.
And every night,
I turn the lock to the right then back to the left.
I can’t lock this door.
I can’t for fear that I’ll walk into my room
And he’ll run up,
Meeting a barrier which I allowed
To come between us,
And I can’t for hope that he will come back,
Arms open, jaw set crooked, biting his lip.

come back,
that's all i request

why'd you
have to go


i hate being in love
with someone i
can't have

I didn't want you to stay.
But I'm glad you did.
I didn't want you to go.
But I'm glad you did.

You'll never know what I knew
Like my new found appreciation for only your tattoos

You'll never see what I've seen
like how the halo of your eyes are the same color as me

You'll never feel what I felt
How the warmth of your embarrass causes me to melt

You'll never hear what I've heard
The echoes from your laugh and the passion in your murmurs  

You'll never cry the way I've cried
From the pits of my stomach, the burning inside when you said goodbye