Her arms locking round me, her warm embrace
Like cashmere touched for the very first time
And feeling too perfect,too comforting to exist.
i recall the soft touch of your hand
on my infant cheek--
so delicate in the moment,
but so menacing later on.
i recall the warmth of your skin
as it comforted my shaking hand--
so calm in the moment,
but so frightening later on.
i recall the sweetness of your smile
as it had shone its luminescent glow upon me--
so beautiful in the moment,
but so unsettling later on.
i can't quite understand
why you no longer hold my hand.
see, you have a light touch so full of love,
that it could burst at any moment--
giving way to something sour.
i don't see the reason
for you to make my eyelids change color every season.
see, i have bruises like silk
and blood like milk--
your emotions could drink it all in one sitting.
i don't understand
why my heart still beats if the scale of my wrongdoing is so grand.
see, i have a droplet of hope,
but it falls into an ocean of fear
He held out his hand for her to hold
when she was afraid and unsure.
He comforted her worried heart
with the strength of his smile.
He saved the last of her will
with the warmth of his words.
And then with all the things he did for her,
he became the love she knew.
fifteen years, a decade ago
i held on
as i knew
as i knew
your touch comforted me
while you love i missed
as when i held on
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