Why did you ashore on my ocean heart
And tamed my impossible waves?
Why did I lay on your wild wind
Which pushed me onto unloving waters?
Why did you kissed the full Moon
And chased my clutching lips?
Why did I utter words into your eyes
Which cursed my faithful hands?
Why did you cheat on my trust
And stole the sky from our embrace?
Why did I believe in your look
Which took a spell on my darkening soul?
Why did You?
Why did I?
Why?
?

Then
My love for you was as broad as the horizon
Then
My pain came in waves
Then
My tears flowed like flooded rivers from a days rain
Now
My heart and mind shake like leaves
at the thought of not rooting and branching out with you.
Now
My spirit wants to be freed, not bound to the lies  you say true.
Now
You're still not shy to say you love me sadly you've made me doubt, you working games but slack when it counts.

I am aware,
That you are not.
That this pain, my pain,
Is not yours.

Never good
Or just not good enough
There was something to
Your eyes, in me,
never worth to be fond of.
I wonder why she was,
while I was not,
In a rare case where a ghost
defeats real flesh
Real lust.

Me, with real flaws
And real love, and really,
Really hurt
By the waltz of the past
You made me dance
Till my feet bled,
And my body ached,
And my soul was broken,
And my dignity.. left.

But I’m aware,
That you are certainly not
that this pain, my pain
Will never be yours.

I felt your tidal wave of expectations
Flowing down on me
I thought it was a miracle I didn't drown
You told me I should have built a boat