I miss you Brandon my first death that really hit me
It'll be five years in October since you left me
Alone in a world were you had a plan had it all figured out
I didn't know what I wanted to do, yet god took me away from you
You had the future in your hand I remember you sitting with our teaching devising a plan
Working and doing school 4 years til grad
What college and what course now just a buried corpse
Didn't shed a tear at your burial, but every year after you memorial I cry thinking of what could be
You were doing good in college unlike me
Barely struggling to find a degree
I remember late September you took a break to come visit me
Smoking **** and watching TV you said you believed in me
I was failing a college, the one where you wanted to be
Working your *** off while I fail my random degree
Serving tables to make the loans appease, never needed either not for me
Incredibly blessed by my parents and your presence
All your effort and yet god took you away from me
Didn't know I had all this de-welled up in me, fiver years later i can write it to be free
Brandon R**n you were a treat I'm so glad we could meet become good friends until that semi took a piece of me
Finally meet your girlfriend can't believe we lost her
The two of you were meant to be I’m sure
Good men die too early
So I guess you were no different really
But surely you had more to give us here on earth
Losing you has been the worse

Think about you the whole month of October

It's about time
Time I tell them your name
Brandon
Gorgeous blonde hair
Hazel eyes...
But they're filled with lies...
You're not my type..
You're far from it
But I fell for. It
Was it worth it... Brandon?
Was it worth it...
You said I was different from the rest...
That I treated you the best...
Now I'm sitting here crying...
Because you Said you loved me...
Now those words I cannot trust...
A knife into my heart you ******...
Now I can't have a relationship....
Because my self I cannot trust...
And I won't do what you did to me...
To someone else...
Fix your self...
Because you broke the girl who loved you the most...
Worst part...
She.. Me..
I STILL LOVE YOU!

"My king"
Ohh my precious king,
How I hunger for your touch,
How I long for your fingers brushing through my hair til I fall asleep, How I long to hold your hands and hold it tight,
I will never let you go,
How I long to engulf you,
Feel your heartbeat as I lay my head on your chest,
Lift my head and look at you,
Looking at each other's eyes,
Be in trance, Ohhh how wondrous!
And I will go near you and will kiss you,
Ohh i will kiss you for eternity my love,
I will never stop, Your breath will be my air and as mine to you,
Ohh my king I will never ever let any time to be in waste,
I will indulge every single second with you,
I will cherish it and memorize every time I spend with you,
And every night in my sleep, I will replay those memories and savor it, i don't want the time to go on,
I want it to stop and just enjoy every moment with you forevermore.

Ohh my precious king,
Can you feel my deep yearning?
Ohh how my pillow wet from my tears of missing you, i desire you, I miss your voice,
Your voice is my music,
I miss your laugh,
Your laugh is my sunshine,
You lighten up my life,
I miss your songs,
Your songs are my nourishment,
You always fill me with your love,
My empty cup runs over with your love,
I miss looking at your angelic face,
I miss YOU, YOU!
How I really ache to be beside you,
No more video chatting, no more phone calls, no more voice clips, no more singing songs over internet, no more technologies,
Ohhh i just wanna enjoy you,
Be alone in a forest,
Enjoy the wonderful nature our God has given us,
Live a simple life with you,
Away from all troubles,
I WANNA BE WITH YOU!
I only want to be with you!
I need to be with you!
I never dreamed life without you,
You are my life,
My future,
I can't go on with my life without you.
I can't, i just can't !

My brandon,
Soon when I see you,
Even before you ask me I will say "I do",
I want us to have God's heavenly seal,
A bond infrangible,
I wanna spend my entire life with you,
And for eternity in that heavenly realm,
I wanna serve God with you,
I wanna be a godly woman for you,
I wanna enjoy my life with you,
With God as our guide and refuge,
Ohh my king,
No words can express how I long to be only just with you,
Only YOU,
You are my life,
My breath,
My very best friend,
My soulmate,
My preordained,
My husband,
My ALL.
You are to me.
Ohh how i yearn for you,
This throe is so hard to bear,
But I will my love,
Because only you are there in my future,
Only you in my dream,
I will certainly & patiently wait til God's perfect time.
'Cause you are my only love, my chosen one,
And I want you, I need you, I long for you, and I love you.*

"Mine queen"
"Mine Reyna, O' darling Reyna,
As the sun doth ariseth in the east
And set in the west; thy heart wilt
Be in mine palm's, as a baby in caress.
Best of amour, the best is yet, for when
We meet, ourn lip's wilt be wet.
Wet with kisses of the morning
Celestial dew, O' heaven's much
Better, when it's thee with me;
I with thou to. Queen how I long
The approaching hour, when we
Shalt be warmed by Glowing
Angel's within their hand's-
Testimonies of God and his
Unending love, and his throne
Of power. In pearl attire, view of the mountain's
Unknown, mine lass, mine lady, I shalt embrace thy
Lonesome bones. None earphones needed, for we'll heareth
All to hear, we'll seeith creatures only the creator's aware, of the majestic being's of beauty. Hold me, closer mine Jane; lock me up into your Filipino rose Bud's, I want to drink of thine love, I want to taste thy nectar's touch. Mine chosen meed, thy hair of satin wilt I smell it's world to breathe. In and out I fulfill the seed's of prophecy, in ancient manner. Across ourn foreheads Yahweh's name, inside ourn spirit's the word's the same. The word's to read "preordained", unafraid to a venture new. Coconut queen of tribal moves, baby flower of romantic brew. O' indeed I needeth thee, just come closer and be, as one we art. We shalt giggle in streams wherein the night is nought, love can't be bought, nor sold in form, love is god, god is love; with one another, we shalt overcome. Seraph's, cherub's, and messenger's surround us. For we art preordained, O' with thee I'm verily blessed. O' with thee Jane mine love, I've been given the best.


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