I cannot cry.
The last tear was dry.
I disappointed myself with crying.
So ill leave it in.

Refrain from feeling sad.
Do not pity yourself for being in the storm.
Shield yourself, arm yourself.
Be the ******* storm.

Every tear i shed was a memory,
A golden memory.
But as i hold on to your memories,
I am shredded with anger.

I let myself down.
I betrayed myself and you.
I feared others seeing me as a monster.
When I have truly become one.

I shall not deny it.
But embrace it.
I apologise for my weakness.
I apologise for the romance.

I do not regret it.
I still wish for it.
I still love you.
And i cant get you out of my head.

But this rage,
Rage against my decisions.
My thoughts and actions.
I am weak and destructive.

Im the Thief of Hearts.
A Monster to Men.
A Rebel to Fathers.
But a treasure to you.

I waited for you on Monday.
Waited for your call.
Waited for you to say.
I came back to you.

Who is this dreamer I became?
When did I lose grip of the darkness?
When did i stop seeing the truth?
Become blinded by love and passion.

My language has become poetry.
My mind a revolution.
My heart still in your hands.
My body beaten and bruised.

I've no port to go home to.
No nest to rest in. I walk among mortals.
The Sapphire Goddess?
She went back to Olympus.

i believe you:
you love me

i know you're  
by my side

our lives were
pieces of puzzles

until we came.
together.

we got together
we came together

during a dance
during the dancing
you remember?

on a friday
in august
between the lights of shadows
between the shadows of the sun
glitz between our lipps

connected by scent and greed

mouths and ammunition
ammunition and mouths

on a friday in august i
believed you were with me

i believed you

Close your eyes.
And dream.
Dream of me.
Dream of all that could have been.

Dream of the beaches and the passion.
Dream of the struggles and storms.
Dream of the sunrise and sun sets.
Dream of the two of us, amidst all of this.

Who am I kidding?
I am the one dreaming.
I am the one lost in fantasy.
I cant help but think.

All I can do is dream.
Of what could have been.
Of how I could have been that one.
Of where this is going to take us.

Wake up boy. Stop dreaming.
Don't fool yourself. Stop thinking.
Open your eyes and see what it actually is.
This isn't Neverland. This is real

I know you love me,
But do you love him?
I know I love you,
But how will this end?

Are you as scared as I am of letting go?
If you want out of this, will you please just tell me so?

I tried to talk to you , and you didn’t even look up.
I made you dinner that you didn’t even touch.

My hands start to shake,
and my eyes swell with tears.
My head starts to spin,
And I relive all my fears.


The trauma living in me, rears it’s head again.
I cower and I crumble, when I hear the yell of a man.

My throat tightens up
I’m afraid of being alone.
I feel as if I’m floating around with no place to call my home.

I wish for a family.
A happily ever after.
I dream of white dresses,
A special day filled with love and laughter.

But it is only wishful thinking.
And I know this to be true.
All that I’ve wanted in life was to find someone like you.

But am I the girl you’ve been searching for?
I really highly doubt it.
The lack of touch and intimacy, you’re practically shouting it.

You’re better on your own.
All I bring here is baggage,
Sticks and stones can break my bones
But my heart will break the fastest.

So tell me the truth will you?
Just lay it down upon me.
I promise I will take the cue
That you indeed don’t really want me.

Sometimes I forget how much words hurt
The sting as they hit your ears
And the jagged incision they make to your brain
Then on to your heart

Even more often I forget that silence hurts worse
Your pleas and needs falling on deaf ears
The response of a muted tongue
It’s so hard to find my balance